He says "ooh, baby girl, don't get cut on my edges.
I'm the king of everything, you know my tongue is a weapon.
There's a light in the crack that's separating your thighs,
and if you wanna go to heaven, you should fuck me tonight."
~Halsey, Young God

Ugh, there's... a lot that I have to say about this one, and I have none of the words for it. there's two sketches I want to do related to this, but idk if I'll actually do them, and if I do, idk if I'll publish them.

First off, the poses were referenced from here.

Second, the song was the inspiration for this song, but applying it to either character would do them both a disservice and would be wildly OOC. They both have their bad moments, but neither would ever have said or done anything like that. Young Gods was just stuck in my head while I was browsing references, and I've had a strong itch to draw Sira for a while now, but didn't want to have to invent an entirely new male character for her story, or just for this art. That leads to point 4.

Third (this is really just a note about Sira tbh), when Sira is afraid, she has trouble staying in one form and will often shift unevenly across her body. This is a very bad thing to have happen in a combat zone, as it could, for example, leave her with one fully feline leg and one fully human, making walking kind of a bitch. What I tried to show here is a minor version of that loss of control; fur spreading across her body and retracting as she struggles to stay in one shape.

Fourth, and really the longest and hardest to write part of this... the guy on the left is... hah. That's Timothy Torbitt, my ex's character (or my best attempt to draw him. y'all know I hate drawing humans, and Tim has never had a visual reference sheet). Any of you who've followed me for six or more years will know the specific ex, but those of you who haven't shouldn't worry about it.

After he and I broke up for the final time, I spent a long time considering what to do about Sira's story. For a while I didn't want any of the things we'd RP'd and written with the two to be canon to her story, but... honestly, despite my feelings about Tim's creator, I really did like him as a character, and he was a big part of Sira's life. I decided to keep things canon, though I did sort of have Sira kill off Tim in order to have a reason for him no longer being in the picture. Had things not gone bad between his creator and I, there would have been no real in-character reason for them to break up. Hell, I even designed them a kid at one point, though I decided after the breakup that she would be the one thing not canon to Sira's story.

That being said, anything malevolent from him that's implied by this picture is OOC. Sira was always the more aggressive and unstable of the two, and the most likely to attack him in a bad mood or when caught in a flashback. No matter how I feel about his creator, I don't want anyone seeing this to think the character was evil, or bad, or anything like that. The roleplays and stories between Sira and Tim were a big part of my early journey as a writer, and a big part of Sira's life. Probably the best written part of her life, detail-wise... I digress.

Drawing this brought up a lot of bad memories of things between his creator and me. I actually almost broke down crying earlier because of all the memories and scenarios going through my head. I've had nightmares. I had... I don't know what to call it. Is there such a thing as a waking nightmare? Where you're totally awake but feel caught in a dream? It definitely wasn't memory or a flashback... I really considered just. deleting my WIP of this several times. It took a lot out of me.

There's probably a lot I should have fixed in this, and normally I wouldn't post it immediately after "finishing" it, but I don't want this sitting in my drafts any longer than absolutely necessary. I still feel like I'm about to cry again, and I just. Want it posted and over with. So please just...bear with me on any. glaring issues. (daaaaamn Raptor, back at it again with the refusal to study light and anatomy)