Her name's Darkling, just like my flippersona and other 'sonas that I trashed. I think I'll still keep my flippersona, but I'm nothing like a typical dolphin (or at least what most people think of a typical dolphin being like)... that has almost a personality almost completely opposite of mine... I just love dolphins and enjoy imagining being one. I suppose that's the main reason I've found myself wanting one as a 'sona more than any other creature. And it feels like no animal would fit me as a 'sona except a human being, and I didn't want just a human being as a 'sona. XD

A few weeks ago, though, I got the idea of making myself a pokesona and I immediately thought of this fave of mine. It's a human spirit in Pokemon form, but I think it would suit me pretty well for other reasons, too. I'm prone to getting depressing, anxious, neurotic, sometimes somewhat morbid-minded, shy around literally all people, introverted, thinking/daydreaming more than talking (but when I do talk I often end up sounding stupid and I often say a bit too much), often kind of self-hating for various reasons, sometimes getting too absorbed in self-pity, sometimes getting annoying, sometimes getting a bit quick-tempered and snapping, saying stupid kind-of-aggressive stuff without thinking, sometimes getting too defensive, often rather cowardly and rather weak in some ways, being socially awkward, and so on... I suppose this little ramble and this choice of pokemon for a 'sona must seem kind of melodramatic, maybe even kind of emo. And I suppose it is, but I also think it's pretty honest. Despite all this sad-sack talk, I'm actually pretty happy most of the time. And when I get too down I have to remind myself that I have a pretty damn good life (and then I feel bad about feeling down, which just keeps me down, so then I just have to think about something else. Luckily my mood can change very much very quick...)

Originally she had glasses on her actual face as well as on her mask, but she looked better without those. I also tried to give her longish "hair" since I have long hair in real life, but that kept looking ridiculous. Splitting the two head-point-things into five kind of made her look like she has a mohawk, which is a bit silly since I've never had any mohawk and never will, but I still like how it looks on this yamask. I made her indigo with a silver mask like a shiny 'cause I thought those colors would suit me better, and I made the eyes green instead of yellow 'cause green eyes symbolize jealousy, and I get jealous of literally everyone for all sorts of reasons. Plus I think green eyes look just as good as yellow eyes on this. \o/

Since this would be me in the Pokémon world, I probably got myself killed by some Pokémon, about the time when I changed as a person in real life, though much less dramatically… cause sometimes I feel like I was a better person in the past… uh, sorry, er, anyway… Another thing about this yamask (whose name will be Darkling, too)… She probably accidentally ingested an Everstone somehow, for some reason… Maybe because she’s more like a shiny yamask than a normal one, and since shiny yamask and cofagrigus have silver on ‘em instead of gold, maybe they like to eat pieces of silver instead of gold… so maybe Darkling mistook the Everstone for a piece of silver. So now she can never evolve. Because although I love Cofagrigus as much as Yamask, I’m not enough like a Cofagrigus to have one for a ‘sona. Though I’m probably a bit more like a Cofagrigus than a dolphin, or at least no more unlike a Cofagrigus than I am unlike a dolphin… Anyway, if she actually did evolve, she’d still look like a shiny except still with green eyes and still having glasses on the mask. But she’ll be stuck as a puny wisp forever because that suits me better. Anyhow… um, otherwise, she’s just me, of course. ^^;

Ramble, ramble, ramble… what a ridiculous wordy mess… GODDAMNIT I AM NERVOUS ABOUT POSTING THIS, I’LL HAVE TO BURY IT IN PHOTOGRAPHY. :/

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