I feel your world and see the things that make you live

I wanna feel your rush and taste the you best you give tonight

Gotta make the most of this before they cut the lights

Show me lights, don't throw it away

Show me lights, show me how you built the city that you own

Show me lights, show me how you make it glow

WATCH ME DRAW THIS http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7\_GsQmtt6bc

Smooshin' all up on Mitsu.

For Bradley because he deserved something a little more than that last one for putting up with me like he does. I wanted to really put some effort into a picture for him. I also kinda wanted to illustrate what love feels like to me; their expressions don't really show that, but the colors and overall feel does - I just wanted to draw them so visibly happy together rather than all emotional hhhhaha. But yes, the golden glow, stars/sparks, etc are how I'd visualize the feeling.

Love you, stupid.

So I'm going to do a thing I've done for the past three years. This is year four now... holy hell... That's so hard to believe.

So this is where I write to him.

So hi Bradley. So this is the fourth one of these. Means four years since I met you. Four years since I looked at you and knew you were special. Four years ago I said hello and changed my life forever. I didn't know it'd be such a fateful decision but I can say that I'm glad it was. People like you aren't just everywhere and I've got plenty to admire about you. You've got your extremes but I like that. You're not boring and you're genuinely a great person. You're incredibly smart and you know what you're doing - that's a kind of stableness I need in my life(you know how erratic my mind is). You're passionate and when I discovered that about you I knew I loved you. From the beginning, there's been an undeniable spark that demanded attention.

You aren't just anybody. If I met someone else with all of your traits I wouldn't feel the same way because they would not be you. They wouldn't be Bradley. They wouldn't have their birthday in November and they wouldn't have brown eyes with a lot of hidden green when the light is just right. They wouldn't have a shade of hair to perfectly match those beautiful(almost useless) eyes. They wouldn't have your adorable freckles and they wouldn't laugh the way you do. The tiny things that make you who you are, that make me love you so much, they'd be missing. You're one of a kind.

The memories we share are just... irreplicable. I've talked about them in the other three pictures but this year we got to see The Airborne Toxic Event. You got to see me loosen up and sing and dance for the first time(and I wore a tank top - another first). I lept and grabbed you when they played Sometime Around Midnight, and I pulled you close during True Love to make a point to everyone who saw us. You held me and let me cry and sing and dance with you during Timeless... what a way to end the whole thing. And before it all you finally got to take me to Grimey's and we met a squirrel. I wonder if he thought we had food for him. He looked like my rat with a fluffy tail.

We got beyond rained out for our July 4th but we still hung out and we went to Steak n Shake before I brought you back to the hotel I was staying at after my house caught fire. We cuddled and watched a little TV and that was nice. I love just relaxing with you. Next 4th though it probably won't rain and we'll definitely watch some fireworks together like we did last year.

I remember the night of New Years you were talking to me while I watched Nicholas Sparks movies and you told me about how you were so excited for us. I'm glad I haven't totally let you down yet.

From cuddling in your CRV to keeping you close at Toxic Event there's just nothing I could ever forget or replace. It wouldn't be the same. 

There's a lot we've been through and a lot we're going to go through but it's always worth everything. I wouldn't trade this for anything. There's so much unique to you and unique to us and there's so much of it on my mind but it hasn't all been this year and I don't know if I mentioned it in the last three letterloves. Regardless, it's really special and really great and I'm still so happy you're the one I'm doing this with. I dunno who else would have kept me almost sane. I don't know who else I'd have held on so hard for. Like I said though, you're worth it. You've really shown me that stuff like this takes work and in that you've helped me learn something about myself... that this is something that I will absolutely not give up on no matter what. I'm dedicated to you and nothing ever changes that. Nothing ever will. No matter how tough it might get, I'm right here. I hope I've proven that to you.

I don't want to be repeating what I've said in the last three, but you're still really really special and I still love you so much, and that's worth saying because it means that over these years my feelings have not gone away. I hope that means something to you because it definitely means a lot to me. We've got a future... together. I know it. I mean.. a couple years ago I wouldn't have thought I'd be on #4 of these. At all. I might hae hoped but it'd seem like one of those too good to be true things. I'm glad that wasn't the case but that's how I know you're one of those really great once-in-a-lifetime people. Just... thanks for sticking with me through everything. It's been hard but it's been pretty great too. I'm glad you're dedicated as much as I am. I really want to make you happy for a long, long time.

Because you're you. Because you're Bradley and because I'm Chevy and some things are just meant to be. Because there's not another us. Because you've pushed me to my limits time and time again and it really tested my love  - because I've done the same for you and in that we've proven so much to each other. Because after everything, here we are. Because we can keep on. Because we can be happy together. Because my hand fits perfectly in yours. Because my heart feels like it lights up when you kiss me. Because I wouldn't give my future to anyone else. Because you're irreplaceable. Because I love you. I mean it. I love you and I always will. 

There's really no one else who could inspire me the way you do because you're you. And you're mine.