Turning point

the one that I really see as a turning point was the trip over to netherlands, daring myself to travel alone and seeing the people that I had made promises with and learned things as well from the trip

really had a dark period and made especially one promise ... which probably is keeping me still around to today
I can't say how much these few people from over there means to me or thank one of them enough for what I got to feel like .. that I have a worth and that I can relax

was afraid at one point that everything would turn out to be a dream and I would wake up .. being at my own place and nothing had been real, it had that effect on me

so I see this as a turning point for me and one that was in need for

...will try to finish this one another time and with a some bakground