"I am a concept, the personification of a confused mind, the embodiment of longing."

"I am Hope"

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Basics

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Name : Rose Hope
Nicknames : Bishi, BP, Princess, Bish, Spider
Species : Secular Witch
Faith : Ietsism
Affinity : Pastel Goth
Alignment : Chaotic Good
Myer Briggs : INFJ
Gender : Gender Confused/Questioning
Sex : ♀
Astrology : September 18th ♍ on the Cusp of ♎
Sexual Orientation : Pansexual Ethical Slut
Height & Weight : Short + Fat
Tattoos : 2 and counting
Peircings : Many
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Personality

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✘ Spiritual : Agnostic Theist, I worship the Universe. Unsure of what is out there, I seek a power within myself and the world I'm apart of. There is something so much bigger than us, and I seek to feel a connection to the Earth of which I will one day become. I utilize a combination of science and emotion to try and obtain a deeper sense of peace.

✘ Opinionated : When I believe in something wholly, I will speak up and vocalize it. I do not back down from debate or conversation.

✘ Strong Willed : If I set my mind on something, I will do everything in my power to accomplish it.

✘ Creative : Writer, Artist, Singer, Thespian, I've always felt the most at peace when creating something, especially if it invokes emotion.

✘ Sensitive : I try to hide it, but I'm actually incredibly sensitive. I hate how paper-thin my skin is. I can be petty, emotional, and reactive. I try really hard to not let it show, because I don't want to be seen as weak.

✘ Shy Extrovert : Yes, this exists, and no, it's not easy living with it. I thrive on human interaction, but also need to take time to recharge by myself. I both fear and long for conversation, meeting new people, and physical contact. Intimacy is a thing I adore and avoid all at once. It's confusing, I know.

✘ Disabled : It's hard to talk about, but it's important to note that I have several mental disabilities. I will be using my art to cope with these struggles, so if you're triggered by any of them, here is your warning. Note that these are real diagnoses and that I'm not just 'seeking attention' or trying to wear them as a fashion statement. The list is as follows: BED, BPD, PTSD, & Double Depression. Yes, I am seeking treatment for all of them.

✘ Honest : Well... kind of. I can be dishonest in attempts to protect myself (I'm working on getting better at this), but I always mean what I say. I will never be 'fake' with you. If I say something, you can know that my intent is always genuine. I don't like playing games with people.

✘ Insightful : This goes along with opinionated. I try to be as open as I can when exploring different aspects, and in that I feel like I've gathered a lot of knowledge. By no means do I think I have all the answers, but I do have a lot of ideas I want to explore and share.

✘ Passionate : The extent in which I feel things can be overwhelming in it's power. Sometimes I need to watch myself from getting too intense.

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I am...

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✘ An Empath : Being an emotional empath is both a blessing and a curse. I'm basically able to feel things even if I've not experienced it. I was first made aware of this ability when I was fifteen years old, though I'd suspected it for some time before.

✘ An Artist : I've been drawing since I could pick up a pencil, and creating stories before I could even write. I would have my mom and dad write down the words for me since I didn't know how. As I've grown, I've become interested in other forms of art, such as dance and theatre. I used to be an active thespian, but haven't been able to continue this passion due to lack of opportunity. (It sucks living in a small town.)

✘ An Astrologist : I've loved astrology for as long as I can remember. As a child, I was forbidden from expressing this, since my parents thought it was a form of witchcraft and witchcraft = evil. Now I'm an adult and a witch! I don't think I'm evil though... ^_^

✘ A Dreamer : Logically I realize that much of what I enjoy and specialize in is pseudoscience. I don't care. Dreaming of something more and using my imagination is a source of strength for me. So what if it turns out to not be real? It makes me happy.

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Fears and Dislikes

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✘ Abandonment : Affected by my PTSD, I tend to not trust others to stick around. It's one of the reasons I avoid all forms of intimacy. It's rare when I let someone close enough to hurt me, so if I confide in you that I'd be lost without you, that's a really big deal.

✘ Not Being Good Enough : I hate feeling imprisoned by my disabilities. Everyday I fight to overcome it. I want to be good enough.

✘ Eating Noises : I even get irritated by my own eating noises, so I'll usually have the t.v on to drown out the sound haha.

✘ Self-Righteous Know-It-Alls : If you honestly think you know everything, you're probably one of the biggest fools there is.

✘ Mob Mentalities : If making an example out of someone makes you feel good about yourself, congrats, you're a jerk. You can be firm while also being compassionate. Just. Sayin'.

✘ Sheeple : Think for yourself, don't go along with the crowd. Question everything.

✘ SJW and the Alt-Right : I'm moderate. SJW's and Alt-Right people are just bullies with different agendas. Sorry not sorry I don't subscribe to these bullshit ideals.

✘ Authority : Don't get me wrong, I respect the good people in authority. But I've seen it abused far too often.

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Fandoms and Affinities

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✘ Music : Rock, New Age, Soundtrack, Gothic
✘ Genres : Anime, Sci-Fi, History, Slice of Life, Fantasy, Futuristic, Romance, Smut, Horror
✘ Universes : The Elder Scrolls, Fallout, Harry Potter, Steven Universe, Adventure Time, Supernatural, Game of Thrones, Disney, Lord of the Rings, Superjail, Perfect Blue, Studio Ghibli, Teen Titans, X-Men, Batman, Gargoyles, Danny Phantom
✘ Themes : Guro, Abuse, Drama, Coming of Age, Sexuality, Taboo, Love, Family, Mental Illness, Death
✘ Affinities : LGBT+, Disability Awareness, Social Justice Activism, Feminism, Anti-Racism, Mormonism, Agnosticism, Witchcraft, American, Mixed Race, Role-Players, Gamer Culture, BDSM Kink Culture, Ethical Sluts, Stoners, Drug Addictions

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Extra

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✘ I have four pets. Two mice named Rolly and Tumplestiltskin, a Siberian Hamster named Winnifred, and a shorthair Tortoiseshell cat named Patches.

✘ I am mixed race. Too light to be dark and too dark to be light. I benefit from white privilege in some ways while also suffering from it in others. I hate it. I wish I could just be one or the other. As a teenager, I hated my darkness. As an adult, I hate my whiteness. I'm working on finding inner peace, but with racial tensions so high it's not easy at all.

✘ I am gender confused. I've felt dysphoria my entire life, but as a feminist I feel pride in my womanhood. I feel like admitting my dysphoria goes against my feminist pride and power. It's dumb, I know. I'm just trying to figure it out.

✘ I am real, but I'm also not. Remember that episode of Teen Titans when they go inside of Raven's head and she has all the different personalities? Having BPD, I can really relate to that. I have no true sense of self. BishonenPrincess is one of my personalities. I'm not fake, I'm a very real person. But I have other personalities too. This account is part of a project I have to sort out my identities and try to make sense of it all. Finding the common traits all my personalities have, combined with the traits that are very different. I'm not sure how much sense that makes outside of my own head...
✘ Feel free to talk to me! I'm a shy extrovert, remember? I might be too shy to initiate conversation, but I love it when others do! I'm an open book and really hoping to find like minded individuals to befriend. Think we may click? Talk to me, I don't bite. (Unless you want me too haha!) :3