I decided to draw this to try and take my mind of things, negative thoughts be clouding my head so tried to clear them by thinking of a night time cliff with clear veiws to the surrounding galaxies and stars. 

This shot was taken at Galactica peak, where at certain times of the year you can clearly see the surrounding galaxies and nebula. Many cultures on the planet celebrate this time with a "star festival" as it is beleived that on these nights, the gods are viewing their planet and bestowing the power of wishes upon them.

Kaliko on the other hand just enjoys the view for what it is, as he is very interested in astrology, astronomy and reflecting on the seep mysteries of life.

Warning, heavy stuff down below!

Feeling incredibly low today, its hard to tell if this made me feel better or not, unfortunatley with personal pictures like this, the rule of thumb seems to be that the more detailed they are, the worse im feeling, as I try to distract myself with detail that most wouldnt see unless they are looking very closely for it... in that sense art is very much like therapy for me, which is why I dont take commissions or requests very often, I only take them when my mind is completley sound and I know that I can complete them in good concience and complete them to the best standard that I can produce. Unfortunatley my head has been incredibly disrupted for quite some time now and im legitimatley getting to my breaking point... 

I have arranged for professional therapy sessions Im just hoping they do the trick...

Id be lying if I said I hadnt thought about suicide, these thoughts have been tormenting me for so long I just dont know how much more I can take, Ive already had a few close calls...

I am aware that hotlines exist, but I dont find they help much... Im unsure what keeps me here but I just hope it lasts for a little bit longer when my first session is booked... 

Thanks