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ArrJayAfterDork

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Welcome, everyone! This is the artist formally known as Tremaine Tremaine! This account is where I will be posting all my not safe for work (NSFW) content! You can expect to find a mix of furry, ponies, humans, really just a wide variety of fandoms here!

If you're looking for my Safe For Work account, please visit ArrJaySketch ArrJaySketch!

You can also visit my archival account, Tremaine Tremaine, to see my old art! The goal is to eventually have all my stuff from 1993 to 2011 uploaded there. Careful, there's a lot of NSFW stuff there!

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I tend to be very private about my chat applications, sorry!

I do not RP.

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Latest Journal

New Status Update! (And Patreon)

on 6 May 2019 at 20:48:56 MDT

Hello, all!

On June 10th last year, I started uploading most of my old artwork on my Tremaine account, and I finished around August 24th. When I stared, I remember feeling initially apprehensive, and everyone has shown me absolutely nothing but love and support. I want you all to know I haven't forgotten, and still think about it every day. Thank you! <3

While it's true that I had planned on getting a lot more artwork done since I finished uploading my old art, I have a good reason. I've been working hard on fixing a lot of things that have made me very unhappy my entire life, things that have drained my joy and time away from me. I am most creative when I am very happy; I feel I'm making much more progress toward that happiness. My hope is that with all this work I've been doing on myself, when I bring back my joy, it will bring back my creativity!

Since my November status update, I've been doing a great deal of work on myself. While work itself hasn't changed, I definitely have. I no longer let things under my skin. I got tired of handing over the reins to people who don't care; instead, I learned to just focus on being awesome at my job. Moreover, I've come to understand I let a LOT of things under my skin. Letting myself get angry or stress wasn't only NOT helping, but it was actually making things worse.

The other part is that I've had an incredibly hard time "letting go". If something made me angry or upset, I'd hold onto it for way too long and sort of obsessively think about it. Not just work, but darned near everything. I'd hold onto things that made me sad, that made me fearful, that made me angry, and stuff that shamed me. When I realized I was just giving over my mind and my feelings to people and things that not only didn't actually care, but probably had no idea that I felt this way, it was a shock to me. I was just wasting my life on this, and it's one of those silly things I realized I'd been doing my whole life.

Another bit that was sort of mind-blowing for me. I always had trouble with procrastination, and it's long been one of the things I constantly beat myself up about. I read an incredibly neat article about procrastination. Procrastination isn't about lack of self-control or being lazy. It's about an inability to manage negative emotions we've built up around a task. https://www.nytimes.com/2019/03/25/smarter-living/why-you-procrastinate-it-has-nothing-to-do-with-self-control.html

I...wasn't even aware I had done so, but it didn't take me long to realize I had built up a LOT of intensely negative emotions around many things. I honestly wasn't aware they existed! But now that I'm working through figuring out what they are and acknowledging them, I've actually been finding a greater peace and joy than I've ever known.

So, long story short, I've been making absolutely HUMONGOUS strides at managing my own mental health!

What does this mean for my art? I will own the truth that I've been procrastinating. Having owned that, I've also been dealing with all he negativity I've built up in myself. It's...refreshingly easier to want to start drawing, even if it's not ideal. I'm going to keep working on myself.

And most of all, thank you for being here and for supporting me.

I opened a Patreon as a tip jar, for now, too! https://www.patreon.com/ArrJaySketch

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    OMG It's so nice to see you around again!! x3 I'm just a random follower, yes, but YAYYYYYYYY! Welcome back!

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      Aww, thank you!! I'm truly happy to see you happy! Haha! "And I love you, random follower!"

      Seriously, though, your reaction is exactly what I'm hoping for when I re-upload my old stuff. It helps me to know people are excited and happy!

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    Bro these sketches are awesome why not ink and color one now and then?

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      That's the intent! I'm eventually going to take some of these sketches and thumbnails, redraw them and fix some mistakes, ink them, and color them. For now, though, I'm just working on trying to establish a daily drawing habit. I only drew 4 things in 2017, and the last time I drew anything before the current uploads was October of 2017.

      So, once I get all my old art uploaded to my Tremaine account, I'm going to spend time doing full color pics of all these pieces I've been uploading! I expect I'll get done uploading old art around the end of August or so. I should probably make a journal about it! :)

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        Well you're off to a great start

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    I used to follow your stuff aways back, then life happened and I ended up drifting and forgetting your name, glad to see you're still creating!

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      Haha, life happens to us all! I ended up not creating for a while, but I'm giving it another shot. I'm glad to be back!