I know this is a vent and you do prefer to not have comments on them (as is evident by disabling comments on DA), but this piece really is captivating. From the way the waves are drawn to the eerie, somehow soothing, glow of the bird person on the side. The details you've put in with particle effects and even blotches as if the lens of a camera were getting wet makes this perhaps my favorite piece you've done.

I wish you were not hurting. It makes me sad that someone so lovely hurts inside is in pain and I wish there was more I could do about it, but alas, I am, in fact, a total stranger and even if I weren't there is probably little I could do but remind you things will get better. I might not know you personally, but I've been a follower of your's for years now--even going as far as reading your journals after a while of sticking around. It's the personality that attracts me to the artist--to remember their name, to recognize their style, to stick around and grow with them. I look at a lot of art a day, and I mean a lot, mostly for brief seconds so that I can look at as much as possible (weirdly,, is probably one of the only things that stops me from being a hoarder of physical things honestly, hahaha), but I pause over your art. I look at it for longer then a few seconds. Minutes even. Oftenly I even find myself leaving tabs open, so I can come back and look again while doing other things. I see your personality in the things you draw and in your style, and you've also opened my eyes up to a lot of things I didn't know I'd love as much as I do until you introduced me to them.

I'm always afraid of telling someone one of their vent pieces (or multiple vent pieces) are my favorite works of theirs as if it will make them feel their efforts only show when they're hurting and encourage that hurting, but, well. . . I just feel you need to know that regardless of how you're feeling, you're always creating beautiful things--no matter how selfish you feel you are for it.

Thank you for being you and I hope things get better for you soon.

this is a very sensual landscape you've rendered. it draws my eye along the curves quietly.

i will second what Dindella posted earlier.