Yeah I know how that feels, another one of my best buddies stopped talking to me like she lost interest or something.. She also kept going "oh but I have a life" as an excuse to try and abandon me. It took months to move on too, it took a very long time to stop relying on her completely but I eventually got there. She ignored how lonely I've been and ignored my sadness. She never responded to me so when I stopped responding to her completely, that's when I've learnt I can live without this "best friend". But then I found out that a year later, she sent a pm, ranting and admitting how "annoying" I was, yet never said anything about that before. I responded: "If I was that annoying then aww.. maybe you should of told me about I dunno.. a year ago? Then I would've known to stop. Nobody's gonna help you if you're gonna hide everything all the time.."
It actually bothers me alot when some friends hide things from me. I'd like to know what's wrong and how to help but when they lie and hide things, it just makes me think they don't trust me after all the nice things I done.. And it also makes me think that I'm not good enough for them... D: It seems that this year, most of my friends no longer want to be there for me so I'm extra lonely. :<