What's the phrase? Hash philosophical? That's almost certainly wrong I assure you, but whatever it is, allow me to indulge. Also this is really long. Fair warning. Feel free to back out. I'm often plagued by the question of why I bother with social media sites the way I do. Not because I don't like…
Oh what in the fresh fuck. I just blew a tire. Just went POP and I know I checked that sucker before leaving. Looked fine. Alas. I get to sit on my butt for a couple hours while the tire guy shows up. The flat was on the trailer. Front, inside driver's side tire. Just -pop- and the truck went wobbl…
I dream all night. I found out that this isn't normal about a few years back. Apparently the average is about 4 to 6 times. Duration of dream notwithstanding, I can recall my most fitful nights of rest seeming like a week. If I sleep hard and solid I only have a couple. But if I'm waking up constan…
Work is KILLING me with this shuttling bullshit. Which means for 12 hours straight, 7pm to 7am, I get to jump in and out of trucks older than Jesus as I drag milk tanks over scales and into unload bays all night. Also, apparently LAST time I did this a few weeks ago, they forgot to tell me to fill…
I've been sorely neglecting this place, but I think I'm gonna really dedicate to sticking to this site regardless of activity levels. FA has really bugged me this time. No, it's not the biggest deal in the world, but I think it's just a better move in the end. I've been through a lot and I'm really…
Hey all. Long time no hear. I guess you could say I’ve just been -tired- lately, which kinda bugs me. IT’s always been an impending sign of depression, though these days I’m trying to keep it in my head that I’m also working more and sleeping less. I’ve been sleeping in a bed about 5 inches too sho…
There's no more use denying it! Alas, the block is upon me. Blargh. But in all seriousness I've been pretty stuck. I've gotten bogged down on the editing of my novel, and so I reciprocated by throwing myself into a few short stories. None of them really panned out, and so I started writing a comic…
Because interacting on this site is a thing, right? I guess I can do something while I'm busy being kicked in the ass by work. It'd be nice to see who's still kicking around. 1) Tell you something I learned about you by looking at your FA page for 10 seconds. 2) Tell you a color you remind me of. 3…
So nearly two years ago I had the honor of rear ending a Christian Sorority girl in the back of her car with my BMW. Bad times. My grandmother passed shortly thereafter. All in all a very rough time. However, I had this sort of light amount of luck. The responding officer at the time chose not to w…
This thing is old and gorgeous and kinda eccentric and has been kept in pristine condition by an old lady who drove it to the farmer's market and back. https://imgur.com/TTVxgp4 And goodness it has a matching camper. <333 I'm going to go so many miles in this thing and spend so many nights in this…
So with some confidence I can say that, to put it succinctly, the honeymoon period is over. Read: The two weeks it takes for a family/social unit to return to normal after an extended interruption. I find myself in the very real position of having to put that which I've learned about myself and oth…
Stage 1: Get off computer, go do night stuff. (Shower, brush teeth, make faces in mirror) Stage 2: Check computer again before shutting it down. Go to living room for water/milk/bedtime snack I shouldn't be eating. Stage Three: Check tablet. Drink beverage and take meds. Stage D: Turn off tablet. T…
Hey all. I missed you all. Yes you. Really. <3 I’ve been through a lot this last month. Well, this year in general, really. I came to terms with my depression and let a CLINICAL doctor prescribe proper medication. I also realized that I still had a complex for living my life for others in that I wa…
Going Under for a Month Going to get some help for some long running issues. Mental, substance, and otherwise. Uhm...Not sure how much technology is allowed in this place. So I'll see whats up. I know not too many people clamoring to get ahold of me, but this is a general fyi for anyone who is. Pea…
As the title says, I'm opening commissions. But in exchange for little to no experience, as well as a lack of a name in story commissioning, I'm offering full short story commissions at a 5 dollar minimum, and for the next five days, I'm doing a discounted 15 dollar maximum. This I hope will attrac…
Heya! So obviously, I've been thinking about some changes. Here's one! Nothing major, in the scheme of things. And the name is something I aim to be! Red. Bold. Strong. And savage in everything I do. ... Plus it's the name of a new character that's soon to be the 'sona. :d I'm writing a weird dysto…
Just a quick bump I'm not dead. Hell Im even working on more than I ever thought. O: However, internet situation is spotty as well as living situation. But! Nothing that I don't think I cant handle. Not going to lie, been through a lot the past few weeks. Details of which I could not even begin to…
Everyone lives under their own little delusions, as I call them. Forget the negative connotation. Objectively, I talk about the blind truths we chose to follow without question, either willingly or ignorantly--or rightly or wrongly. For one reason or another. One reason is denial. Denial can be a h…
I tend to go on about a lot of stuff, but since I don't do those journal meme things, I never go into any great length about anything too personal. So here it is--ask anything. About writing. About misadventures. About thoughts and feelings. My favorite things. My least favorite things. Ask away. ~…
So I'm attempting to kick start something new. A new dedication to writing. I hesitate to make promises in the mean time, but certainly a few changes will be happening, and a few things will get uploaded. Also get more active! Cheers all, CC
I lay here on my bed tonight in solitude. The friends have gone out with the roommate, and that's ok. I'm not upset nor do I feel left out in the slightest. The word "loneliness" was created to describe the pain of being alone. But this--no this is solitude. The house is dark. The fan hums ever so…
Lots of stuff. Midterms. Spring cleaning. Birthday parties. Conversations with Lubbock Detectives. Etc. Also, a hint guys--Don't use someone's place as an alibi for holding a pizza man up at knife point, especially when you don't even let said owner of the place in on the loop. It sets a bad preced…
It's funny how things can carry a sense of duality, particularly semi-aligned events that happen on opposite ends of the country, globe, etc. The events that occurred at the Alamo this morning coincided nearly exactly with the final acts of an highly regarded, academy award winning actor that I had…
This is something that just happened, and I feel that I need to get it down in words while it's still fresh on my mind. I was reading a new book, which is a thing to note because I haven't read a new one in awhile. I forget how quickly I get sucked in and lose myself. So when the older, black woman…
So there's some things to be said about the Alamo. Obviously, it's not the one that boasted Come and Get It at one point in time, preceding an inevitable slaughter. Instead, it's a seventy year old, two story white stucco dropped solemnly on the corner, one block away from highway avenue. An empty…
I've often plagued myself on the form and type of journal that I've wanted to keep. I decided to stop doing that and just write on subjects of vague interest that either have happened or have been on my mind. Anyhow, a new guest is gracing the Alamo, which is the monkier given to the 2 story stucco…
