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r-a-blackpaws

r-a-blackpaws / 47 / genderfluid / Washington

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February Was ROUGH!

Man...this past February was rough here. Shutting down my male roommate's frequent groping and fondling of my body (he grabbed my left breast in front of a guest and made like it was a twist-off). Then Connor's passing, which I'm still feeling the effects of. To a hard talk with the roomies where t…

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RIP Connor (7/4/08-2/10/24)

My little man, aka my cat Connor, passed away last night. He had a full life, was loved a lot, and will be missed terribly.

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2023--My Year That Was

So, 2023 is winding to a close. Gonna break this down into positive, negative, and mixed stuffs. Positive: -employed. Been working at a local grocery store since 2022 and making decent money. -gaming. This has been a big positive, as has my YouTube channel. Lots of gaming done, lots of videos made,…

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RL Moving

So, I can now make this official: I am relocating later this month. Moving to Washington. Spokane-area. Eager to be out of this money pit, glad to be leaving domineering/abusive aunt's reach. But having panic now.

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First Day of the Rest of My Life

After 21 years, I have finally left Target. Yesterday was my last day. Feel so happy about it, as the bosses there were so incompetent that the job had become horrible. Now, I am moving on to the next phase of my life, starting with healing from all the damage Target did to me. Looking forward to t…

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Ambiguity

So, my last entry here was about my mom dying. That was a blow...but I got another blow not long after she passed. Due to her passing, I am no longer able to afford the apartment where we had lived for almost 27 years. This means...I have to move by the end of April. Now, my family is REALLY pushin…

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She's Gone

My mother passed away on Friday night, at 1124pm. Yesterday was spent with family, letting her job and mine know, getting leave, doing the cremation and starting the cleaning up process (meaning going through things, finding financial stuff, etc). If you would like to donate to help me get more sec…

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Ticking Clock

So, oncologist has said that he can't cure her, only "prolong the process". Supposed to meet with him to find out what that means. Malpractice claim has Mom's consent. Surgeon can't remove the mass. Her belly is getting fluid again too. There is talk about putting a stent in. Also mentioning visiti…

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The Downward Spiral

Home from the hospital. Surgeon feels they can't operate on the mass in her pelvis. Surprised at how rapid growth there was. Fluid will eventually fill her abdomen again, needing draining. Mom has pretty much given up, put me in charge of her bills and everything, so i have a LOT to go through. Onc…

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Downhill

So, the oncologist appointment was yesterday. He examined my mom, listened to what we had to say...then used his position as Chief of Staff in Oncology at the nearby hospital to get her admitted IMMEDIATELY. Since being admitted, she's had fluid drained from her abdomen, an abdominal ultrasound (no…

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Third Time

My mother has cancer again. This time, it's in her intestines and bones. We found out yesterday after an ER visit...and we also found out that, apparently, the physicians knew back in FEBRUARY that she had this. So yeah, we're stressing massively here right now.

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Still Existing

Hey folks. I know I have not been posting a lot here over the past year. That is because I have been focused more on YouTube and Mixer than here. Next year, I want that to change. I have new stories that I want to write and post here, stuff I think a lot of you will enjoy. Just a matter of having t…

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Parent Surgery

Mom's surgery date is set. 6/27. One week of projected recovery time. Again, best possible outcome here folks.

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Best Possible News

So, we got the results of my mom's tests yesterday. She does have cancer, but it is localized to her reproductive organs only. Not in her brain, breast, or any other part. Surgery will happen, then a clean-up bout of chemotherapy. Honestly, this IS the best possible outcome for her, so we are relie…

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Cancer. Again.

My mother has been diagnosed with cancer. Again. This time, it's in her uterus. So I am going to be her caretaker through treatment again...which means an exponential increase in my stress levels...which were already about 4x maximum to begin with due to the current "climate" and my workplace. Thus…

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Life and Things Like It (life update)

So, it's been a while, hasn't it? Think I should clue you folks in on things. -due to work stress and my own issues, I almost had a breakdown on 4/9...which has led to my return to therapy. I think I need it to help deal with my anxiety, stress load (which is VERY high), gender issues, and depressi…

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Closing 2017

Copied from my Tumblr (yes, I actually got a Tumblr) So, 2017 is drawing to a close. Thank the GODS! No, it hasn’t been all bad. It simply feels like this year has taken FOR-EV-ER to end. Some high points: -22 subscribers on the YouTube channel -11 followers on Twitch -been applying for grad school…

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Discordant Discord

Umm...so, I now have Discord. Going to be learning how it works. pokes with a baguette, unsure Patience requested. ^.^

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Hey, R.A! What'cha been upta?

blinks Oh, hi random person. What have I been up to? Well... -YouTube channel Been spending a lot of time on this. Celebrated one year on YouTube last month. Also crossed 500 videos posted, despite some crud that went on. I've also been... -Twitch streaming ...streaming games over on Twitch. Mostly…

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YouTubing Milestone achieved!

Well, I woke up to something wonderful today. My YouTube channel just hit 1,000 views. Thank you to everyone here and there who have supported me through this journey...and I am looking forward to the next thousand and beyond! Little video showing the moment: https://youtu.be/90JtmUweazU

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Game Stream Tomorrow!

Just a heads up! I will be doing a livestream over on Twitch tomorrow from 5-7 pm Eastern time (pre-game at 445pm). I'll also be doing a second stream Monday at the same time. Hope to see you all there! ^.^ https://www.twitch.tv/rablackpaws Where it'll be!

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Twitch-y (Livestream info)

Hey all. I will be doing gaming livestreams over on Twitch every Thursday from 5pm Eastern till about 7 or 8pm Eastern starting this coming Thursday. If you feel like peeking, here's a link: https://www.twitch.tv/rablackpaws That'll be my new livestream locale. Remember, that's every Thursday begin…

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It's been made

Well, as promised/threatened, I have a Facebook page for my YouTube channel now. It's located here: https://www.facebook.com/The-RA-Blackpaws-Show-411141582586176/ So links to videos and possibly Facebook exclusives will be going there (stuff like convention videos, etc). Like everything else in my…

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Some changes..

Hey folks! Since I know a lot of you aren't checking out my YouTube channel, I just want to give you all a heads-up. Going forward, when I stream, I'll be streaming on Twitch, not YouTube. Also, I am working on creating a Facebook page solely for the channel. My main FB page will become social/life…

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Crosshairs Stream TONIGHT!

Just a reminder: the Crosshairs gaming stream will be tonight at 7pm over on YouTube. Pre-game starts at 6:45pm. Link will be posted during the pre-game. Hope to see you there!

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Upcoming Gaming Stream!

Just a heads-up: on March 30th, I will be doing a gaming stream on YouTube. Stream begins at 7pm Eastern time, with a 15 minute pre-game beforehand. It'll run until 10pm. Called the "Crosshairs Stream" because I'll be playing a first-person shooter. ^.^

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Writing Did Happen...

So, over my vacation, some writing did occur. Mostly, it's all prequel stuff for a big project: the re-working and re-writing of "The Incident at Saint Mariah's". So, that will slowly begin trickling in here when I can pry myself away from making YouTube videos. chuckles

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Life Update 1/26/17

Okay. Been a while, I know...but I figure you folks could use an update as to things that are going on: -school: last class was completed. Going to be getting one more letter of recommendation and then applying to Northern Michigan University's master's program. -YouTube: I demonetized my content b…

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40

Yup...the big 4-0. That's my age now. I am officially...a Steve Carell movie title. And I couldn't be prouder. I've also cried twice today over sappy stuff. The Pokemon Center birthday greeting in Pokemon Moon got me twice.

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Happy Holidays, Everyone!

Whatever you celebrate this weekend, make sure you enjoy it and celebrate safely. Stay well, everyone! Love, R.A. ^.^

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Fashion...(copied from Twitter)

Copying this over from my Twitter @rablackpaws : Today, I am going to talk about something that might make people upset, might confuse people, or could cause me to lose followers: When it comes to apparel choices, I prefer women's apparel to men's for a variety of reasons, aside from gender dysphor…

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So, about that stream..

Yesterday was my "Samhain Stream". Four hours of "Alien: Isolation". I think it went fairly well. Only one game crash, which is a big improvement. ^.^ You can check it out here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WjkGYgbfMys I'll be posting a video of my thoughts on the stream later today. ^.^

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Samhain Stream Remindedo!

Just a reminder: I'll be streaming the winner of the straw poll/comment poll (Currently Alien: Isolation) on Sunday, October 30th starting at 6pm Eastern time (pre-game starts at 545pm Eastern)...and basically going till my ISP kicks me off by disconnecting my internet (hopefully, four hours). Plea…

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Streaming Near Samhain/Halloween!

I'm going to be doing a Livestream on YouTube on 10/30...which is technically Devil's/Angel's night, but I'm calling it my Samhain Stream! The games up for vote are posted here: http://www.strawpoll.me/11481743 Go vote..or, if you don't see a game you want played, comment!

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Upcoming Gamestream

SHAMELESS PLUG INCOMING!!! So, I am doing my first-ever Livestream later today (Thursday, 10/13) @ 6pm Eastern over on YouTube. I will be playing DOOM and using SnapMap to play some player-made maps. Feel free to pop on by, if you're interested. That'll be @ 6pm Eastern time.

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Where and How I Am

So, let's update things shall we: -health: physically, I am now into my hackey-wheezey season. This means lots of coughing and congestion. Also, possibly some pleurisy too. Never really fun. -mental health: I have been fighting off a lot of depression and self-hate lately. Oddly, making YouTube vid…

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Foxy status

Still puttering about. blinks Oh, you wanted more info...umm.... Welll.... -YouTube: channel is still making baby steps. Up to six subscribers now and closing in on 70 videos (I think). -Facebook: still have it. Still can't BELIEVE I have it either. -Twitter: where I am most active. -Weasyl: I do h…

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If there was any doubt the world was close to ending, THIS IS IT!

I am now on Facebook. winces at the collective gasp from everyone reading this Yes, I know...I have finally broken down and gotten a Facebook account. Just search for R A Blackpaws as a nickname and you will find me. Now, I'm gonna go hide. Kaythanksbye! scampers away

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Latest Foxy News

So, since I've been spending lots of time outside of here (YouTube, school, Stupid), I feel I should update everyone on what's been going on. -I have been diagnosed with mild diabetes. My numbers are just barely into the diabetes range (literally, less than double-digits on all tests), but it still…

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And Add More to the Pile (health)

So, I fight my way through a depressive episode...then get a voicemail message from my doc. I have been diagnosed with mild diabetes. grabs a shovel and begins digging a deeper hole -.-

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Stuff I had to deal with...

I had a major depressive episode on Monday. Wound up making a video about it, to continue making progress on shaking it off: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4x1hL5W2txE

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The Stuffs That Need To Be The Said

So, as you may have noticed, I haven't done a whole lot of writing here lately. That's because I have been focused on school work as well as my burgeoning YouTube channel. I will have a couple of weeks between end of summer term and start of fall term, so I might get some writing done then. I do ha…

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The GRE

I am now signed up for the GRE test. 4.5 hours of testing...on August 11th. Prayers of support, ritual sacrifices to the academic gods, hugs to calm anxiety will all be appreciated.

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Health news

So, I got the results from when i was hooked up to the event monitor. Heart is all good, so the caffeine use may have been causing the gasping feelings. However, there was an issue with my blood test (done day of follow-up visit). Elevated glucose levels. So, I get my blood rechecked in a couple of…

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So, about the channel (YouTube)

...it's still going. Six episodes of Skyrim, about half a dozen vlogs. Three subscribers. For now. And...I am enjoying doing this. Again, for now. ^.^

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PokemonGO!

So my mom and I upgraded our phones to smartphones...and, naturally, we got PokemonGO. Just got back in from our inaugural session. She caught one more pokemon than I did. Fun was still had. ^.^

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Let's Plays begin Thursday!

Well, after slogging through some anxieties and some procedural stuff, I am finally ready to begin airing "Let's Plays" on my YouTube channel. Soooo.... ....starting Thursday, I'll be doing just that. A vid will be going up tomorrow (Wednesday) explaining a bit about how I play and some channel upd…

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PC delayed

Apparently, UPS doesn't knock on doors...so the new PC will be delivered tomorrow. We will make it more obvious someone's home and the unboxing video will happen once the PC arrives.

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More vids?

So, I decided to actually keep going on the YouTube thing. Put a couple more videos up last night. I'm slowly learning things...but posting videos still makes me anxious. >.<

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New PC and a long day

Okay...so yesterday was very long and rough. 945am: Mom and I head out to my grandmother's house to check on an injured leg she had, as well as bring her some items. 10:30am (appx): Get to her house. Examine leg. See that there is a four-inch by one-inch by about half an inch gash in her leg that h…

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Well, I did it!

I posted my first actual video to YouTube. It's...not horrible. I think. fidgets https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qXxDcPuN4PI

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"Special Day" 2016 notes

Highlights of my "Special Day": -first three and a half hours spent doing classwork. Could mean I will be a dutiful student. -sparrows dominated my "Wonder Walk" today. -apparently, my spiritual self has no issue with sobbing uncontrollably in front of a goddess. Lessons learned: -that I am NOT a f…

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Offline Tomorrow--"Special Day"

Just a reminder: I will be offline most of tomorrow, 6/28, for my "Special Day". The yearly day of spiritual cleansing and renewal. Sadly, I will not be offline for all of it, as I do have classwork that I need to do and turn in. I have an assignment to edit and submit, a video to watch, and a disc…

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YouTube in work

So, in case you didn't figure it out already with the uploads of the test videos, let me spell it out: I want to try my hand at doing vlogs on YouTube. Possibly Let's Plays as well, but vlogs for sure. I simply have no real idea how to really do any of that though. I have the hardware (upgraded web…

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And one more test video.

And the last of the test videos. Stock mic, stock camera. https://youtu.be/hP3Tu0u5pwI Feedback is always welcome ^.^

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Another test video uploaded.

Okay. I did another test video, this featuring a new mic. https://youtu.be/jet1kirfqSg I know it's really quiet, but I'm figuring out the new mic.

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The Heart Monitor

Okay...so some things I have learned over the past 48 while wearing this thing: -electrodes like to migrate. No joke. They like to move around a lot. I am actually considering using medical tape to hold them in place so I can work. -there is apparently lag between the phone and the monitor. This re…

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Impending Monitoring (health)

So, today is the day I get fitted with my "event monitor". Thirty days hooked up to a machine that will record whenever my heart goes all wibbly-wobbly. And when do I get it? About three hours before I have to go to work. Work...where I get red-line levels of stress and frustration and anger on an…

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So...a big step happened...(life)

So...um...I did a thing. I dunno if I'm proud of it or not...but I did a thing. I uploaded a video onto YouTube. Just a test video to see if I could do it. And I did. Picture quality isn't that great...but this feels big to me. https://youtu.be/wIuzoQ0pdNo That is allegedly it. Let me know if it wo…

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Overcoming Inertia (life update)

Okay..so I have a good deal of issues...but this month, I have been focusing on one big one: I have a tendency to "what if...?" myself a lot. Basically, my brain takes an activity, shows me all of the possible alternatives/responses/etc that could come...and I end up basically becoming inert. This…

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I Want Credit for Not breaking Someone in Half (rant)

Okay...for those of you who do not know, I work retail. Specifically, a retailer that was recently in the news for allowing transgendered people to use the bathroom matching their gender. Well, today, I had an interaction with someone who literally made me want to scour myself clean: Them: "So, any…

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Oddness...(furry)

My FA account has been cleaned out (by me)...there's nothing in my gallery (again, me)...I even post on my profile I've moved to Weasyl... ... ...yet I STILL get FA watchers???? BWUH?????? o.O

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Baby Steps into Social Media...

Well, another sign of the End Times has occurred. I now have a Twitter account. It's in my profile. sighs Slowly but surely, I will enter this new age of technology and interconnectedness.

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Update about "Last Night..." (health)

So, as I promised in the comments in the last journal, here is the update from the follow-up with my doc. What was ruled out: Epilepsy. Caffeine overdose (my hypothesis I mentioned in the comment). Actual diagnosis: inconclusive. Gameplan going forward: Contact the local heart institute. Get fitted…

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Uhhh....(life updates)

So, apparently, FurAffinity borked...again. Only real effect it has on me is it takes a while to get into Weasyl now chuckles wryly In terms of other things, I have my follow-up appointment with my doc tomorrow morning about that issue mentioned in "Last Night...". I have had no reappearances of th…

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You know it's a weird night when...(mental health)

....you can remember spending part of the night looking all over your room for little, red-eyed monsters that you think were nibbling on your body. reminds self not to watch videos of "The Joy of Creation: Reborn" before going to bed -.-

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The Return...(gaming)

My PS4 is slated to return tomorrow. I have the larger hard drive here next to me and a slew of new games (DOOM, The Last of Us, and Lords of the Fallen) waiting for it. squees happily

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Last Night...(health)

So, last night sucked ass. In fact, pretty much the whole day after about 3pm sucked. Around 3pm, while at work, I began experiencing an odd phenomenon. Basically, I would have a feeling like I was slamming awake at random. Little gasp of air, little bit of racing heart...little bit of confusion...…

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Project I am tackling (update to last journal)

So, in addition to all the stuff I said was going on from last journal, I am also tackling another project. I'm upgrading my laptop to Windows 10. I have no idea how it's going to go, but it's been smooth so far (twenty minutes in). Also, my PS4 is malfunctioning, so I'm waiting on Sony to send a r…

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Things Upcoming

So, some stuff that's going on for sure over the next few... 5/13: got a friend coming over to spend the weekend. Means online time will be minimal. Same weekend: Picking up DOOM for the PS4 as well as a bigger hard drive for said system. Additional reason I will be offline most of the weekend. 6/2…

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Annoyance...

I am in a bit of a foul mood. Not at anyone here...but at a program. I'm annoyed with Skype. I don't know if I'm getting false status reports...or if the messages I'm sending are being eaten (again)...but it seems like the program's gone to crap ever since Microsoft bought it. Lots of updates, maki…

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Yesterday...(rant/vent)

So, as you all may/may not know, I am apparently tech support for my family...specifically, my aunt. Keep that in mind as I relay these events. I got home from work yesterday at about 6:45pm. 7:30 pm, my aunt calls, asking for tech support help. 10:30 pm, I finish up with her...and am even more str…

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Askies Return! (questions)

All righty...I am feeling decent...so let's throw out a traditional Thursday journal. Ask me your questions, get honest answers. Nothing off-limits. ^.^

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No Funk Please.

So, yesterday morning, I had a sizable funk hit. I was browsing art on Furaffinity...when I got hit with a depression wave and swamped. I feel mostly over it now, but there is still some lingering blue... ... ...and I'm really fighting hard NOT to fox-turtle and withdraw from people/things to cope.…

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Life Update, April 18 2016

All right...time to let you all know what's been going on: School: Class is winding down. Final exam is actually tomorrow. Odd mix of relief and disappointment that it's ending. Have not chosen my next class yet. Will be doing that post-final. Work: Today is inventory. Means lots of bosses, high st…

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Story unblocked

Woo-Hoo! I finally got focused enough to spit out a story! First one in several months. It's called "The Wine Cellar". Enjoy! ^.^

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Upgrades (tech, gaming)

So, I spent some of my tax return on some upgrades. I now have a 32" HDTV...and a Playstation 4...with CoD Black Ops 3, Fallout 4, Dragon Quest Heroes and Mortal Kombat XL. I also downloaded Rocket League and Outlast. Still figuring everything out, so I'll post contact info in an update tomorrow mo…

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A Number...That Was Wrong

If you remember my previous journal regarding "A Number", you will note that I was skeptical of that number being accurate. Sadly, I was right. The scale did in fact malfunction. The number is invalid.

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Retro-via (Gaming)

So, my aunt. Real pain in the tookus when it comes to tech things. Today, it wasn't tech she needed help with. She was buying a car...but was having a freak-out about it. So, Mom and I (cause I got drafted into it) went out to her place...took her to the dealership...then sat in her future car as s…

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A Number

So, I stepped onto the scale for the first time in a few weeks...and I honestly do NOT believe the number I saw. 259.4 Don't believe it. Nope. Nopenopenope. Don't get me wrong: it's nice to see a number that low (lowest I have been in well over a year)...but I physically don't feel it. shrugs Maybe…

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Some Good Things

Okay...let's get the mopey stuff out for a bit. Some things were discovered the past two days that actually buoyed my mood back up. -I got a 90/100 on my term paper intro. Finally looked at the grade for this, as I had seen all sorts of red on the preview and said, "Ehhh...I dun wanna!". Professor…

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Now Blue and Grumpy

Y'know what doesn't help when you're depressed? Being tech support for a bully-like 65-year old who constantly talks over you as you're trying to help them, does not understand simple American (meaning English), dumps all of their tech problems on you when they HAVE a kid of their own, and basicall…

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Blue Revisited

It's official...I am in a depressive funk again. I stalled it for a bit via gaming...gaming seems to be the ONLY thing that stalls it, actually...but, yeah. It hit. So, expect me to be kinda withdrawn and distant for a while. Likely not on Skype at all (AIM and YIM, I will be on), because that is a…

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Da Throbbin in the Noggin

So, yesterday was SO much fun at work. #sarcasm I had not one, but TWO separate migraine episodes over the course of four hours. Got hit so bad at work that I was actually off-balance (the migraine affected my coordination). Sleep helped things get somewhat better: I just have pain and pressure, an…

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Life Update, Feb 19 2016

Okay...been a while since I let you folks know what's been going on...so, here we go: School: aced the exam. Got my first part of my paper back (haven't peeked at it yet, too nervous). Going to start the second part on Tuesday. Currently on "spring break", so no classes next week. Work: Stupid is a…

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Celebrate? (health)

So, last entry, I mentioned my first exam in this new course. How did I celebrate getting through it? BY GETTING A MIGRAINE! Yay! Sunglasses for everybody! Woo-hoo...ow.....hoo! sighs Yeah, I had a migraine hit at work last night. Currently wearing sunglasses to be able to see mostly pain-free. Sho…

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Exam 1 Times

Time spent studying for exam-----3 hours Time spent getting to school today----40 minutes Time spent waiting outside the classroom for the professor to open the bleeping door----25 minutes Time spent actually taking the exam-----10 minutes. SO not worth it. >.<

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In a Mood

I have felt really cranky and angry the past couple of days. Woke up feeling grumpy and angry yesterday...and it seems to be carrying over into today as well. No real reason why, that I am aware of, aside from being pulled from a really good dream. Maybe stress from the intro to my term paper. shru…

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A Personal Reality About Conventions

Okay...this has come up again due to being invited to a couple of conventions...so I feel the need to explain this, in plain American: Conventions equal major stress for me. Financially, the combination of hotel plus registration plus travel is often at least a full paycheck for me. Add in spending…

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Anxiety

So, my professor sent an e-mail stating that half of the class had not submitted their topic and references for their semester-long term paper. I had e-mailed mine the day it was due...so intellectually, I knew I was in the clear. My brain, however, decided otherwise. I went to bed at 10:45pm...and…

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So...about writing...

As you may have noticed, I really haven't posted any new content lately...or for a few months. I think. Maybe. It is not because of a lack of ideas, cause I can just close my eyes and get ideas. It's mostly due to a lack of motivation to write...and a lot more time spent gaming. earflicks Before an…

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Liked Things

Being under lots of blankets on a cold day. A nice cup of sweet iced tea. New clothes. (yes please) A good, engrossing video/computer game. Being able to talk to friends. Being able to play video/computer games with friends. Writing stories. Pro wrestling (yeah, I know, -100 IQ points. Sod off.) Te…

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How to break an early arrival habit

Step 1: have a person who arrives at least 20 minutes early for things. Step 2: have a classroom that is always locked. Step 3: have a professor who arrives five minutes before class begins. This will break an early-arriving habit fairly quickly. ^.^

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Devastated due to a game

So today, I watched JackSepticEye play a game called "That Dragon, Cancer". I wept during most of the playthrough. As you all know, I have lost one in my life to cancer (my cat, Bugs) and had two family members go through treatment (my mom and maternal aunt)...so, yeah, this hit me right in the fee…

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39

I am now 39. In other news, the world did not explode. That is all.

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The New Year So Far...(update)

Well, the new class has started. Big term paper for it...pretty much the entire class grade is that paper (70% of the total grade). Teacher's kinda cuddly-looking though, and a goofball...so it should be a good class. Hours at work have been cut. Today (Saturday) might be the last time I take a lun…

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2016 Start-up...

2016 started. Almost exactly like any other day. Woke up, went to the bathroom, got my leg groomed by my cat while I used the facilities. Nice to see that did not change. Anyways, resolutions? I have one. Only one. TO BE HAPPIER. What's that mean? Well, a lot of the time, I'm actually not happy. I…

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TMI Tuesday Into Thursday (askies)

Okay...now that the negativity is out of me until I come home from work, let's throw open the ASK door and see if anyone steps inside. Da Rules: Ask a question. Get an honest answer. No subject off limits. Follow-ups encouraged. This will be my last journal of 2015 unless something major happens, h…

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Family Tech Support (mini-rant)

Okay...this is NOT the big vitriol entry I was promising. That isn't happening. Instead, I want to get your thoughts about a recent occurrence: My family often turns to me to be tech support for them. For my mom, I don't mind it. She listens to me, lets me walk her through fixing things, and is slo…

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Happy Holiday!

Whether you celebrate Yule, Christmas, Hanukkah, Kwanzaa or some other holiday, be safe, be happy and be well.

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Please, take this gift back! >.< (health)

So, I got a bit of a gift from work...namely, the upper respiratory bug that has been going around. So much fun to wake up coughing and retching, only to actually feel better when you're upright. And to have a sore, burning throat most of the day too? Mmm boy! And to have glands that stab you when…

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Reflections on the year that was...

I know it's a bit early to do this, as the year isn't over yet...but after the twin vitriol-filled entries of this week (warning: there MIGHT be one more in between Yule and New Year's), I needed something a bit more...thoughtful. This year was rough. Lots of medical dramas, two major losses (cousi…

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Offline Day Tomorrow

Just a reminder that I'll be offline tomorrow, Tuesday the 15th. Got my final exam to do and I just flat-out need a day to make up for last week's attempt at a "no contact day"/day of rest.

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Pokemon Contest final results

So, the tourney is over. Did all my battles. Final record: 9-21 I'm actually not as pleased with that as I should be because I won four of the five matches I had today by forfeit. But, it is an improvement over last time. So yay...I guess. shrugs

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Pokemon Contest Again---Stats so far

So yeah, I'm trying another Pokemon contest online. Why? Apparently, I am a masochist. Also, there's a special pokemon as a participation prize. So far, I am 3-12 with two wins coming today (Saturday). Still have some battles to go today, so there's a chance I can do better. Goal (aside from having…

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Thursday Thingy (Asks)

Well, I figure I can try this again...mostly cause I'm expecting a slow day today for once. Ask me your questions, I'll give you answers.

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Day of (No) Rest

Sunday, 2pm: tell local bestie and the fur who helps stress me out that I'm taking a "No Contact" day. Both acknowledge understanding. Sunday, 8pm: stressor fur texts me telling me they are thinking of committing suicide AND I get a text from my mom saying my aunt's car has broken down and she's sp…

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Upcoming No Contact Day

I am taking a "No Contact" day on Monday. For those who may be new, this means I will be shutting off my cell phone, not running instant messengers, likely not even responding to posts here all day tomorrow. A combination of illness (bronchitis/upper respiratory bug and the pleurisy) and psychologi…

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Hi!

Hi to all the new people following me! Hi to all the regulars following me! Hi to the people who I'm following! Hi to the people just peeking in to see what's going on! Hi to all the artists, writers, musicians, sculptors, suiters and movie makers who post their works for people to enjoy! Hi to all…

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Health Scare for Me

Around 6pm last night, I began having chest pains. Nothing too major, but twinges. It steadily got worse over time, to the point where the pain actually woke me up after I rolled over onto my left side. At 3am, I got my mom up and went to the ER. I was diagnosed with pleurisy, an inflammation of th…

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Tired...

I am tired. I'm tired of so many things. I'm tired of retail. I'm tired of my store. I'm tired of not writing or feeling motivated to write. I'm tired of people who leech all of my energy when I need it more. I'm tired of giving and not getting back. I'm tired of the duality. I'm tired of being afr…

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Thoughts on...Black Weekend (Work, culture, rant)

Well, another Black Thursday and Friday are upon us soon...y'know, what used to be Thanksgiving Thursday and Food Coma Friday. So, I kinda feel a bit compelled to share my thoughts about all of this stuff. Ready? IT'S A LOAD OF CRAP! The items that are doorbusters are often worse than what you can…

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Transgender Day of Remembrance

http://www.advocate.com/transgender/2015/11/20/transgender-day-remembrance-2015-those-weve-lost lights a candle and says a silent prayer for those who have fallen

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Yonger Cat update

Connor, our younger/only cat went to the cardiologist today for a check on how his heart was doing. Still has the heart murmur, but his heart walls have not gotten any thicker. As clean a bill of health as we can expect...and a nice moment for a Boston Market drive-thru operator too (she saw him in…

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Midterm exam grade finally in!

So, about a month after I turned in the midterm exam, I got my grade back. 100/100 The girl done GOOOOOOOOOOOOD! giggles ^.^

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Prayers for Paris

There were multiple attacks on "soft targets" in Paris last night. Restaurants, clubs, a stadium and a concert hall. Over 140 people are reported dead. Please...just take a moment and pray for their families and for the city as a whole. Even if you don't personally pray, just have a brief moment of…

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Belly, please GO AWAY! (fuming)

So, as some of you may know, I received a free FitBit from work late in September. Since I got it, I've been doing better with exercise and drinking more water... ... ...and I am freaking GAINING weight! WTH????? I walk 30 miles a week! I'm eating less AND better foods! I'm drinking more water! I'm…

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A Lil Confession

From about age 13 till age 25...I wanted to dress like Minnie Mouse. blushes

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Getting hit with the brain pan

So, once again, I have had an episode of dizziness and vertigo. I cancelled my online appointment and went to bed. This was shortly after noon. Right now, the dizziness has somewhat passed, but I have pain and a feeling of pressure in the back of my head that comes and goes. I may be heading to the…

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That Thursday thingy (asks)

Okay...you all should know the drill by now: Ask a question, get an answer. No subject is off-limits. Honest answers will be provided. Rack those brains and come up with some good ones, dearies. ^.^

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Offline Day

Just a heads up for the fellow Weasyls. Tomorrow, I am likely going to be offline for the entire day. My grandmother (who is 98 years old and lives in Southwest Detroit), is getting a new fridge delivered...so my mom and I are going out there to help keep her calm and to make sure things go smoothl…

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Mom update

So, my mom had her cataract followup yesterday. She is now cleared to drive and her eye pressure is low for her (in the upper teens). No side-effects and she now has reading glasses, which makes her happy since she can now read. She has another follow-up on Monday. Also, her chemo port follow-up we…

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Restful sleep (female things)

Okay. This is gonna deal with some female stuff...so, if you don't want to read about this, please scoot. waits a few seconds Still here? Okay then. So, last night, I acted on an idea that had been percolating in my head for a while. First off, I got rid of that icky facial hair. Been meaning to do…

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Blessed Samhain/Happy Halloween

It's the mom in me that is making me post this. Also the fact that I'm prepping to take my mom to her third surgery in eight days. Be safe and well everyone. Blessed Samhain to my fellow pagans. Happy Halloween to the rest of you. Be safe. Watch scary movies. Enjoy the candy. ^.^

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One Cataract Down

Mom got her first cataract removed. She is already reporting clearer vision. Next cataract is removed on Samhain/Halloween.

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Last Story for a bit

Okay guys..."Upload October" is officially over. The last story for the month has been uploaded. Likely won't be any more until at least early-to-mid November due toooo.... -parent having two surgeries this week -take-home midterm due Thursday -film response journal due Sunday -Guild Wars 2's expan…

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Hi's and Ask's

First off, hello to all the new people following me! waves excitedly Now, since I haven't done one of these in a long while (I think), I want to open up the floor for any questions you might have for me. Standard rules apply: no taboo subjects, no limit on questions, honest answers only. So, ask aw…

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One Surgery Down

After a 45 minute delay, my mom got her surgery started at 815am. By 9am, she was done. We're both very giddy and happy and celebrating with a big feast of Chinese food tonight. ^.^

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Sudden-Onset Vertigo

So, today, I had a couple of episodes of vertigo. The first was before class. I bent over to get my backpack from the floor and my body wanted to keep going over. The second...was much more severe. I was sitting in front of the computer monitor, watching a video...and the monitor appeared to turn u…

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A Surprising Experience (female)

Okay...so I am going to be up front about this: this talks about something that happened over the course of the night last night, is female-related, and may not be for everyone. If reading about female things is not your cup of tea, pass over this. M'kay? So, during the night, I woke up...and I wou…

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Heads-up (story break)

Just a reminder: this Friday, my mother is going to have the first of her three surgeries this month. As a result, there likely will be no story upload on Friday. ...or next Tuesday (second surgery)... ... ...or next Saturday (Samhain/third surgery). Just letting you all know. ^.^

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Catcalling...(class thoughts)

So today in class, we talked a bout a film called "War Zone", also known as "Street Harassment". In it, a female filmmaker puts on nice attire, goes walking down the streets of major cities, records the reactions of people and questions them as to their reactions. Now, why am I bringing this up? In…

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Amazing Takeover (RL stuff)

It truly is amazing how something so small can have an effect on your life and essentially take it over. Now, some of you might be thinking "Oh, you got a new pet!" or "Oh no, what game did you buy NOW??" Honestly...what's taken over my life is a small little lime-green FitBit. I got it for free fr…

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Stuff I Like In Terms of Apparel (female things)

I know I did a journal like this way back where I talked about my shopping likes. Today, I want to talk about the stuff I actually shop FOR and how I feel about each. We coo about that? waits for a bit...then nods Good. Jeans---Love them, particularly the Gloria Vanderbilt line of jeans from Kohl's…

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A phrase that really bothers me

I was thinking about this at work yesterday...and I figured I'd share it here. There is a phrase that people tend to use around me that really annoys the heck out of me: "You clean up so well." This is what is known as a backhanded compliment. Yes, it is technically a compliment, but it has a negat…

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Something So Bizarre It MUST Be Shared

So, I decided I was going to take a nap at about 430pm. From 4:42pm until 6:45pm (about fifteen minutes before I "woke up"), our house received THIRTEEN scam phone calls. Several were from the number 1. No, seriously. THEIR PHONE NUMBER IS A "1". Those are the fake Microsoft techs claiming your com…

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Plannies

Hey, all. Turns out I did break fully out of my depressive episode. Now I'm feeling very unburdened and optimistic and happy and driving people all sorts of crazy. ^.^ So, I figured why not expand that crazy a little bit, by sharing some ideas I have here on Weasyl and getting feedbacks. Okay? Good…

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What Online Chatting is Like For Me (Rant)

Y'know...I was originally going to do a humorous little schpiel with this, involving my vixen and a non-descript other fur...but honestly, this doesn't deserve to be made light of. /begin rant So, like a lot of people across the globe, I chat online with people. I use it to plan get-togethers, help…

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Broke the Depression

Okay...so Wednesday at work, I had a very odd, wonderful feeling. (Wait...a wonderful feeling at WORK? WHAT BLASPHEMY IS THIS???) I literally felt like a gigantic weight had been lifted off of me. Literally. Since then, I have been in a very positive, upbeat mood. Even to the point of singing at wo…

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First Class Delayed

So, I am glad I checked my school e-mail account this morning. Apparently, class is cancelled for today. And I already have homework. I have a documentary to watch: Middle Sexes. And a reaction paper to write as well. Yay school! And yay foresight to check e-mails!

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I'm just going to ramble a bit here...(Stuffs)

Okay...some stuff I just feel like blathering on about: -Skyrim: Yes, I am still playing. I am closing in on level 60. Pretty easy to do since... -Skype:...apparently, Skype is either eating messages or just not working properly (or people just don't want to talk to me anymore). So, I am going to b…

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What my depression does to me

It's 5:34 am. My brain has woken me up and will not let me get back to sleep. So, I am going to use this time. I know that, in a previous journal, I talked about being depressed. Right now, I want to talk about what that REALLY means. For me, when depression hits, I withdraw from things. I withdraw…

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Upcoming Class Prep

So, I have a new class starting the day after Labor Day (September 8th)...and I'm beginning my preparations now. That involves adjusting my sleep pattern so that I am awake before the class begins. Always a good thing. So that means bed by 11 pm...up at 7am. I am one and oh so far, but I had help..…

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Class update

Well, I finished my statistics course...in rousing fashion. I took my last quiz today...and got a 20 out of 20. That plus three extra credit points earned the day before for an assignment puts me back at one point over the total for the course. That means I passed. And the heavy math is behind me.…

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Candidness about depression

So, I was going along fine, minding my own business yesterday. Had just watched a scary movie with the parent after playing a video game with said parent... ... ...and then, I got on the computer... ... ...and this tsunami of depression just HIT. Almost like it was a physical thing. Just smacked me…

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The Job Interview

So, I had a job interview today. Just got back from it actually. I arrived five minutes before to check in, like the e-mail I got from the hiring center recommended. The interview began twenty minutes later...fifteen minutes AFTER it was supposed to. And the person I interviewed with had Z-E-R-O in…

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DovahFoxie

So, I got back on a Skyrim binge. Found a whole bunch of mods to try out on my Steam copy and have been logging insane amounts of hours on it. Over the past 48 hours, 20 hours have been spent on Skyrim. Yes...that is ten hours EACH DAY. STRAIGHT! So yeah...it's loads of fun. Very immersive. Good st…

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BIG NEWS!!! (RL, work)

I woke up today (Sat, 8/1) and checked my e-mails. And found that a company I had applied for back in early June wants me for a job interview!!!!!! Kohl's wants me!!!!!!! squees softly The interview is on 8/11 @ 10:30 am. Wish me luck everyone! ^.^

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Thursday Distraction (asks)

Since it is Thursday...also known as the day of my first-ever mammogram (so excited squees softly)...I figured I'd throw up an "Ask..." journal, both for something to do and something for you guys to participate in if you want to. By now, you should know the drill: post a Q, and I'll A. Nothing rea…

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Some New Vernacular (aka terms)

Some new words to learn/concepts to get familiar with for those who interact with me on IM/Skype: deppy (adj) Definition: an emotional condition combining depression with happiness. Very rare condition. Codswallop (adv) Definition: a profanity. Squeeblefligget (adv) Definition: an expression of sur…

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Upcoming Things

So just a quick lil update thing to let you all know what is going on/coming up in my life: -mammogram appointment is on the 30th of July. This is just a screening one. Do not panic. -likely being a lumberjill at my gran's the next two Mondays. Apparently, she got someone to cut down a tree in her…

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Life Beats

So, let's update you guys on stuff, hmm? Class: Back up to a perfect score on my statistics class. Combination of extra credit and being able to take the tests multiple times does indeed help with that. Only perk of this online course. -.- Female: I have been feeling quite a bit more feminine latel…

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Thursday! Thursday! THURSDAY! (askies)

It's Thursday. I'm bored. I had this whole dark and menacing idea for this journal...but decided, "Ehhh....that's too over the top, even for me." So: leave questions in the comments. Stuff you wanted to know, stuff you always wanted to ask, silly questions. Stuff like that. I'll post a reply to eac…

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Gaming Gears and Grinds

So, I decided to start over on my copy of Heart Gold...because I had already sent everything to Pokemon Bank and had a total of FOUR pokemon left. I was also motivated for a second shot at the Dratini that knows Extremespeed. Slowly working toward that. PC wise, I started over in MInecraft...and fo…

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Special Day Recap: What I learned

Thought I would share some of the insights I gained during my "Special Day" (day of spiritual reflection, meditation and prayer): -I need to meditate and nourish my spiritual side more. I believe this will help me fight back the funks I keep having. -something MAY happen in the next couple of weeks…

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Special Day Sunday

Just a heads-up: I will be COMPLETELY OFFLINE AND OFF-GRID on SUNDAY, 6/28. This is because Sunday is my day of spiritual reflection and meditation, often referred to as my "Special Day". I will be back online the following day and may share some insights I gained during my Special Day. So, once ag…

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Asks on a Friday!

Well, to bump that last journal off the front page, I figure it's a good time to do a "Ask/TMI" journal. So, bring forth your questions, and they shall be answered. Not promptly, though. I do have something resembling a crude facsimile of a life-type thing. ^.^

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Rambling about the world (random)

Some stuff I wanna comment on, but not in a lot of depth right now: Stanley Cup Finals: Glad Chicago won, since they beat Tampa Bay (aka the team that ousted my Detroit Red Wings from the playoffs). Female: I haven't expressed as much. Oddly, the time where I am most female is when I wake up in the…

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T-Minus 365 (work)

Well, this is it. One year...365 days...until I turn in my notice and leave my employer. It is truly a relief to know that my time in Hell is ending. It feels good. ^.^ Of course, that is at the maximum end of the spectrum. Should I get a better offer sooner...or any offer, really...that notice wil…

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Life as it stands right now (update journal)

So, just an update to let you folks know what's going on: -I feel a funk coming on. This is Not Good, as it means I will likely be grumpy and isolationy for a while. It was caused by... -A very wonderful dream series I have been having. You ever have a dream that actually makes you stay in bed long…

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Starting a New Month With Absurdity (askies)

Okay...it is a new month. Let's put May, its horrors and its losses behind us and start June off in a good way here on my Weasyl area. It is Tuesday. That means questions should be asked if you have them. No subject is off limits. Nothing taboo. Ask away or I shall pun you! ^.^

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Thank You

I just want to say thank you to those of you who helped support me through the last few weeks. The diagnosis of both cats' health issues, the meltdown of one friend, the surgery and eventual passing of my older cat. Thank you to everyone who took time to talk to me, help me stay positive and gave m…

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Older Cat Update--117am, 5/27/15

As of now, she has had three feedings via nasal tube. She has a fever, hovering around 103-104. It's hoped that antibiotics will knock that down. She did have a bowel movement, but it was diarrhea. That is mixed news; it IS a bowel movement, but we were hoping for solid matter. Will update in the d…

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And More Not-Good News (Older Cat)

She is still not eating and now has an enlarged bowel. They're putting a feeding tube in to try to get something in her and hoping that lowers the enlarged bowel. We'll know more in a couple more hours. -.- I wish the news was better.

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Older Cat...Bad News

Well, we had to take the older cat back to the 24/7 clinic today, since she was not eating and semi-mobile. We just got the blood workup results. They are not good. Chloride, potassium and calcium were down. White count was slightly elevated...and there were lymphocytes present in the sample that w…

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Not so Fast (Older Cat)

Okay...so she ate a bit last night. Not a lot, but a little bit. I went in to relieve my mom around 9am...and found that the older cat had a fever. We administered meds at 10am. Now, just waiting to see if the meds break the fever...or if we have to take her back to the 24/7 place. -.- Crapple.

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Older Cat is HOME!!!!!!! *squees*

We just brought her home! YAY! YAY! YAY! She is a bit grumpy...and still hasn't eaten since the surgery...and had a small bout of the trots...but she's HOME! Currently, she is in quarantine in my mother's room...and my mother is reading her "Harry Potter" pauses in the glee...then adds psychiatric…

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Older Cat update

Just got a call from the vet regarding our older cat. This news is bad. Really bad. They found signs of cancer in her intestinal tract as well as in her lymph nodes. They're going to resect her bowel, and they did get the masses out. They also asked us about euthanizing her. Since the vet tech said…

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Cat Update: The Younger

Okay. The older cat is off for surgery now. Results on that will be later. The younger cat had his appointment today. He has mild heart disease. He goes back in six months to determine progression rate. If it's slow-progressing, he'll likely be around longer. sighs

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Elder Cat Update

Well, we got the results from the University. They have no clue either. The oncologist recommends surgery. Sooner the better...so we're trying to set up an appointment now. UPDATE: Pre-op appointment is today at 2:40 pm.

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More blargh!

And now, I'm having some tech issues to go along with everything else. Le Behemoth (aka my laptop) has decided it wants to have a black screen after I log in. I've researched online, found out it MAY be a graphics driver issue...so I'll be trying those solutions today before work. Means I may not b…

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Cat Update: The Elder

Okay...we just got back from the oncologist. First the good: -the mass is not imbedded in her stomach or intestinal area. -there are no issues with her lungs or kidneys Now the not-so-good: -the "mass" is actually a cluster of smaller lesions, grouped together -they have no idea what these lesions…

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Thursday TMI and FML Friday

Okay...I have been in a funk lately (see my last couple of journals, you'll know why). So, I figure I'll distract myself a bit by answering questions from all of you for the next two days. Ask away. Help buoy my mood a bit. ^.^

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More Bad Cat News

So, just came back from the vet with our older cat, Bugs. The vet found a sizable abdominal mass...which, due to how swiftly it grew (she had been in there in September due to fever and not eating), combined with some weight loss (.4 oz lost since September), is leading the vet to believe she may h…

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More Health Issues (not mine)

We took our youngest cat...a 7-year old Maine Coon/domestic shorthair mix...to the vet for his annual check-up. The vet said that he has a "very faint, very subtle" heart murmur. We need to have him fast for a bit (just overnight), then take him in on Tuesday for a blood draw to check for a thyroid…

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Health Assessment= Bleh!

So, I took an online health assessment today, in preparation for my physical later today. Found out that there are three major focus areas: -weight loss. Their recommendation is for me to get down to around 158 pounds. I'm currently at 265. Got a ways to go on this. -nutrition. I don't eat a lot of…

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Tuesday

I am in a bit of a mood. Figure answering questions would help make that mood better. Ask away, fuzzies! ^.^

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A Polite Reminder

Now, I know that things like messenger info and things like that can be found fairly easily, even for those of us who want/like privacy... ...BUT... ...if you randomly add me to your Skype/YIM/AIM/WTF chat listing, PLEASE tell me who you are and where I might know you from. Otherwise, I'll assume y…

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Progress, but Not in Writing

I think I've finally figured out how to use my gaming broadcasting software. Maybe. Hopefully. I dunno. stares at it...then pokes it with a rice log At least I finally got it to WORK. That is progress. Means I may be able to start doing Let's Plays in the future. That is very big progress...since i…

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Things I Like: Shopping!

Okay...today, I want to talk about shopping, specifically clothes shopping. Now, I will admit...I LOVE to shop for clothing now. Back when I was younger, I loathed it. With a passion. Mostly because I hated what was offered in terms of clothing...but there may have also been the beginning of my dis…

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TMI Tuesday From Me to All of You

claps paws Okay. It is Tuesday. That means it'd be time for a TMI Tuesday thing. Except...I tend to not get a lot of questions when I do these things. Therefore...I am going to ask MYSELF questions, and answer them here. But, if you folks have questions, please feel free to ask them in comments. Th…

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To-Do list

Just a list of stuff I need/want to do by the end of the year. Might happen, might not. -get more commissions (thinking three) -get reference sheets done for : Tara, Clairica, Eclipse -finish book one of "The Incident at Saint Mariah's"

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That Tuesday Thing

Well, it's Tuesday. Ask me stuff so I can stop playing "Bravely Default" for a bit. Please? PLEASE? looks furtively at her 3ds, which has had Bravely Default in it since Easter Sunday, almost non-stop

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The Eggs!

Okay...whoever came up with this idea to make the submissions eggs...YOU ROCK! Very inventive, very cool, very original. Also, I love how, when you click on a submission, the egg cracks! squees Can we keep this around till Easter? Pleeeeeease? gives big sparkly fox eyes ^.^

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Okay, they're up! (stories and a challenge)

All righty! As promised, two stories are up. Part ones for two story series that I'm proud of: "Doctoral Studies" and "Invaded Space". Now...you might have seen the little "challenge" thing in the title of this journal. That's because I have a challenge for all of you Weasyls out there! Whichever s…

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Migration begins

Hey Weasyls! giggles Starting Monday, I'll be migrating some of my works here. I just needed some time to recover from being sick, an exam, and some drama. Thankfully, i have a word processing program that can auto-convert .docs to .pdfs...so I can just push a button and bango! Instant Weasyl-appro…

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Things that just pop into my head (random ramble)

So, some things popped into my head randomly. No idea why and not gonna make sense of it at all sooo... -For some reason I had Sailor Moon pop into my head one day...and I actually did an analysis of which Sailor Scout I would be like. The answer I came up with was Sailor Mercury. Like her, I can b…

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So, Who am I?

Well, since my last attempt at this got zero bites, I figure I'll just be a bit more blunt about things. coughs Hi. I'm R.A. Blackpaws. I am a writer, which means I create things with words. NOT with pretty colors, NOT with fur, foam and thread, NOT with mad pounding beats...but with WORDS. I am al…

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Exam 3

So, today I have my third exam for my "Psychology of Human Sexuality" class. I wound up losing an entire day's worth of studying for this exam due to illness...yet am oddly not worried about it. I paid attention in class...read the text several times...followed the study sheet the professor gave us…

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Sick

So, I caught the bug that's been floating around work. Flu-like thingy that has put me on my tookus. I'll beat it, but I'm gonna be flighty till then.

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Pokemon Competition---Day 3

Well, that went swimmingly. I went 1-9 today...so overall I'm 5-25. Wow...I knew I was getting into deep waters on this, but I didn't expect that BAD of a showing. Still, I am getting a Pokemon out of this just for participating...but still. sighs Guess I have a long way to go, huh? perks up Still,…

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Pokemon Competition---Day 2

Sorry for the lateness of this. I was exhausted after work and sick as well. Anyways, day 2 went a bit better than day 1. I got four wins against six losses. My overall record is 4 and 16 though. Not great. Day three hasn't gone great so far either. Currently 0-5.

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Life Updates

Ooooo-kay....let's do some updating shall we? claps paws First off, I am in school. Currently taking "Psychology of Human Sexuality". Learning a lot both about myself and about how I interact with others...as well as getting a better understanding of my own sexuality as well. Secondly, I am making…

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What the...?

I logged into Furaffinity this morning before class and everything is "normal" for FurAffinity. I logged in a few minutes ago and there's chaos and flipped art tables and furry lynch mobs. Now I will admit, I do not know a lot about IMVU (nor do I really want to)...but I feel that, out of caution o…

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A Sign of the End Times...

I, R.A. Blackpaws...perpetual hermit and very private person...have done the previously unthinkable. I have joined Skynet...er, Google. Yeah, that thingy. chuckles This also means...wait for it...I have a YouTube account...and possibly a channel in the future. You may now run around screaming or pr…

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Still Writing

Hey, all. In case you hadn't noticed by all the recent uploads, I am still writing. Would love to get feedback on them, as well as on my older content...so feel free to comment! Thanks! curtsies

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Story Stuff That's Coming Up

Since work has hit the dreaded "Slow Time" (aka that period from the first of the year till about two weeks before Easter when retail companies vivisect hours and staff), I feel that I will have more time available to actually get some writing done. So, this is kinda what MIGHT be coming down the p…

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Still Alive and Kicking

So...I know I haven't been posting a lot here. Before you wonder, I AM still alive. I still have ideas in my brain. With it being retail Gehenna (aka the holiday season), PLUS school (I am actually taking a college class now, for those who aren't nosing me on FA), AND swirling female issues...I hav…

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What's been going on?

Hey Weasyls! giggles I suppose I should update this. Keep meaning to, but life has gotten busy, so my brain is stretched far and wide. Between work, class, being sick, taking care of the parental unit...I have needed quite a bit of stress relief (Thank you Markiplier for providing that). I do want…

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Uhhhh....whoops.

blushes Hey everyone. Yes, I am still here. I didn't disappear off the face of the Earth or anything. I've just...sighs...I've been dealing with some things lately. Been sick physically...been really screwballed mentally...been shaken psychologically too. But, I am still writing. Still going to get…

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Gonna get back on track now

Hoo-kay... Well, it's been an eventful month in Real-Life. I wound up having to do a lot of work on my main computer...which has meant I haven't done a whole lot of writing or converting older things to upload here. Yesterday, the last upgrade was completed and now everything works properly...so my…

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Horror story updated

Just to let all the Weasyls know, I have uploaded the third part of my horror story, "The Incident at Saint Mariah's". Please feel free to read, comment on...and most of all, enjoy. ^.^

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Horror story

Hey everyone! In case you didn't notice, I put up the first chapter in my new horror story yesterday, titled "The Incident at Saint Mariah's". Hopefully, you all can take a peek and give me your thoughts. Chapter two is already finished and chapter three is in the works. Spending an hour each day w…

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Stories Coming Down the Pipeline

Just a heads-up. I have a few story projects that I am working on. One is a bit of a dark story, featuring heavy mind-control/alteration, strong D/s themes, slavery, and large amounts of latex. This one has hit a bit of a snag...as three separate and distinct endings have popped up in my head. The…

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Progress?

So, I've been migrating things over in fits and starts... sighs Okay, a SINGLE fit...but it's still a fit. It's still progress. So, obviously, I have a lot of stories that I will be uploading here...probably for the rest of the year. So...take a look, let me know if you see anything you like, leave…

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Small Upload Storm Coming

Going to be uploading a few more parts of "Dilemma" today. Maybe all of it. Why? Because I feel more chapters of "Dilemma" coming. So, feel free to read and peek.

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Getting to know me

Umm...well, okay. I do these quite a bit on FurAffinity...to mostly yawns and boredom (ie very few people participate). So, I figure the best way to get to know me, aside from Epic Wall of Text...is to just ask. So, ask me your questions. I'll answer them 100% honestly. ^.^

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Slowly Adding Thingses

I figure that, since I have all this time off coming up (work has hit the dreaded "Slow Time", so hours are scarce), I think I'll slowly begin uploading more stuff here. Probably start with all I have on the first series I put up here, "Weaving the Web", then slowly branch out. Be patient with me,…

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Well, here I am

Umm...well, here I am. coughs Well, a little bit about me. I'm a writer, primarily of story series that range in tone from slice-of-life to adult materials. I've been active on FurAffinity for a number of years...and finally decided to increase my presence here on the web. So, hopefully you'll read…