...I haven't the slightest clue what to commission. I desperately want to commission someone and upload that commissioned piece to my gallery to give it some new content after so many years...but I've just been clueless on what to commission. So, I'm taking suggestions in the comments, if you have…
Sadly I don't have much to update since my last journal, I've been working a lot, and I do mean a LOT since the last time I posted. This due to my working at my local grocery store which is, of course, essential business and thus isn't closing, just like gas stations, hospitals, and others I can't…
So I realize it has been over a year since my last journal and thus update on things that have been happening, some ups, and of course some downs. I took some online friend's advice (whom I can't recall anymore who it was sadly) and started to stream on Twitch around April of 2019. They initially s…
As the title states, I seriously hate myself sometimes, well technically most times, and I shall explain. As I've stated in previous journals (to anyone that actually reads them that is), I clearly have "issues" is probably the best way of putting it. I honestly don't know how else to put that so I…
So, October has been an eventful month for me just at the beginning. On Monday, October 1st I was informed that my last surviving grandparent, my mom's own mother, was in the ICU. I currently live in Maryland with my brother and mother, but I was born in New Hampshire where my grandma lived and one…
So I figured since a lot of people think I'm just being overly pessimistic for no reason, that I needed to make a list of things that just constantly happen and as a natural progression has made me to just expect bad things, and the following is what I like to consider evidence to support me: 1) I…
So I figured since a lot of people think I'm just being overly pessimistic for no reason, that I needed to make a list of things that just constantly happen and as a natural progression has made me to just expect bad things, and the following is what I like to consider evidence to support me: 1) I…
Before anyone thinks the title is implying suicidal or self-harm then you would be wrong, do not worry on that end. No, instead I'm giving up on ever trying to be truly happy in this world, with modern science the way that it is, and the total lack of real magic. To explain, for those that don't al…
I noticed it's been nearly three years since my last art-based submission (that being the Sybil headshot image) and I really need to fix that. I don't want my account to seem dead, but I've been unemployed for nearly a year now, and have just been growing more and more depressed each year as I'm no…
So I've been thinking for quite some time on this matter and am curious as to other's opinions on this as well. When Episode VII: The Force Awakens came out, I initially went in not knowing it had no relation to the extended universe to which I grew up with. When I saw Ben Solo I began to get infur…
Sprint claims to be a great cell company, however they have been giving me the run-around for over a month now. Here's the situation: Last month (as any who read my journal already know) my step-dad passed away, December 11th to be exact. After getting a copy of his death certificate I immediately…
Well I found out early this morning that my step-dad passed at around 7:30 AM. He had promised my mom to make it through Christmas for her, but so much for that now. I'm both sad and angry like a huge part of me just wants to punch him for all this pain. He stepped in as my dad when my father disap…
Okay, yeah I know the subject title seems a little attention grabby, while not the intent, I just literally can't think of how else to title this. I had finally taken the time to go through my list of people I was watching, in an attempt to remove the accounts to which some users moved. I didn't fi…
Okay I know this journal is way overdue since my last one was back in May 2015 and it's now late January. So I guess I'll do a sort of bullet point list of things that happened, quick-ish and to-the-point. After the last journal between May and August (can't remember when) I had a severely bad alle…
Gold’s Gym broke my windshield wiper blade. Apparently they had someone going through the parking lot of where I work putting fliers on people’s windshields and one of them broke the blade. I have to wait until tomorrow (since their office closed at 5:30 PM and it's now 10:54 PM) to call their cust…
Okay I realized it was time to update my journal here since the last entry was eight months ago. So first off I want to mention that I decided to start a "GoFundMe" in hopes to get some help with my transition but I haven't connected it to any Facebook since I don't want family learning of it since…
Ugh I have so screwed up my life, I wish I could take back so many things I did because I've just metaphorically dug myself into such a deep hole that I'm never going to get anywhere in my life unless by some miracle I win enough money that would solve just about all my problems. As it is I'm thirt…
Okay, so there are a few things I'm looking for, none of which are the least bit important at all but regretfully I have had no luck in finding anything myself. I shall list below what it is I'm searching for in individual numbered bulletins. 1) An artist that is willing to do a gender shifting com…
So, an update of sorts, I basically have a job, I just have to wait for them to get the drug test results and then they'll eventually schedule an orientation. Since I don't do any drugs (with the exception being allergy medicine and Excedrin for the migraines I get once in a while, but those are bo…
