lately i have been thinking of starting a new account here... why though? i have such a history here and on other sites, i have built my base around these accounts. but ever since i started transitioning, i have found it hard to... associate with who i was? i feel so separate from that person, even…
270 days ago i started on estrogen, best decision of my whole life. so like, some realness, i am absolutely struggling with art while dealing with HRT! but I'm still in a nice "i don't hate myself as much anymore" i actually smile when i look in the mirror now :> i have not done that in YEARS! I've…
i finally got my hands on estrogen a month ago or so. don't think I'm gonna go back, this feels right. when i look in the mirror i recognize that person as me instead of some distant imposter i get angry or sad at. even though nothing has visually changed yet i can't help but smile at my reflection…
tl:dr at bottom going through your old journals is a good way to to hate yourself, or to recognize how much you have changed. i held a lot of flawed views, i didn't have a lot of worldly experience and i was making due with what i had. i held some under the surface sexist and lgbt phobic views and…
TLDR; i got hospitalized, i am now home, I'm on a soup and simple carbs diet. i will be okay, it's nothing serious as far as we know.
i'm really fuckin' sick :D TL;DR- new medication had me sick for 2 months with horrible symptoms i am now going through withdrawals because my doctor told me to stop taking them, i have 3 weeks of hell to look forward to, even with another medication to help with the withdrawal symptoms.
armaina is in a bit of a tight spot, if you have the funds, you should check out their work an get a commission, they do some pretty snazzy art an pixel art!
Its been rough night. I would be incredibly greatful if anone wants to draw a character they think they understand (of my character's ) or just think looks cool. Go hog wild, wing it.... belches steam I'm a dog thats normal, just like the oil i drooled over you shoes. Dogs. I will probably draw som…
long story short i got real sick physically and during that time my depression and anxiety kicked my ass, and honestly almost won. anyhow, i'm finally on the incline, i have not decided if i want to try an finish inktober or not, and just have it dealyed... anyhow thanks for supporting me me' spuds
on hiatus from art for a bit will return to inktober stuff when i am able to
smokni up if anyone wants to do a little trade, also offered over at my nsfw account https://www.weasyl.com/journal/112296/trade-stoned
i am gonna try doing ink tober, but currently i am kinda sick, will catch up when i feel better l;3;
dee am open to mini trades so like sketchy or simple stuff
while i'm not hosting a session at the moment, i can say my favepalm worthy problem has been fixed suffice to say it was a very stupid problem that makes me feel very stupid :3 anyhow, future sessions will be a thing, with no need for hamatchi and blah blah blah
jeeze, it feels weird to say that also feels weird to say that the last Decade kinda flew by ps more beegoats plzthx
Monochrome: 20$ For Lone Chibi's 25$ for Basic scenery Marker Colour: 50$ 55$ For Basic scenery colours available are here here https://www.weasyl.com/submission/1207405/colour-paper-commissions-open 1: 2: 3: 4: 5: you can note me here or e-mail Cowtato@live.com
Monochrome: 20$ For Lone Chibi's 25$ for Basic scenery Marker Colour: 50$ 55$ For Basic scenery colours available here https://www.weasyl.com/submission/1207405/colour-paper-commissions-open Limited Slots: 1: 2: 3: 4: 5:
i got that game in the title, and didn't notice the multiplayert thing i'm really dumb and want to play games also i ran after a thing that was much too strong for me i died but it was worth the adventure!
SO, i am genuinely curious what you folks TOP 5 daily newfs where for 2015! as a bouns, here's a list of my top 10 There is no specofic order to these, as i can't have rate them like that XD 1 - 100 COWTATOS!!! I am proud of drawing 100 unique Cowtatos for this~ even if the scanner butchered the co…
SO! the random shutdown problem is not done! i seriously dunno what to do outside save up for new parts... which is like 70% of a new computer xp sigh
will upload missing newfs tomorrow
No newfs no nothing till further notice. I'll still be at them and just upload the missing ones when the problem is solved
haha, on Halloween i hit a car, dudes car was fine, but my car was in need oh heavy repairs. so in the repair company parking lot annnnnnnd it got hit by a speeding car, rammed into a tree, and totally trashed. written off. cars gone. so folks, when they say, you should put studded tires on your ca…
if anyone misses OpenCanvas, there's a program called DrawPile http://drawpile.net/ it works cross PC an Mac too, as me and my friend found out :D so if people are intrested, we can have some neat DrawPile sessions :B
my folks went and told an entire party about what happened, so word is getting around anyways. i wanted to keep to low keep to minimize stress. I am fine, i was not hurt, and the truck was empty. i rear ended a truck at low speeds, the truck is fine, and the truck hitch did all the damage to my car…
so a thing happened... if the newfs are late please understand a bad thing happened, not like too bad, but it's still something that has left me horribly overwhelmed. my chest is exploding cuz i am stuck in panic mode. (if you know the reason, please refrain from mentioning it)
this is a vent from Dee "i wish to stop feeling dead inside" this has been a vent from Dee
So I am doing a commission drive to afford a masters of illustration course in the US PRICES HERE you can note me here, or e-mail me at cowtato@live.com Monochrome: 20$ For Lone Chibi's 25$ for Basic scenery Marker Colour: 50$ 55$ For Basic scenery Colours Available: Blue Green Pink Orange Yellow W…
So I am doing a commission drive to afford a masters of illustration course in the US PRICES HERE Monochrome: 20$ For Lone Chibi's 25$ for Basic scenery Marker Colour: 50$ 55$ For Basic scenery Colours Available: Blue Green Pink Orange Yellow White msg me with details :B
Sample Page for Coloured Paper Commissions! SAMPLE PAGE https://www.weasyl.com/submission/1042288/colour-paper-sample https://www.weasyl.com/submission/1044484/greencom-sneaky-sarrl https://www.weasyl.com/submission/1045605/bluecom-relaxing-gor 20$ For Lone Chibi's 25$ for Chibi with Prop's & backg…
considering trades here, i kinda wanna get some cute stuff done to help cheer up note, but please note that i may not respond based on how bad i feel
Daily Newf will return with missing ones on tuesday i think i have a bunch done in advance cuz i need a little break (i suffered some heat exhaustion the other day, and i am still feeling the effects from it)
So me an a friend are talking to doing a furry pinup calender sooo... does anyone know where we would go to get it printed and sold through?
Sample Page for Coloured Paper Commissions! SAMPLE PAGE https://www.weasyl.com/submission/1042288/colour-paper-sample 20$ For Lone Chibi's 25$ for Chibi with Prop's & backgrounds Colours Available: Blue Green Pink Orange Yellow White oh right, MSG me for inquiries :B
I've lowered the prices to my patreon, so for just a buck you can check out the daily newfs a day early :3 i'll start doing patreon only steams in the future as well, but currently i am a little stressed out. My friend is doing ECT and can not be left alone AT ALL for some time, i've also had to go…
I have started a Patreon and the behest of some of my friends. If you would like early access to all daily newfs, as well as access to sketches i normally don't share/post anywhere, feel free to sign up. You can check it out at https://www.patreon.com/Cowtato
yeah, so i've been palying gta online for a few weeks, and find it kind boring without a crew or anyone to play with. so yeah, anyone know any friendly crews/groups?
as written in this journal https://www.weasyl.com/journal/77705/the-daily-newf-what-is-it Daily Newfs are allowed to be delayed due to illness and it appears i have a flu, so newf is likely be delayed lurches
HONKHONKHONK HONK HONK HONKHONK HOOOOOONK
soooo, i was doodling my Daily Newf while hanging out with my friend. this one https://www.weasyl.com/submission/891199/daily-newf-65-bouquet-for-blossom https://www.weasyl.com/submission/734506/goat-bee-need-s-better-buttons and i had an idea for a possible series of commissions revolving around o…
So i have access to a scanner, however it's not great, would you folks be okay with lower quality scans, and me simply editing the submissions later with high quality scans?
Until further notice I can't properly scan my daily newf's which sucks. However, I will be able to take pics of them and post them to my Instagram to prove I am still doing them daily I will bulk upload the scans when I can properly scan http://instagram.com/d6016/ http://instagram.com/d6016/ http:…
So many have noticed that i have been doing something called the daily Newf. Q: what does Daily Newf mean? A: I am the Newf, and i am delivering a picture every day. ransom suggested the name, because i was complaining that i didn't want to just call it "one a day" Q: What is the point of this? A:…
well, i'm still kicking around here. i've been feeling kind of hopeless, slightly due to .. uhh... inter family conflict that may have crushed me. (nothing like being made to feel worthless and meaningless to brighten up your day) bleh also sorry to anyone who replied to that last trade journal (i'…
i dunno, trying to get into the groove of drawing more often. anyone interested in a little trade?
if there is one thing i absolutely hate about medication, is that when i when i forget my pills, the next day is murderous. I can barely walk from being dizzy and every time i move i feel like someone is sticking a Taser in my mouth every time i try to move @_@
it's nice to see Weasyl get a nice boost of activity~ you should stick around and comment on stuff to keep people around~ i mean come on, for a beta site it's actually really nice. the moderation is pretty groovy, the down times are few and far between compared to FA. also i dunno if anyone is awar…
working on a commission https://picarto.tv/live/channel.php?watch=CowtatoArt
Mah buddy is doing some awesome magazine cover style commissions. you should check them out :B https://www.weasyl.com/journal/65124/open-for-magazine-cover-commissions
https://picarto.tv/live/channel.php?watch=CowtatoArt
https://picarto.tv/live/channel.php?watch=CowtatoArt
https://picarto.tv/live/channel.php?watch=CowtatoArt at the moment just drawing a tanuki gurl
i haven't streamed in a few weeks because there was concern it was broken! D: Thankfully i checked to see if it was the cord first. FINALLY the new cord came in, and HURRAH! it works :D nothing wrong with my tablet :B
for clarification, i mean this summer. Hey, i like summer things, like swimming an playing aroun an walks an shiz. Newfoundland is not known for having hot summers, but we are known for high humidity. the average humidity this summer is somewhere around 70% and we've had days at 90% coupled with te…
ever have a rough couple of weeks, where if you're not feeling sick family/life shit just happens, so much so that you start becoming paranoid and anxious? yeah, at the moment everything that has happened has culminated and right now, even though most everything has passed. I feel completely defeat…
yeah, i fel like i need to try some new things art we, maybe just things to draw for now.. ie: not characters of yours or your friends.
anyone ever draw a water melon corgi if not i am gonna draw a water melon corgi oh who am i kidding, i'm gonna draw a watermelon corgi anyways
so i did that "tales from Sci-Fi on the rock poster" https://www.weasyl.com/submission/588122/tales-from-scifi-on-the-rock for a local convention right? well, by Saturday at 12pm people had stolen every single poster that was put up. should i be flattered by this? or annoyed that i lost so much cov…
my friend is doing a character auction over on FA, i would appreciate if anyone could take a gander, or send someone who likes to buy characters over to her http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13503970/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13504606/
still not 100% better, and my depression has been kicking my ass. but i seem to be getting better, and the snow is clearing up a bit, i like winter, but it's nice to have a change of season. i've started working on commissions again, and am prepared to take more doodles for donations soon. :B anyho…
just incase anyone is concidered about where i have been an such, i am here. and i am pretty sure i have a flu. i am also dog sitting. dog sitting with the flu makes me feel bad, she wants to play so much and i just feel terrible. this has also caused my depression to attack in full force, and I...…
Yeah, i'm opening up some doodles for donations~ much like these, except you request who/what you want x3 https://www.weasyl.com/submission/497480/distract-me-doodles https://www.weasyl.com/submission/510857/distract-me-doodles-2 https://www.weasyl.com/submission/547019/distract-me-doodles-3 So how…
still extremely depressed, haven't drawn much. gimme something to draw/doodle no characters belonging to you no promises i'll draw it, but if it grabs me i will i am drawing on blue cardstock paper try to avoid characters, that being said interesting chars is welcome https://www.weasyl.com/submissi…
turned 28, nothing changed outside that i survived another rotation around the sun, and that i have cake in my belly.
I am still around, i have been trying to work on projects to no avail... i've been hiding in a hole in the ground, peeking out like a hungry undead gopher every now and then. I collect my pills and then crawl into my hole and wait for the snow to keep melting.
still extremely depressed, haven't drawn much. gimme something to draw/doodle no characters belonging to you no promises i'll draw it, but if it grabs me i will i am drawing on blue cardstock paper
extremely depressed, haven't drawn much. gimme something to draw/doodle no promises i'll draw it, but if it grabs me i will i am drawing on blue cardstock paper
last night, my mother was looking through the paper when she saw a familiar name in the obituaries. It was someone i used to play soccer/football with. He had taken his own life at age 28 after struggling with mental illness. i don't have anything else to say. before you say anything, i am fine, do…
Hey folks, i am stuck in a house alone for 3 months at have as a result, rented a server, anyone interested? if you don't know what hexxit is, it's a minecraft modpack, part of the technic launcher, it's based about exploration and conquering. http://www.technicpack.net/hexxit#
oh, hello, how are you. if you've been keeping up, I was having some compy problems. anyhow, in hopes that this was the problem, i took out the heat sink, discovered the thermal paste had turned to chalk, and the heatsink was full of... sigh dog hair. Sooo, i guess i am gonna have to keep an eye on…
my computer hates me, this is hte only info i have at the moment http://cowtato.com/images/2014/comp/WP_000995.jpg that's the bios menu for my pc directly after the last shutdown. stats after i testing gaming http://cowtato.com/images/2014/comp/gameingtemp.png i'll check some stuff out and add anyt…
i am tired of taking pills every day just to not feel like shit, as much as i normally do. fantastic. yeah, i am fine, i am just tired.
ugh, so fun times. i have a pretty nice rig i'd like to think, most games run on Ultra. I even upgraded it to 16 gigs just the other day. However, today, i logged on to pay a bit of minecraft FTB (I WAS preparing to rent a server) HOWEVER, not even 5 minutes in, my PC just, powers down try it again…
So hey, for those who don't know. I actually did a course in 2D 3D animation! We focused mostly on 3D Stuff, which is a problem when your teacher was a Traditional 2D animator. who worked on all the cartoons i watched as a kid anyhow, i am looking to get into it again, probably going to start with…
edit decided to go forward with it also i am using this to push the old journal off i also made a journal between this and that, that i apparently didn't post, which is good because i always feel bad about venting about depression.
What's your real name? Darren, the lord of Cowtato's and wielder of the battle moose How tall are you? 5"10 or 5"11 What's your natural hair color? Dark Brown What's your eye color? Grey Blue What's your orientation? Hetero Are you single, taken or undecided? Single What do you do in your spare tim…
oh hai Allright, so, i got a little art here an there, but for the most part, i'm just outright slow. My brain decides it wants to hate me 90% of the time, so i take happy pills so it's at least apathetic. the happy pills do not make happy 8I anyhow, lots of people have watched me the past couple o…
I am thankful for everyone who did follow me over here. Regardless of whether or not you agree with my opinion on the subjects. I honestly was unsure about moving, and to see that as many of you did made me feel better about the whole thing. also, a shout out to ransom: who's been working tirelessl…
Why are people so... annoying. i left FA because... chances are you all know why i hate this fandom, and most other fandoms for this kinda behavior. "i leave this site because i do not like the behavior of many people here, i am not pointing my finger at any one person" reply: "LEAVE ____ ALONE! IT…
