I hate to bitch and I haven't done it in a while. I'm frustrated not just from school of how much homework riding me but just work mostly and mainly overall. I only go there on weekends and maybe I'm just a whiner and I shouldn't be complaining, but this place is just the pits I swear to god. I tell myself every time its just temporary, don't let it be the life sentence or think you are stuck here forever. I'm not going to stay there forever. Its just there until I finish school. My problem is finding a new job that'll work with my schedule. That's the hardest part. Work right now isn't getting any better. A certain employee is gone and I thought it would be the end of it. I thought everyone would be happier and better off, nope. Its still the same, the manager and her assistants are still fighting, clashing, power-playing and treating everyone like dirt. They are unprofessional and everyone else is dragged in. Weekends I come in and they pull me in just to bully. I hate that shit. I don't like to tease or mistreat people just because its funny. I don't mistreat my friends or talk down to them. Never. Its horrible and its gone too far and its been going on for years so they won't change and don't respect anyone unless they merge with their click. Its annoying and stressful and I hate going to work knowing how bad its going to be. I'm sick of it. My manager and her assistant were rude to me and snotty just to be funny and thought it was funny to get me mad.

I have honestly thought calling HR on this place and see if anything can be fixed. Unfortunately the only way is to go through the manager and further off if you somehow contact them anonymously they'll still tell the manager that you called them even if you request anonymity. I"m trapped and suffocating. I'm sick of this aggressive place. I"m sick of being considered an uptight bitch just because I don't kid around like they do. I"m just done. I"m going to try and seek another job that'll be willing to have me work just weekends or just figure something else out. I'm tired of all this. I"m tired of this stress and I"m tired of all the melodrama. Its out of hand and I don't need to be around it. Its made me into a cranky and even more anxious person and less patient around people. I can't take it anymore. Its just not worth it dealing with all this shit.

Sorry to post this. I just felt like I really needed to vent. I have a hard time or sometimes when I do talk to people I let too much out or I feel like I do and overwhelm people with my problems or I feel like my problems aren't as problematic to some would think. I just I had to get it out. I'm sure some of ya'll had it worse than this or something similar or close or whatever. Its a problem whether big or not, don't one-up me please. Its something I can't stand. "Oh you think you had it bad this happened and blah blah blah to me so quit whining, you don't have it bad, you just have a full run schedule you can handle it." Comments like that hurt my feelings okay. I hate shitty comments like that. It sounds like my dad is talking to me when people put words like this.

Sorry if this comes off annoying as some friends know or have an idea or know how stressed I am and it may sound repetitive, I apologize but its just pent up rage I have to vent from time to time. The only friends I have are either online or back where I used to live so I don't have really any person to vent to personally here. I rarely go out unless with family really.

This semester so far has been hard on me and am trying to keep a balance on work and school, but also have some time for myself either drawing or hanging out and relaxing. Its mid term's next week and honestly its all just been one big blur to me. I'm shocked its gone by this fast but yet it doesn't feel like it at the same time. I just want it to be over and done with and pray next semester isn't as hard or overloaded with homework. I just hope after it goes by quicker or something. I stress on getting things turned in on time, but also hope I get my stuff right and studied to earn my grades.

Once again I apologize and if you have read this thank you for being patient and considerate/sympathetic for taking your time to read.