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I'm not dead. Mostly a draugr. by BasementBeast

Sorry I dropped off of the face of the earth for a year. Life has been a roller coaster, to say the very least. To sum up a pretty long and drawn-out story in as short of a snippet as I can: everything fell apart and I just very recently started to pull myself together. Also, I work in hotel management now. I, uh, never saw myself doing that ever.

I cleared most of my gallery and I'm trying to basically start with a clean slate to distance me from places where I behaved in ways I regret. I didn't hurt anyone or start any drama, no, but it's a bit personally embarrassing to look at my past self during one of the most painful times of my life.

So here's to a new start, I guess? And my birthday's tomorrow, so good timing, I guess. It's appropriate, haha.

Hope you all have been well, and here's hoping this next year won't be quite so Lifetime-Original-Movie-esque.

I'm not dead. Mostly a draugr.

BasementBeast

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    Bracket

    Happy early birthday, you are a wonderful person. <3

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    Raevis

    Welcome baaaaaaaaack

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    Dokis

    Before I hit the middle of that I was like

    DRAMA???

    WAS THERE DRAMA I NEVER HEARD ABOUT??????

    But I think I get it. Sometimes it's like pulling teeth to get me to mention things are going badly (even on my friends-locked Twitter) because I don't want to... make waves? And I definitely don't say much in super public places like this LMAO. I feel too guilty. ;~; I don't know if you feel guilty or more just embarrassed, but. I definitely also do the thing of not wanting other people to see me upset. ...i's probably for different reasons than you though, now that I'm thinking about it more.

    I'M SORRY. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO MAKE AN INTERESTING COMMENT. WELCOME BACK???

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      Dokis

      ALSO?

      You were hurting. I think making it through that without hurting people or starting drama is admirable. It's more than a lot of people manage. ;~;

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        BasementBeast

        I think it's more embarrassed. Just me feeling like a whiny buttmunch, so I just swept all the negativity away and am trying to get a new, fresh start where there's considerably less of the badness. Just such a long time was consumed with one bad thing after another, then I was depressed, then I cracked, then I hid.

        And, haha, no. There wasn't any drama that I know of? Not online anyway.

        AND DON'T APOLOGIZE. SERIOUSLY. YOU CAN CALL ME AND TELL ME HOW THINGS ARE AND I CAN JUST BE LIKE, "BRO I BELIEVE IN YOU" AND YOU'LL BE LIKE, "AMBER NO SHUT UP. SHUT. UP."

        But I won't. Because I care.

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    Lloyd

    -wriggles you gently-

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      BasementBeast

      YOU. I KEEP WONDERING ABOUT YOU. :D

      Seriously, even though I suck at talking, I hope you know that both me and Beefy think fondly of you. How have things been?

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        Lloyd

        I'M STILL AROUND JUST POTATOLOAFING
        I've missed you so much. ;; The both of you ahaha.
        Overall been okay. Health's still a bloody joke but I'm hanging in there somehow. How are you though? jhfgdkjh
        It's so wonderful to be able to speak with you again ahaha.

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          BasementBeast

          POTATOLOAFING.

          We've missed you, too! I told Beefy that you said "hi" and he got stupid excited, hahaha.

          Has there been any improvement at all with your health? I've been worried about that. Like, seems kinda dumb, but it crosses my mind a lot 'cause you're awesome and I worry and WORRYING. As for me, I've been... weird? I've been having health issues myself that's caused a lot of scares and one too many CAT scans, haha. Still ain't 100% on where it is, but at least I'm more functional than I was.

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            Lloyd

            It's
            I guess in the sense I'm not dead I really don't have too much to complain about? Right now we're trying to figure out just how much function I have left in my lungs and if the damage the disease caused is the sort that'll heal given time. I'm not a candidate for transplant anyway so that's not an option.
            dkjshggsjghks OH NO I really hope you feel better soon -wriggles you- and yeah I know those feels it's awful. ;;

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              BasementBeast

              Man, I'll be fine. Even finer when they figure out what's up with me, haha.

              Oh god, from scarring? You're in my thoughts, man, not that you ain't been already. Here's hoping the damage isn't irreversible, and Beefy (I guess "Untitled" now) says he misses you. And your face. And he's keeping his fingers crossed that this will work out in the end. ;~;

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                Lloyd

                I'LL STILL WORRY OKAY I'M A POTATO WE WORRY AND ROLL ABOUT BEST
                But yeah it's pretty significant. I hope so as well - would prefer, you know, breathing lmao. I've been on an oxygen machine enough for one lifetime and I'm not even an old man yet.
                BUT GAAAAH I HAVE MISSED YOU BOTH SO MUCH OKAY I hope he's been doing well too! ;;

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    TheDragonRoad

    Hey, happy birthday! It's good to see you back. I've been following your art for a long time now, and seeing new art from you in my inbox certainly brightened my morning. I hope things continue to get better for you, and I'm sorry you had such a rough year.

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      BasementBeast

      Well, things are looking up, so I'm hopeful!

      And, thanks! It makes me giddy to know somebody enjoys what I do. ;u;