About two weeks ago my family had an emergency situation that I wont be elaborating on but this fact is important to what I'm writing. When I find myself in a very stressful situation I become very calm for a very short period of time until the emergency situation is over. While those days were unpleasant I found myself in a comfortable state of mind as I was given purpose and a steady flow of adrenaline, but, within a few days I crashed when things went back to normal stress levels. I slowly recovered and that period of feeling purposeful taught me how to maintain some sense of functionality, possibly even an acceleration in productivity (the fact I got three drawings to draft stage and post them online is an unbelievable feat for my usual level of functioning). The past two days we have had a couple of stressful events and now I'm totally thrown off and not too sure how I'm going to manage the anxiety I'm feeling. I know no one who reads this will understand what the hell I'm saying, I'm sure it makes no sense at all but I have to just write it out or I wont be able to help my family. My reactions to the intensity of emotion around me is exasperating the situation in a huge way and when I become this anxious I just want someone to blame and take these emotions out on (again very counterproductive). Writing all this down is the only way to keep myself in a state where I can help the people that need me. Forgive me for this bizarre rambling but I had to get it out.