I just seen my gender specialist on Wednesday, March 4th.

After taking a blood sample from me which I agreed to do to find out what hormones I have in my blood to determine whenever I need hormones or not, checking my kidneys, liver ect.

You're not gonna believe this.

Turns out I've got plenty of Female estrogen. That's right.. I'm surprised to find out. as we discovered I already have a high levels of estrogen while my testosterone levels are very low.

That also explains why I've got feminine features, body, voice and skin. So I'm pretty much already female.. A woman. All my life.

Looks like I won't need to go on hormones which I already have. I'm just surprised and really emotional by this. After all these years of feeling depressed, suicidal and hating myself, taking pain killers, hoping in my mind it would stop my heart, putting me out my misery. Ending my pain and torment. Which turns out to be. My female hormone's and mind have always been there my whole life. Always been inside of me. All these years.

I've always have the mind, body and soul of a woman all these years. All that seems now is just adding to finishing touches, like laser hair removal to rid my facial hair stubble I hate. And also getting my hair straightened. Hopefully change my legal name soon.

I'm so happy, teary eyed and relieved to have all this burden off my shoulders and now knowing I'm much much closer and pretty much blossomed into a fine woman.

I also wanted to thank you all for sticking with me, showing your love and support all these years. Hugs and mews I love you all.

Looks like things are looking up after all.

And I'm gonna slowly get back to drawing again. As I've been through a lot emotionally. I thank you all for understanding and sticking with me through these difficult times...

It means a real lot to me..

With love from Melissa and my lovely kitty, Jasmine XXX