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TMITUESDAY, ask me all kinds of things! by farorenightclaw

Never done this off of Twitter before - ask me anything, anything at all! If it's too personal or I don't want to answer I'll just say so - so there's no harm in asking! Go for it!

EDIT: sorry for the quintuple posting, the submit button was being an ass.

TMITUESDAY, ask me all kinds of things!

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    Whenever I see these kinds of journals/posts, I can only think of stupid/silly questions :B

    Such as: What is the color of night?
    Can you imagine a color you've never seen before?
    Have you ever wondered what it would be like to see through a mantis shrimp's eyes? :B

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      1. Princess Luna's hair, preferably the way Atryl draws it.
      2. I have attempted to imagine Pratchett's color of magic. I -think- I've got it down.
      3. I have indeed! I want to see EVERY COLOR.
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        May he rest in peace. unu

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    Do you ever feel like there are recurring personality types, here amongst the anthro community, which are consistently (not necessarily always but often) associated with the choice of animal / mythic creature / other representative avatar? By which I mean I feel like this and I wonder if anyone else does.

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      Oh totally! There are negative ones but also positive ones. Dragons, for example, are typically very nice people but on the other hand are often unstable. Birdfolk tend to be mysterious, eccentric sorts. Wolves tend to have very strong personalities that can sometimes lead to them being overbearing or melodramatic. Foxes tend to physically either be very twinky and fit the fox 'stereotype' in terms of looks, or heavy and still having the slim twinky character; both have a foxish personality (bouncy, happy, sometimes a bit oversexualized [though not to the extent that stereotypes would have you believe], sort of twinky and queer-seeming regardless of sexual orientation). Gryphons seem to be all over the place, often straddling between the 'weird and kooky' bird stereotype and the more familiar mammalian one (seeming to tend towards feline or canine personalities there, regardless of what their back half looks like). Hyenas tend to have a gore or vore fetish and are super loyal friends. Of course there are exceptions to all of these - but the species = personality thing is something I've definitely noticed!

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        Okay, so for confirmation purposes, this actually matches my experiences really closely. I'd say close enough that the differences could be chalked up to personal interpretation of the traits.

        If I was less lazy. I'd want to do a study to see if some greater understanding of human behavior based off physiological cues could be derived by evaluating the behavioral tendencies associated with animal affinity.

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          That would be a really neat study! I feel like maybe that's something that should be done, in the fandom. Maybe I'll make a survey XD

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            I could see it working as a big project. I'd start with qualitative work first, to collect a good sample of avatar types and what people think of the people who select them.

            From there I could develop common categories, based on the most reported avatars and the avatars with the greatest reported consistency.

            From there I'd need to split it off, because it requires a survey of the furry community to evaluate the generalizability of the survey results; an evaluation of the physiological traits of the avatars vs societal value of physiological traits; and lastly an evaluation of the symbolic value of the animals in a social context.

            It could be a huge study.

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              Yeah, wow, that could be really big @_@ I was just thinking a survey where like, I list 10 common furry types and have people say what they think of each one. And then analyze and categorize the data.

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                That would tell us if there really is something to it. :) I'd suggest making it anonymous if you do, coz otherwise I imagine folks could get a bit unkind.

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                  Anonymous for the people taking the survey, or anonymous on my side?

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                    For the takers, although if you could also be anonymous that would help support the generalizability of the results. Theoretically knowing who authored the survey can create bias, if you're super paranoid about bias.

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                      I am not sure how I'd create it anonymously and still promote it, but yeah, anonymity (or at least a choice of anonymity) for takers would be good.

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                        If you have them send replies via private message, that should do it.

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                          I was thinking of a Google Docs form, actually.

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                            Oooh that could work rather well.

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                        Talk to makyo about this, they'd be really into it.

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        I wonder then what you think about characters with domesticated animals as their avatars. People like cats or dogs.

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          Housecats I haven't met enough of to make much of a statement on, other than that most felines seem to be inclined to that 'pay attention to me when i want, and don't when i don't' cat thing.

          Dogs tend to be a lot like actual dog personalities - bouncy, happy-go-lucky, super friendly, loyal... sometimes inclined to social issues (being a bit socially inept or making faux pas or just not understanding when more complex things happen), crankiness/biteyfacedness, being judgmental, and like wolves can sometimes be a bit melodramatic.

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    If you could only have one dish for any and every meals for the rest of your life, what would it be?

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      Dish/food*

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      Sushi! Or cake. SO HARD TO CHOOSE

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        Or cake that looks like sushi? :D
        Ive only recently started trying out different types of rolls, and gotta say I really enjoy...I think theyre called rainbow rolls? Its got eel, salmon, tuna, avocado, and maybe shrimp?

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    You draw a lot of different fetishy type things for money. Is there anything you wish you would be asked to draw less? How about stuff you wish you'd be asked to draw more of? (Not necessarily fetishy in nature either, that was just my first thought haha)

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      I'd prefer to draw more illustrated scenes beyond just pinups. I'd prefer to draw more kinky stuff and weird fetishes. I'd prefer to draw LESS pinups (though I know they are really good for establishing how a character looks, and I do enjoy them, they're just..not the most interesting thing ever). Vanilla porn is always kinda handwiggle eehhh to me? It's not my thing but I will draw it just fine. I don't get commissioned for that often though.

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        I remember now that you said you really liked the one you made for me?

        I have been meaning to get another such one from you!

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          Yeah! That's one I still really like.

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            I got an idea for one more intense than that. Maybe a sequence. Based on a now-ancient bit of RP. Haha.

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    I'm not sure how to ask this without being rude. I am curious about your mental health as you perceive it. I seem to remember you talking in the past about it being hard to go out and socialize and how hard it is to go to cons but you're so strong and get out there and do it anyway. How did you get so strong? I ask because I am currently going through a total reeducation on how to handle my feelings, I have some various mental health issues, and I spend 5 days a week, almost all week, at a partial mental hospital program. I look to people like you who have fostered such wonderful relationships and have functioning lives and I wonder if you can offer any advice to someone who is learning, at the age pf nearly 24, what their feelings are and how to deal with them? Do you have any other general mental health tips you think would be helpful that one wouldn't normally find just floating around on the internet?

    If this is too personal or rude, please excuse me. I have looked up to you for a long time and I would like to get to know you better, but you seem to play some of your cards pretty close to the chest, so it's left me wondering about some things. If these are too personal or rude just tell me so, I won't take offense. :)

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      Oh gosh. Well, in the past I was in pretty bad situations, and that exacerbated my anxiety and mood swings by like a BAJILLION. Now that I'm living somewhere happy, healthy and supportive it's so much easier to 'be strong'. I've also got a lovely therapist and an awesome psychiatrist, and have finally found the balance of medication that works for me (though we're still tweaking it a bit).

      A lot of it was forcibly unlearning old habits - dysfunctional coping mechanisms, they're sometimes called - things that helped you in a bad situation to survive, but that aren't adaptive to a healthy situation and can actively harm your ability to function.

      For a mild example, I used to sleep to avoid situations that made me anxious (and rightly so, they were bad situations that would bother anyone). Fast forward through a few years of doing that, now I have a Pavlovian-esque response where I get sleepy as soon as I get the tiniest bit anxious. The worse the anxiety, the sleepier I get, to the point of being totally useless or even bordering on narcolepsy. So I've had to try really hard to avoid napping when anxious and to tone down how much I sleep in general (I was up to like 12 hours a day on the regular). It's working, and I can now go multiple days a week without any naps (used to nap multiple times every day).

      A HUGE part of recovery is having a good support network, too - and that includes cutting out people who AREN'T supportive. People who drag you down, who don't support your recovery, or who actively damage you should be cut from your life. You gain nothing by having them there. Cultivate the friendships you do have that are good, let people know what kind of help you need if they're willing to give it or capable of giving it, lean on people when you need to, don't be afraid to ask for help. Support network can be birth family, close friends, chosen family... anybody who helps you on your path or will at least walk beside you. Getting feedback on how you're doing is immensely helpful - it can be really hard to see your own improvements. Fish don't see water, yadda yadda.

      Willpower is also important, but it sounds like you've already got that down :)

      As for dealing with feelings, it's important to make a distinction between emotions, thoughts, and behavior. Let's take a case of arachnophobia. An emotion would be 'fear'. A thought would be 'spiders will hurt me'. A behavior would be 'jumping on the bed and screaming, crying, and throwing things when there's a spider on the floor'. The emotion of fear is completely reasonable, understandable, and valid. It isn't bad or good, it just exists. Fear is fear. There's no point in judging it or trying to suppress it. If you're scared, you're scared. The thought of 'spiders will hurt me' is irrational, though understandable given that you're afraid - and it's something you might like to change. Perhaps you'd like to change it to 'spiders are scary, but I can deal with them', or 'I am afraid of spiders, but I know they can't hurt me'. The thought is less painful to bear if you can change it to something more positive, proactive or productive. And the way you change that thought, most often, is through cognitive work, and even more so (in my experience) by changing your behaviors. The behavior or action of jumping on the bed, screaming, crying and throwing things is probably dysfunctional. It could result in breaking your mattress, hitting someone in the face with a pillow, blowing your voice out from screaming, or giving yourself a headache from crying. It definitely doesn't do anything productive - but it does get you away from the spider, so it's an understandable coping mechanism in response to fear or the thought of being hurt. Ideally, you could perhaps graduate it down from 'jumping on the bed, screaming, crying and throwing things' to 'climbing onto the bed and crying' and from there to 'climbing onto the bed' and from there to 'going quietly into another room', or even 'picking up the spider in a glass and taking it outside', 'calling someone else to take away the spider', or things like that. So you'd make efforts using willpower, support of friends, feedback, and therapy to slowly dial back the extremity of your behavior until it was more productive, less harmful, and more reasonable. So it's not really the feelings you have to address so much as irrational thoughts and dysfunctional or harmful behaviors. You can't choose what you feel, but you CAN choose what you do about it, even if making the choice is difficult. If you're having trouble IDENTIFYING the feelings, I highly recommend looking into Dialectical Behavior Therapy information to see about the theories of what categories different emotions fall into, what the physical symptoms of emotions are, and so on.

      Where age is concerned, 24 is pretty young. There's nothing wrong with getting a teensy bit of a late start, either. You'll get there.

      I gotta run to therapy, actually, but I can answer any other questions you have when I get back! Please don't be afraid to ask :3

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    If, in the future, you could replace any part of your body with something that was cybernetic and at least equally functional, what would it be?

    Then what would the first thing you'd do after that?

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      Equally functional or better? Hm, the artist side of me says hands, because then they wouldn't shake and I could do much more precise detail work. But the practical side of me says joints, because mine are going to shit and rapidly becoming nonfunctional as they are.

      If it were hands, I'd go do a bunch of really detailed realistic paintings.

      If it were joints, I'd go for a run.