Not at all new to the fandom. I decided to Branch out recently. My best friend suggested I open up recently. And so why not.

I am unable to work in real life. I was born in a very sheltered atmosphere out in the middle of forest and later also fields. Entering public school (Kindergarten) I was a bit of a slow learner, but great with art. I was heavily bullied from first onward. My art was torn up, pictures of me were punched, ripped up, spit on, and even mentally abused by one or two, later four people. The other kids never quite understood why I was so strange and so sensitive all the time. Still today people from then think I am strange and dislike my presence. For all they saw was an Auburn redhead fighting back trying to get justice and respect from people. My eldest brother dislikes me and won't even try and get to know me because I am my fathers. I am the bastard, but by father. He constantly has put me down since day one for things he faintly cared about. So were the kids at school. I had zero friends.

I was feral. I grew up in nature, 7 ft corn, a forest with a creek and meadow as well as foxes and many other creatures. I rarely visited Mackinaw where my life started, 15 achres of birch, oak, pine, bushes, porcupines, bears, bobcats and even horses were in my newly awakened eyes. I created anything I felt, by my hands. Being in a small town Colon, I didn't have afterschool activities. I had to create myself. I had a real life high. Around people, I lost it, I have had traumatizing events which lead to me destroying my body by picking and clawing at my body as a coping method. I was homeschooled right before my social years, so I was ******... I have been. I was diagnosed 3 years ago with Clinical depression and high anxiety. 2 years diagnosed with Ptsd and Panic attacks. I was not allowed to work before 17. My mom wanted me to stay free spirited as a child longer. Here is a bit about me.

Around 3 years ago on Christmas my step-father, Terry, was diagnosed with 4th stage liver cancer, and it was spreading. I also had everything I owned and car by my ex fiance and very very vocal abusive roommates, female mostly and her clique.. I had to leave everything fast and put myself on a grayhound and go back home to michigan from Virginia Beach, to bid my step-father farewell in July. He passed a month later. My ex fiance turned out to only want me for his own use and not real love. I ended it, I lost everything I owned, magic cards, jewelry, clothes, crystal collections, cherished items, all gone, my car too. And on top of that, a month after Terry passed, my mother went crazy and tried to kill me out of so much stress, both of us had stress. I ended up in another not safe situations that really crushed and scarred me more. I am finally back home in Michigan with a new chapter on my 22nd Birthday. I have a wonderful intelligent, wise, beautiful eyed, strong and hardworking mate whom has the same troubles I do, but of his own, and his dog. I have been told I am disabled by phsycologist due to not being abled to handle stressful situations that easily overwhelm me to levels unable for me to handle. I am on a good diet, Vitamins (Alive! Women's Energy multi vitamin, Vitamin D, Cranberry gel pill), Pills (Citalopram, Lamictal), and a positive lifestyle with therapy and meditation.

So, in the long run all I ask is to please leave me out of personal affairs as well as anything blaintly negitive. I will block without hesitation. My art career is all that supports me, same for Gere's leather crafts. We do not take social security, we still have our ability to create from pure art inspiration and have the drive to make all traditionally by hands and tools to bring you our offers in means of rent, dog food and Large Milkbone's, fixing our rotting trailor floors (what we spend on fixing is cut from rent) and as well as supplies for what we ate passionate about. Also other needed living essentuals. I also do not have spell check on my phone.

So thank you for taking the time to read and I hope I produce art that captures your minds favorite flavors. May your day be a great one :)

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