So as a lot of you have noticed, I have been inactive as fuck and I guess I should explain my reasons as to why I have been so inactive. The main reason is my health.

When I was in the military, my body took a massive beating both mentally and physically from bootcamp til the end of my military career. I suffer from constant pains in both my legs to involuntary body jerks that I just have no control over, causing accidents to happen that include falling down the stairs in my own townhouse. I also suffer from high degrees of Depression and PTSD, making my mental status less than alright in dealing with stress and such, also killing my drive. These are severe enough to warrant me 50% disability right off the bat. This is also compounded with the fact that my spine is degenerating, reducing my life expectancy til I am about 40 or so. I am currently 25. And back to my legs, I have 4 diseases in total in my legs which will render them useless in about 5 years or so, making me wheelchair bound. I think, in total, I suffer from 10 or so diseases, but I really don't want to look at my papers at the moment that hold all my info. Some days I just come home and go to my room to just cry for a bit, both due to the pain and what I know about myself.

I am not making this as like a pity journal or anything, I am not making this to garner a bunch of attention or sympathy. I made this as informative and I was originally just never going to speak about it ever, but I guess I just wanted it off my chest as well. I will try and post more in the future though, I just need to get my mind collected again, my apologies.