So I just made an apple crumble (well, it's mostly crumble, but there's a little bit of apple at the bottom...) and it's half 10 at night and I have thoughts.

My life's got kind of complicated lately and a lot of things have flipped upside-down. But out of this, I've realised I have some of the most incredible friends I could've ever asked for. Seriously. I could cry for how grateful I am for them. Just... Wow.

I'm trying to work out where my life is headed now. I think, academically, I'm doing a-ok for the meantime. I've got a year and a half (-ish) left of my degree now, and I'm doing pretty well with it. I've been learning to program for my project, which has been great fun, and hopefully the final piece will be employed in srs bsns chemistry. Through my project, I've found that I quite like programming quantum stuff, so I might be enquiring about postgrad opportunities in the same field. I'm going to speak to my tutor about it before term ends, anyway.

I'd like to do more art. I know, I probably say this every time I journal, but it's true but I don't know where to begin. There's only so many times I can draw myself, but I don't know how to push commissions, and openly offering requests has in the past got me some... odd... requests. Heh.

I adore watercolour at the moment, I did my sibling a watercolour of Finn (from Adventure Time) for their birthday, but I haven't had many ideas since then. I've done a couple of digital pieces, but I don't feel they were anything more than art for the sake of art.

If anyone'd like to be a test subject for a watercolour badge, let me know, and I'll maybe do a couple for materials and postage. I just. I want to do more art but I don't have any ideas left. And I like making other people happy with art. I just don't know how to get people to want /my/ art.

I've eaten far more of this crumble than is healthy. Oh well. There's always tomorrow.