This is my true self... i really cant say this aloud and i'm in denial with most of it but its easier just to adapt somthing already written then writing it myself. this is made from the viewpoin from me and the "you" is my friends

(adapted lyrics from "letter 2 myself" by eminem)

you wanna write me, yeah me
The guy behind the pen, writin' this song, reciting it again
you never liked me, cause I was never like you
I was always trying to impress others like fuck it, just bite you
But deep down my soul is crushing inside you
And all you can think of is what really really defines me
My true self is something I can't deal with
So I put up a front, walk around like I don't feel shit
And that's fake and you don't like it, you despise it
So be real with myself as you write this
And then it might just sink right into my mind, sense
I'm losing people around me, can't find friends?
Of course I can't, I'm hard headed
Too smart for my own good, a sharp headache
Most people hate me, I'm like five Simons in one Dennis
Do I hear you? Uh, Dennis?

you don't like the fact that I keep myself hidden
On top of that, I an act just to fit in
This ain't really what you wanted for me, not your vision
my friends made me what I am, really think I'm kiddin'?
Listen D, I'm drowning you inside this misery
Maybe if I didn't lick you inside like I did to you
You wouldn't hurt me if I didn't keep on hitting you
By bottling everything inside, am sick of you?
Well you are sick of me, this is why you pick at me
Look at me, look inside this fuckin' mirror and tell you
That it ain't clear that I'm alone and I can't bare
The fact that everyone around me is going somewhere
And I'm stuck here dazed with a blank stare
My stress is killing you, is that a grey strand of hair?
Watch as life passes by as I'm standin' there
In line at the hospital waitin' for medicare