Quinn keeps saying he is god. While X is the real god. But neither is the true god.

Quinn is a golden jackal, who are extremely closely related to coyotes.
X is a phoenix... or rather.. an ethereal being of energy. essence of light.

Quinn is a golden jackal because... big hipster faggoty reasons. ... trickster god.
X is a phoenix because he has the ability to 'fly' and can turn into pure energy, ie; fire. .. light/sun god.

They are the leaders and creators of the fictional universe inside my head. But neither of them control the outside world except through modes of ideas.

I have found two hand carved depictions of them. With striking resemblances.
http://zrcalos.tumblr.com/post/102075464387/quinn-and-x
The owner of the gallery I partake in went to a temple in bolivia.. Tiahuanaco. He brought back amulets and trinkets from there.
For the longest time, they were there for sale... but only recently he brought out some I had never seen before.
I saw one of a strange bird man wielding a staff. From my google-fu, I have gathered that he was an unfinished hieroglyph on the inca temple, pre-columbian times. His meaning is lost to google, but the owner of the gallery said that the natives there told him the amulet meant "good travel".

The other amulet portrayed a coyote playing a drum. The gallery owner saw a man carve it himself. So he paid for it. This one will cost me $23 to buy, as I have not bought it yet. I had been eyeing it in the gallery for the past three years it was there. It's only now that I definitely want it and can use the money on it.

As I looked at both the amulets, I saw how much of a disappointment I was to them. The sun god, and the trickster god. They brought me here. I was homeless and starving on the street, and they brought me to my community and entered me into my tribe. But I hid back. I was so happy to move there, so I could participate in the community and hang around the people I cared about. But I hung back. I was given everything I ever needed to be there, to partake, to participate. Yet I did nothing. I am a failure to both of them. It is a punishment to move back to where I originated. For my betrayal.

I am being removed from being close to what I wanted, and instead being knocked back a few steps. Knocked back enough to get me to fight. I want to fight. But I dont know if I will. I want to strive like I used to. It was too easy being in phoenix. But too hard as well. To have been successful there I would have had to be put right in the middle of things. That would have been much healthier for me as well. But I was too removed, and too gullible, and too afraid to participate. I hung back. I am a disappointment to my gods. I failed so very bad. I failed my tribe. I failed my people. Now I will be removed and put back to a place I dont want to be. Being put closer to a system that can ensnare me. Being slowly coerced by society to participate in THEIR game. I dont want that. I dont want to be tempted with that.

I want my things to come from the earth. I want my things to be made by people. I want my life to be filled with dirt, blood, and sweat. I want to feel the earth between my feet. I cant live in this concrete oven. But I'm trapped here. My people are trapped here. Its the only way we can survive. Survival is hard.

I am a fucking piece of shit. I am a fucking pile of shit. My gods are kind, and they will continue being kind, and I am an ungrateful bastard not worth investment. I am a stupid fucking piece of shit. I keep wasting time. I keep chasing my own tail. I keep having to fill out paperwork after paperwork after paperwork. Going to the doctor visits after doctor visits.. wash. rinse. repeat. I want to just be my own person. I am so fucking tired of this shit. Everything is just made out of trash. Nothing means anything anymore. Humans are mass produced on conveyor belts and fed off them.

and what am I? stupid fucking piece of shit that fell off the conveyor belt.

Donovan wont move from weasyl. He's a creature of darkness. He'll hang back there for god knows what reason or why. Stupid piece of shit who lives in fucking trash. I will rebuild. I was shoved back. I will rebuild. If I cant get that amulet, i know I will have been abandoned, then I will have to fight so hard for that god's approval again.