First off I want to mention that I deleted 90% of what I had on here. Basically starting anew. removed drawing, characters and journals. I would also like to apologize for my inactivity. There has been a lot going on in my life lately (Ill explain shortly) and I just really had the motivation to draw or do much else besides sleep.

[Venting beyond this point. continue with warning. TW: Self harm, death]

For starters. My grandmother died about 2 weeks ago. It was a very hard time for my whole family and that took up a lot of time since I was also sick at the time so I had those two things pounding down on me for 2 weeks. Shortly after that I ran out of medication which I rely on to 'normalize' my mental state, and because i'm out of work, I can't afford to get anymore. Although the withdrawal is over. I'm not really doing so well.

To better explain what I mean I'll just say this: I suffer from severe depression along with self destructive tendencies. I cut nearly everyday and the only reason i'm not going to therapy is simply because I can no longer afford it. My anxiety has been through the roof the past 2 weeks and my sleep schedule is so fucked up i cant sleep more than about 4 hours at a time and im so tired all day. I'm constantly aching. I hardly eat or drink much and i'm just overall in a bad state. It's no fun and im honestly lost with what to do. especially since i have no desire to get help. I just want to feel better but I havent felt better in, Well I never was a happy kid but at least in elementary I wasn't this bad. that was like... 7+ years ago.

I dunno. sorry for sitting here venting. Theres just a lot on my mind. On a lighter note, I've been playing pokemon Y again. finally got a mega bannette which made me happy.

I'm going to try and draw more. I have a file listing drawing ideas so maybe ill get around to it.

Oh, I almost forgot. I finally started story boarding my comic. Im thinking of creating a few journals in the future of little drabbles about the world and story to get some peoples opinions. I don't want to spill too much about it but a little help may do some good.