Short journal today. I have received earth-shattering news, and I don't know how to react to it. I guess I'm in shock; that may be a good way to describe it.

My grandfather has always been a large part of my life. He was never one of those grandparents who lives down in Florida and whom you never see because they're so far away; he was always close-by and would pop in to visit with little warning. He's always been a kind, wonderful man.

He's been diagnosed with lung cancer. The prognosis is not good. He may have six months, or he may have three years; we have no way of knowing. I have no words to deal with this. I just want to curl up and cry.