It’s time for me to talk about something personal that I’ve been dealing with for a long time. Most of my closer friends know now but for those who don’t, I’m transgender/FTM. I’m about to get my approval letter for hormones from my therapist probably in this next session (should be in the next week or so) and I’ll start those early this next year. I have to wait a little longer because I have to wait until I’m on insurance first and I have to do the open enrollment in November.

I’ve always been more guyish, all my friends that know me well would agree. Some people would just say tomboyish but I always knew that there was something more to it. Girls I knew in high school grew out of their tomboyish ways and started wearing makeup/dresses and giving each other makeovers and I was NEVER interested in that or other stereotypical female activities. In fact I almost had a panic attack in middle school when a group of friends tried to give me a makeover in between classes for my birthday.

When I was little I played with nothing but TMNT action figures and other stuff like that and enjoyed other things like running around outside in the mud. Even so I put it out of my mind and just figured, It’s just that: I’m a tomboy, nothing else.

greypaws, my loving mate, came to me 5 years ago and told me that they were transgender/MTF and going through that I started to realize just how unhappy I was with my own gender. Grey started therapy a little while after that and we would discuss things they had talked about in sessions and I found myself agreeing with everything. “Yes that’s so true!” I’d think and I began to realize yes I’m transgender… Grey has been on hormones for almost two years and I can’t wait to start mine.

I started doing things to experiment more, even though I was already wearing nothing by guys clothes before this, by cutting my hair short and binding my chest. Everything I tried, the more and more I craved.

I’ve already told my family with the exception of my grandparents and no one was surprised at all. They all said they support me, including my mom who I thought for sure would lose her mind over it but instead it’s gone really well.

So in summary, I’m transgender/FTM. Please refer to me with male pronouns from now on (he, him, his) and my character Lenny is now also male so please do the same with him. You can still call me Lenny, I'm not changing the character other than the gender.

Greypaws and I are fine, we are NOT splitting up, we care about each other just as much as we ever have. We're still going strong and at cons if you see one of us, you see the other just like always ;)

And thank you for listening/understanding! And if you’d like to share experiences if you are transgender, please feel free!