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Exhausted... by Swanda
So our place was kinda invaded by a bunch of people and a Lan party happened.
I was not prepared for that -at all- Don't get me wrong, it was fun and all, but also extremely tiring.
They left Sunday, and I'm l pretty much still trying to recover. I doesn't help that I've got this really weird mood going on. It's like my mind is pretending to be depressed, while I am in fact in a very happy state.
So I got all the energy and happy in the world, but I can't actually channel it into actions.. You know actually do stuff. So I end up with all this pent up energy I can't get rid of, and well.. It's starting to annoy me D: Walking back and forth in the livingroom was only fun for so long.. I need to do constructive stuff. Dammit.
Why must I always be so broken?! Urhg.
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Okay, I’ve calmed down. Now rinse and repeat.
Maybe I should try and revive my Twitter.. I appears to be the place for screaming out pointless rants, into a sea of no-one cares.-
How in the nine hells do hands even work? Like HOW?
No, no I'm pretty sure that's supposed to be a hand and not a disfigured branch with carrots attached! -
.......Why is the thumb on the wrong side of the hand... why, just Why.
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Oh yess... The legs are not the same... or well the feet. One looks like a deer, the other more like a mutant horse... Welp, gotta remake that shit.
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I channeled that excess energy into a new piece of music that I hope to finish in nearer future. The hard part was starting it, but once you do the first step rest start happening on their own. So, make the step towards actually doing something.
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Problem isn't as much starting something, as it is to keep at it.
My brain goes "Oooh, I have no energy" at the first sign of effort, haha, which leaves me and all the excess energy a bit agitated..
The end result is a lot of frustration and long moments of silent anger.. or maybe not so silent ones.-
Draw that fuzzy brain :P
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When I feel like this I either go to sleep or walk very far away, because fuck that shit. Sleeping is like my coping mechanism for Everything. But you don't get a whole lot done when you sleep, and then you can be angry about that later *throws hands in the air*
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I can't sleep, or well I CAN, but I'll just feel guilty for. Like a giant wave of guilt will wash over me the second I lay down. I'm happy and full of energy after all, no good to be all lazy now!?!
Right now I'm kinda marathoning Buffy the Vampire Slayer and screaming in anger over that stupid ass tiny tablet, that I'm very grateful to be lent... because after all, it's still better than paper. Urhg, I've been doing paper doodling.. It's like an unholy nightmare.
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Work on some of our stuff, then you have a purpose battling the tiny ass tablet :V That said I would probably opt for the paper.
Can't you hand me some of that energy? I'm so tired I'm forcing myself to drink coffee hoping it will help a little bit ;__; It's gross, Maia, send help.
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I think maybe it's they hypomania thingy kicking in? I guess I'll know when I get tired, or well.. when I don't. Either way you can have pretty much all of it. I wouldn't mind actually going into hibernation for a month or two. So many people around the house for days and days... Urhg. At least I got som dog time :3
Charles had the Mimsen with him again, and hey Bamse didn't even freak out.
Hehe, yes I'm apparently that person who gets more excited about the pets than the people : PI'm trying to finish a request I started in the hope I could learn to accept the small tablet.. but yeah.. eh.. Long way to go. I've found that the biggest problem right now is my tendency to turn the tablet rather than the canvas, and I just can't do that with a tablet I'm not used to it would seem. My lines are all over the freaking place and it's highly aggravating. Hnnnnnghhhh
I don't know what's wrong with paper, but I just cannot agree with it. It's not even the lack of Ctrl+z or transform.. It just doesn't sit well with me.. I can't D:
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Sounds more like a mixed state to me, if you wanna put a term on it. Which is... so much worse anyway. But people do that to you I guess D:
Paper, it's all textured, ew! I suppose it's something like that XD I hope you figure out that tablet, though. Any idea when you'll get the more Maia friendly version?
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Ooh yep, I definitely got the hypomania. Yush. Been running around the past hour like a 5 year old at a birthday party after the third bag of candy, four cups of soda and some cake. Hnnnngghghghg... Took Bamse outside for a walk, that helped a little, not nearly as hyperactive anymore. Nice cool air outside, and slightly wetness... It's nice. It really is. Even smells nice! Was amazing was it.
We met the guy who moved in next door as he went for an evening walk with their dog. And Bamse didn't even freak out. Nada. He just sat there and keep a relaxed eye on the dog. Even let the neighbor pet him.Awesomee. THat kinda got me all excited again for some reason, but oh well. Also the excessive talking and writing should be a clue to my mental state X) Talking too quickly for my own brain to keep up.Asked Peter if he'd help me write Wacom for support on my tablet, I think he've sent the mail already. Guess we're just waiting for reply on the cost. Hnnngh. He also ordered a new large on for himself. So now, no matter what there should be a Maia friendly tablet in the house soon enough.
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Well, with all the exposure he's had to dogs lately, he gotta get used to it eventually :P It's nice to have a cat that isn't all jumpy.
Haha, maybe cut down on the sugar a bit? I don't think that helps.Also, that great! Lots of fancy tablets~
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was about to say I haven't had any sugar today, but that isn't entirely true. I accedently took a glass from one of Nikolajs sodas, uuurhg, so weirdly sweet.
It was merely a description X) I really don't do much in sugar these days. It's mostly something that happens when we have guests, and occasionally on Fridays X)And yeah it is nice. I mean, he's still a freaking coward, but he's gotten really confident when wearing the leash. Kinda like "I ain't scared of nothing, Momma got me back!" Had him out in the garden when Mimsen was here too, and when we got back inside he walked right up in her face like he's da boss.
Once the harness came off he was back to laying on the table glaring at her, if she came too close.
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i think... i have the opposite problem. :c send some of your energy this way!
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Energy is all depleted by now. I caught the sicks the day after writing this. I've Pretty much just been a sorry mess of pain and tired as a result.
Getting better now though! So wooh!.
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Tried to draw... Went kinda well for about two minutes... Then I had to take a ten minutes screaming and yelling break.
How the fuck do people work with these small ass tablets? Feel like throwing stuff across the room. And by stuff I mean the tablet.
BUt its not mine.. huff