Recently, I've been having bouts of anger and depression, namely ones that end up following me to work and back. Some might know of this if you have me on skype and such. Things seem to have become.. almost chore-like in nature. I mean I enjoy being here and all, but.. to what purpose in all honesty? There's tons of others doing the exact same things I've been doing and with more success. I know everything doesn't fall into place as we all dream, no one is given the skills they have overnight. They gain them through years and years of practice, I know that. I'm at a crossroads mostly. I don't really know where to go. I mean.. hell, in all brutal honesty I'm extremely jealous of a lot of people I've met both in reality and over the fandoms, and I've built up the mentality that I'll never be able to stand alongside them as an equal, not matter how hard I try. People have told me not to beat myself down, but it's really the only thing I can do properly than yields a result, even if it is me just digging a deeper hole.
I ask all of you, what do you think of me? What do you want from me?
Thank you for your time.