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If I am not around.... by TwelveWounds
... I am trying to take a mop and bucket to my life to get things in order.
Life has stressed me out to the point where I want to pull out my own hair and get down with male pattern baldness. It is possible. Both sides of my family have it with both genders. On the plus side I can be a 32 year old cosplayer forever. On the minus side, it's gonna be hard to do interviews for work in a long blue wig. :/
So there ya have it. Crappy verbally abusive roommate is gone leaving me with a 1 bedroom apartment that costs $900/month, only utilities included is hydro/heat/water and cable tv (all of which a nerdy gamer and otaku like myself do not really use, well, aside from hydro/heat and water... as I do shower daily but no internet is shitty)
I can't seem to make any deals regarding it since the previous roommate major skathead skipped out on paying for it for 3 months without telling anyone. He's also skipped out on paying rent for the past 2 months so I don't know what to do about that since I had borrowed money to pay for both portions and am now in major debt. YAY! Debt is so awesome. I love owing loan sharks hundreds of dollars. Makes life more fun, doesn't it?
Well... the commission thing didn't work... at all... and I tried to sell some of my otaku goods but no one's a fan of the crazy shit I buy cuz I'm such a goddamn otaku. Maybe if I put up a kickstarter on making a meat soup I could get enough to pay everything off instead of offering legit commissions. Offer up some kind of meat certificate for pledges or something. All meat related prizes. I bet I could make more money off of some meat-ageddon than on my own artwork HAHAHAHAHAHAAAAA
Ok, time to get back on track here. I've been looking for roommates all day with nothing but "I want my privacy" replies. It's insane XD I can't win and I feel defeated. Maybe I should try sending out more resumes and just fork over $900/month for myself and my stinky old cat but the place is so big without someone to share it with. There's seriously so much room in this place it's big enough for other people.
Do I want to be stuck looking for a place again? No. Not again. That's how I got stuck in the hospital the first time around. Was me worrying about being homeless again because I had no job and a 17 year old cat. (though in all honesty, it wasn't the cat that people were nitpicky about, it was the joblessness. I had just lost my job a month prior to losing my place because of a back problem they didn't care about and then clotting they didn't want to pay for)
Life sucks sometimes but I'm hoping things get better.
I'm looking forward to seeing those sexy Free guys on my table with my other figurines in a month so I better get on the ball and start looking.
I'm going to hand out resumes to the shitty fast food places as well. I can't afford $900/month on minimum wage but dammit... if I'm looking for a place to live, I gotta start workin somewhere.
I only wish that I had the same luck my best friend had. Living with the same nerds for 4 years. I haven't found a single nerd to live with since I moved out of my parents house at 18. I'm kinda jealous. I'd love to be able to live in the same place for a year. Hell if I could stay in the same place for a few years in Toronto, I would be ecstatic. I'm just hoping I won't have to move back to Winnipeg because rent is cheaper. The jobs suck out there.
I've lived alone before and I'm not sure if I like the loneliness or if I prefer to have someone to talk to when I go home even if they're against everything I love. I do talk to my cat but I don't understand cat talk. I wish I did. I might have a more enjoyable experience when we converse.
It's a complicated world we live in.
---ahem when irishman swear it's more like a greeting--
If anyone is interested in helping me out and you're broke like me and can't help a bugger and you don't mind casually flipping and not actually reading shit cuz it's a poor piece of shit comic, I get paid per view when people read my comic things so even if you don't care to read the fucker, just click on it and click through the pages, get others to click through the shitty thing. It'll help me loads, trust me. $5 is better than nothing.
And I have three comics because I'm a crazy motherfucker and I want to make money and when you're not workin full time and you're an artist like me trying to pay yourself out of a giant hole of debt, you do comics. Even if you're piss poor at it.
Lessaris some explanation pages with some interesting space shit
Gaerbac Academy nothing here yet as it's a WIP
Vampire's Kiss this has the gay in it
Or heck spread awareness of my Patreon and signal boost the hell out of it. I'll add more stuff there as I go so it'll be more worth it for others.
If you want to know more and you're cool with reading a lot of text, I posted up what's going on in detail for those who want to know more -- My Livejournal
If I am not around....
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It's alright. I'm more upset at myself than anything else. When I am working I keep saying to myself "save the money! Save all the money!" And I never do and it gets this bad and there's really nothing I can do to pull myself out of the holes I fall into. (at this age your parents are usually going through medical problems and such so they are always unable to help)
I haven't heard of this Patreon but it's worth a look at. Heck I'll take any ideas right now. I'll check them out and hopefully join. I've got a ton of fanart I started coloring on the computer now since my table partner refuses to draw the girlie crap I wanna do cuz heck, Free is popular, ladies love Free. I'll make us some nice cash but she won't color it LOL I'm not mad at her at all though it's just not something she's into haha and I feel ashamed that I am (I do a lot of fanart though. most of which I don't share here because it goes into my business merchandise we sell at conventions, my partner colors the lineart I do... though we don't make a lot of money off of our table... if anything we lose money, everytime.)
I will definitely give that a try. Hopefully that'll help and I'll link it with my facebook since I post a lot of twitter to facebook art stuff. So I went ahead and created a Patreon. I'm gonna add more stuff there since this looks somewhat promising.
I definitely appreciate the love. I do. Even if I can't escape past the border for more than 2 weeks (stupid Canada-US border protection laws we wouldn't have this issue if this was Europe). My mom lives in Kentucky. If I could, I'd go live down there. At least I'd know I have a place to live tomorrow.Ahhh don't I agree. If anything I'd love for a temp job right now. At least then I know it's temp and not just some company looking to get rich by hiring a bunch of workers they never intend to keep. Stupid work practices.
Good vibes and cheering is a good thing! If I have one person cheering and sending good vibes it'll be like beating the last bad guy in a video game. I'm pretty sure I have negative charisma. My mom and I would joke about it while we were playing D&D. That we were sure it was bellow -10 LOL Cuz I've been through a lot. How I am still alive is probably because I'm hard headed and too stubborn to quit.Thank you Crow! I'm hoping things get better soon. It's been a mess so far.
I think this is the link for Patreon? http://www.patreon.com/GrimsonLime?ty=a
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:( That really sucks. That's also expensive - 900 a month >< At least I think so. I hope you find a good roommate soon. Sometimes it takes awhile or to go through a dozen people to find "the one". Also clicked through your comics - I will have to make an account to read the rest though. I stupidly clicked the one that wasn't up yet and I was like OMG WHY ISN'T THIS LOADING. Then I was like lolz I should read before reading other things.
I hope you can make it through and find a job to help make up for the expenses, even if it's just temporary. With the back to school season coming up I'd think retail places would be dying for extra help, too. D:
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Yeah it's hella expensive. Rent here is abismal. Renters have the rights to raise your rent as much as they want to all while your pay isn't any higher than it was the year before. Calculating minimum wage versus rent costs just doesn't compute. It's like rent is stupid high no matter what you do. So you're always sharing portions of your house and who the hell wants to live in a living room? My best friend does but she's got a friggen awesome set up going on there. Nerds live in that house and everyone is nerdy with each other. It's a paradise, somewhat.
I hope I find a roommate real soon and not some dumb abusive ass like the last one was. Holy crap what a firecracker that one was. I cannot live with closed minded, racist, homophobic, misogynist pricks man. I just can't do it. Well... I've been living on my own since I was 18 and cycled through a lot of really bad seeds. I'm 32 now and have yet to find a good one where I can sit down and talk to about things without getting horribly offended (the last one would talk about gay people deserving to get stabbed and I'm sitting there with a horrified expression on my face like he's wishing for the apocalypse to happen, jokes are fun and all but I just don't find that funny...)
Ahhh it's ok! At least you clicked! That helps either way LOL. Soon there will be pages. Soon. I just have to finish the 50 pages first in Manga Studio.
Oh you figure but sometimes that's not the case. I will keep applying though. I've got to print out a revised version of my resume and start handing them out. There's a dozen donut shops in my area. My qualifications for those jobs are too high but nothing beats trying. Anything will do at this point. Though unfortunately due to the hospital incident I can no longer lift as much as I used to. :| But that doesn't mean I can't take orders! Someone's gotta do that job!
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aww :( Maybe you have to be super picky yourself in who you room with. As risky as it might sound a college student might fare better, just imply rules that there will be no parties and whatnot. Or find an art student XD
That person sounds fucking horrifying. I'd probably have punched them in the face. That doesn't even sound like a joke. That's just that dude being a goddamn asshole. I'm usually good at hiding my feelings in situations that are uncomfortable but in that case it'd be death glares all around. It's awful but it's something people know me for. UGHGH. I'd put up a flyer on a nearby college campus if there is one. Younger peeps today, for the most part IMO, are more accepting of different people (for lack of a better word).
Well I don't see too much heavy lifting at a donut shop aside from ingredient packages, but I would think that would rely more on the person baking it all. I'd think you might help take the fresh donuts to the display cases but nothing extreme, at least what I've seen when I've gone to places like that. Crossing my fingers for you! :)
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Ohhh man. How hard it is to find someone and be picky with them while your landlady gives you less than a week to find a replacement roommate... that's gonna be tough. So far I've gotten maybe 2 people who were interested. I'm a little out of the downtown core (as that rent is much higher if you want to imagine what 1-2 grand rent looks like, it's just your average roach infested apartment with druggies who piss in the stairwell, and your door doesn't lock well at night so you worry about your neighbors getting in and stealing your shit, not a condo or anything fancy, fancy apartments are anywhere between 6 grand to about half a mil here)
I didn't even know where to begin with this guy. I couldn't even be picky because a phone was all I had in the hospital and he was the only one who stuck with me. Now that I think about it, it was for some real obvious reasons. It's hard for an older man with real shitty references to his old places (because he doesn't pay his rent). But to say to the people you're renting from that your child is sick in the hospital and that you have to take care of them helps lower the rent AND gets your foot in the door (even though I have no relation to this asshole AND I paid rent... and now had to pay his rent too)
Younger peeps these days are not accepting of older people. Anyone over 25 is ancient and it doesn't matter what you look like or what you sound like. It's sick. I wish I could just get a place of my own. A little bachelor apartment. But that's still $800/month. They gotta do something about the rent problem in this city. It's getting ridiculous fast.
The flyer sounds like a really good idea though and I'm probably gonna do that. I'm not near any colleges (I'm in the industrial area because I do industrial work). But maybe there are some kids willing to take up the front room for a reasonable price. I dunno. I can't lower it anymore than I already have. -sigh-
Oh... I did give him death glares after the upstairs people started telling me about the lies he's been telling them. He hasn't paid rent because he's bankrupt. Sure. He's been working 13hour days making $12/hr, he's getting married, he bought two pairs of steel toed boots, he doesn't buy food (but he has to eat so I bet he's eating out everyday) He's not bankrupt. He just doesn't know how to properly manage his money. If his shit aint out by the 8th, I'm tossing everything out. I just wish I could afford to change the locks.Ah yes. I've done the working in donut shops before. It was my first job out of highschool. So it's nothing new to me. They won't usually rely on baking for cashier personnel (that's what I want to do since I can't bake or cook). I've been told I have a pleasant personality for customer service. I'm happy as long as I'm making enough money to live a comfortable life and afford to sell my artwork at conventions. LOL
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California was awful on the rent, too. I thought apartments were supposed to be cheaper because of less maintenance (no yard to worry about, smaller place to take care of, etc.). The world is going crazy greedy right now. At least you have a few people interested. And. and that's also awful. Don't move to a bad neighborhood please o.o
-punches the old roommate- He's a dick. That's it. -punches him again-
I hope the flyer idea works. It would probably bring in more responses and attract a wider audience / group. And here's to hoping donuts will save the day :D I'm also the same way - I just want to live comfortably. I'd like to have shit loads of money to do what I want (charities, things like that), but I won't be unhappy if I'm able to live comfortably.
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Actually that's where I was when I got here. Roach farm drug apartment, downtown where the stabbings happened. Course the people renting wouldn't tell two kids going to college this info. Rent for the two bedroom was $1019/month without utilities. It was nuts. When I started working I'd pass this woman rocking back and forth in the elevator and come back after work and there'd she'd be... still in the elevator.
I don't understand how raising property taxes helps out the people living there. I guess people want more rich people but how many one percents are there? Not a friggen lot. Most of them live in Hong Kong. Do these people really need condos in every city? What about the people who need a place to live who aren't the 1%?
Gotta wait on some 10 year waiting list to afford rent. (that's how it is here, if you want to be somewhere with cheaper rent without rooming with anyone you go on this waiting list that can take 10 years to process) I might as well move back to the cold friggen freezer that was Winnipeg at this point. (9 months of the year it's winter there, and feb usually hits about -40 to about -60 with windchill)If I see him after the 8th I'm going to kick him in the nuts. His creepiness can go elsewhere. If they want me to find someone to move in and they're gonna let this guy do what he wants I can't be held responsible for finding a roommate by the 15th. Especially since I've had no communication from him on when he's leaving, if he's leaving and what he's doing about all his shit.
Well I'm either hoping that does or the temp agencies do. I have a history with both and really good reception with the latter.
Heck having shit loads of money to buy all the things in my hobby would be nice but living wise, I'm really happy in the smallest places. If you've ever seen a room in Japan, that size is the perfect size for me. Small, enough room for the kitchen area, a washer for your clothes, a balcony to hang your clothes out to dry, a bath tub for the washings of your body. it's small and the perfect size. I don't need a grand apartment. Actually I find the larger the place I live in, the lonelier it gets. Then there's that sense of sadness when everything echos.
All I want is to pay rent, have enough to eat well and go out once in a while, play games with friends and afford small stupid anime goody things that keep me happy for many many years (most of them still do!). Usually a good paying job allows me to do all of these things but tax increases... ehhhhhh. ; A ;
And yes, I usually like to have a little extra to help an artist or two by buying their webcomic. That's just how I roll. LOL
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Oh man, I will definitely read through and click through those comics. Hell, I'll do it on both my computers and have my boyfriend do it just so you can get some more money. Christ. I'm so terribly sorry for your situation and still wish you lived closer to me. I'd totally let you stay in our guest room. I really would. No one deserves to live homeless and on the street or wondering if they're going to have a place to live tomorrow.
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I send you many many hugs with Crow's and I seriously hope you find a room mate very soon. One that isn't a prick or abusive.
If you need help saving money keep reminding yourself you need it to survive. You can buy luxuries much later. You'll have them in time, but surviving comes first. You have a little babu kitty to care for too. Save the money! SAVE IT.
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It's harsh but that's basically how I've lived my life up until now. Living with roommates that screw you over. I'm usually the stepping stone and it's gotten me into a lot of financial trouble trying to cover for people who leave me with the bills and the rent. Sometimes I can be a real asshole so in ways I suppose I deserve it. (I'm extremely skeptic. If someone working 13 hour days tells me he's bankrupt and can't pay last month's rent, I highly suspect he's spending his cash on useless things and not where it should go, rent) Maybe these people haven't experienced what it's like to suddenly have no home? Maybe they should? I certainly don't want to and I certainly don't appreciate the rush to find someone to share the apartment with. While it's both depressing and lonely when I get in the door. It's a long walk to my room... or it feels that way. I've certainly lived on year by year worrying about whether or not it's next month I'll be told all these good things and get the boot regardless of whether or not I paid rent.
I had one woman call me constantly while I was at work that she was going to drive my cat to the SPCA and throw all my things out onto the street. (I have some very expensive things that would break into a million pieces if they were tossed). So I had a week to move out after I went into debt paying for first and last month's rent (it's a thing here where you pay your first month and you pay your last month). I ended up calling the police who in turn told me I had no power there and would have to vacate. Policemen and women don't exist to help us. They exist to eat donuts and drink free coffee. :|Thank you guys very much and for the signal boost! Hugs and signal boosting is plenty helpful. I hope I find someone soon too. Someone that needs a place just as badly as I don't want to move again. I don't want to end up homeless because of the major prejudice here either. I sent my resume to a few places. Now I've got to print it out and make copies and take it to the places around where I live.
I had a nice few hours of gaming last night that calmed me down a bit but the dreams about buying cheap toilet paper was weird. :/Yeah I have this old babu kitty that will need my help in the future. So I should be saving more money, if I can. Oho luxuries. I mostly spend it on more food. I gotta stop with all the foods. And lately household items like a vacuum (I've never had one before LOL but it is a miracle worker) once I am working again I'm going to start putting money away. Especially since I've got a business and I need to pay for merchandise. I'm tired of being the one that doesn't pay for the merch. Table costs and badges aren't as much as print costs and materials. I want to be the one to finally help out and I am in serious need of networking. :|
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Oh Grim, I'm sorry you're going through such a difficult situation right now. I hadn't been able to stop thinking about it insce you said you had money issues but I didn't imagine it was this bad. I'm sorry things aren't going your way right now I wish I was able to help. I'd buy you lots of commissions if I could afford it but... I'm sorry.
Have you tried to start a Patreon? I have never done it and I'm not entirely familiar with it but maybe it's worth a look. Also, have you considered resorting to "fanart" and sell prints or something like that? I wish I had better ideas to share with you >.<
if you're still doing commissions or you decide to make start a Patreon throw me a link and I'll do my best to signal boost it for you. Sadly that's all I can do (and I'm afraid I'm not even that popular, but I will try). I wish i could bring you live here (despite how shitty my own situation is) if only for you to have time and regain some energy.
I hope you can find a good job soon, one that will allow you to cover your expenses. I send you a big, big hug Grim. I really wish I was able to do something more. It might not be a big of a thing but I'll be cheering for you from here and sending you as much good vibes as I can.
I wish you the best Grim, I hope things get better soon.