This is the most I've been so unproductive... and I really apologize for it.. especially to commissioners.....
I am just really not in a good place mentally lately.... Even though I have good friends who cheer me up a lot, and I am glad I have them to talk to about things....
But I've just haven't been myself for a few months... It has especially have gotten worse.. and I haven't drawn much at all besides small projects.... but I'm extremely sluggish with them
I've always been kind of slow finishing things, but lately it's unbearably slow.... I don't even like drawing for myself anymore.. and I don't like drawing when I am feeling this way.. and every single moment that I am feeling just a little better I try to use that to finish things such as commissions or etc..... but lately it's just going downhill for me.. I kind of feel nearly suicidal... tbh....
Everything just seems to suck for me and I'm just being a giant baby about it
maybe I just need to seek help or something.. I just kind of gave up on everything and Just really don't want to do anything anymore...
I feel this way especially about my art and just myself in general.. I have no idea how people can put up with me or even like me when I am feeling this way....
I'm just tired of pretending to be happy.... I just don't care about anything anymore... except the few friends that I have, since they seem to be the only thing keeping me from getting any worse than I already am.....
With that said, I hope everyone understands.. and I'll try to get commissions done during the times I feel better....
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