Dying, Not quite literally.
Tuesday I had a severe pain in my lower right abdomen. (on the plus side I got to see a pre-screening for how to train your dragon 2) So after the movie was over, I went home and was pondering going to the emergency room.
Talked to the lady over the phone, wasnt sure if I should go in or not. I asked if I should eat and drink a bunch of water and see if I would feel better if I was dehydrated and/or hungry (I get hunger mixed up with anything pain related. I am not used to feeling the thing called "hunger") and she told me that was a smart thing to do, and to come in if I started feeling worse.
So I made sure I wasnt hungry or dehydrated.
was fine for a while
then I felt really sick again. I waffled about going to the emergency room. Then decided it was better for me to go even if it were for piece of mind (thank goodness I have insurance)
Was there for about 3.5 hours. got right in. no wait.
long story short, I found out I had a kidney infection. The doctor was surprised I didnt ask for painkillers. Because, where would I know where the pain was coming from if I couldnt feel the pain?
evidently this thing has been going on for quite a while. If you're always in a low level of pain, then how can you tell when something's wrong? At least, thats what goes on in my head.
On the plus side, I'm starting to feel better. Gonna take another crack at those commissions now that phoenix comicon and kidney failure are off the table.
everything hurts, but it's a state I'm pretty familiar with. I guess I get confused with pain. I have the ability to shut it off, but if it's something annoying or bothersome, I tend to dwell on it and it freaks me out.
But if it's chronic pain, I tend to cope very well with it. As long as I dont see blood.
wednesday and a good chunk of today was very painful. Spent most of the time sitting down reading articles about deformed babies.
why? I dont know. I have no idea.
talked to my therapist today though. She reccomends me talk to a neuropsychologist. there is something horribly wrong with my memory, and I need to get it sorted out.
it feels like everytime I get up, my intestines are falling out of my body. It's an interesting sensation.
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Oh fuck, I know Kidney Infection. Had it in my bladder, moving up into kidneys.
Fucking agonizing.
They put me on antibiotics via drip for about two days, and further antibiotics for a week or two. Couldn't eat without pain, couldn't move without pain, couldn't piss without pain. Was hideously... hideous.
Glad to know you're doing alright though. Get well soon.