So many things have changed for me in so many ways* that it's super difficult to just sit down at my computer like usual and start work. It feels like I am sitting at someone else's desk doing someone else's work. I spend great amounts of time overwhelmed, or in a sort of fugue state, just staring into the depths of tumblr thinking that there should be something I am doing but I can't remember what it was. Working is difficult. Going “out” is almost impossible ( even going to the live WtNV show is causing me to panic). I dedicate most of my lucid time to learning.

On that note, my skill levels and methods have bounced around so drastically due to the classes / exercises I am involved in to the point where doing things that I used to do easily are now made more difficult because I am better... It is hard to explain. It almost feels like I have started all over again in regards to drawing/coloring, and while I enjoy the learning process, it is difficult to produce many things I'd want to share with everyone.** When I do start uploading to galleries frequently again, I imagine things will look completely different.

Because of how long it has taken me and how unhappy I was with some of the results (given I put everything I had into them regardless) I am not going to be offering sketch or pin-up commissions anymore. If I do offer private commissions (ever ) again, they're going to most likely be painting based and non “internet-priced”. I know I still have corrections to do when I can figure out a way to do them, and at least one ATC to paint. I am getting there. Thanks for your patience.

• I'm okay. While many of the things weren't exactly positive, they've had an overall positive influence. I am finally healing , at least partially, from past trauma, drama, and unfortunate circumstance.

**If you really care to see me struggle, I am keeping a blog for myself at my homepage and tumblr, but uploads here will be few and far between.