Everything just seems to be piling up on me, lately.

I got fired from my crappy retail job awhile back because I called in sick to take my husband to the ER. Nobody wants to hire me. I'm applying for everything. The husband is stressing out super bad over money constantly and the whole job search thing is humiliating and frustrating at turns. I put out that I was doing commissions but everybody else seems to be just as broke as I am. I've been doing freelance stuff to make money but it's never enough.

Then I get a call from my mom, and this nodule she's had on her thyroid apparently took off and got way bigger. It's probably malignant since when she had it scanned about 8 months ago it was tiny and hadn't budged from where doctors had found it in 2010. My mom is a breast cancer survivor. She's been through chemo and it was rough on her and her body. I'm scared that she's going to have to do it all again and what kind of toll it will take on her. I live almost 500 miles away from her and it hurts that I can't do anything. I'd be just as helpless there, I guess, and I spent hours on the phone with her last night just trying to work through some things and lift her spirits. I can't help but be afraid. She's not always been the best mom but she's my friend and she's the only parent I have.I love her. I don't want her to have to deal with this.

She's been trying to care for my 93 year old grandfather, and while he's pretty hale for an old man, he's still living alone and he can be stubborn about what he does and how he does it.

To top it off, my idiot brother has been giving her a hard time. She has done everything in her power to keep him from self-destructing and he throws it all in her face and calls her an overbearing bitch. She has given him money and countless time and a roof over his head. I'm so angry with him and I am a little angry with her for enabling him. She has had enough to deal with lately with her health without having him add to it. He finally left the state and hasn't talked to her for a month. He didn't wish her a happy birthday. Didn't even send her a text on mother's day. She says its for the best, that she needs her distance, but I know it hurt her feelings and that makes me really, really mad at him. Again.

I feel really helpless and worried and anxious and I try to put a strong face on. I'm the kind of person that tries to just laugh at life, even when life is being a total prick. I just don't know what else to do.