Just some updates and random things.

First of all, hand's doing much much better. Didnt want to overuse it for fear that I'd be out of commission for a month. So problem #1 has been fixed and onward we go with the commission list!

I've been kinda waffling back and forth about making journals about things that did not immediately relate to my commission cue or prices. Mostly out of fear of people attacking me or claiming that I'm feigning some untold illness, manipulation, etc. Through the course of watching and talking with a good number of artists I've watched from a distance, and have only just begun to interact with, I've discovered something about myself.

For a long time I've been striving to do this one particular style because to me, that seemed like what furries wanted. I thought, that if I drew anthros and if I drew in that particular style, more people would commission me. How wrong I was. I kept working toward this goal which I didnt have my heart into, and in the process lost my own art and my own voice.

Through the course of watching and interacting with other artists, both online and offline, I've discovered something.. People pay for art because they like the artist. Not the style. I was tired of being some rip off of someone else, or trying to conform to other people's expectations.

I have a love for bizarre, grotesque, abstract, surreal and thought-provoking artwork. Not "its a dog" or "its a dog on top of another dog" or "I like rainbows". I lost my creativity in the sea of objectiveness. I became a machine for a production of methodology. I lost my voice out of fear of other people's opinions. Keep your head low and it's less likely to be hit.

I reached a point where I said ENOUGH! Let me use my own mind, even though it may not work right, and may not function on the same level that other peoples' do. It's defective, but I shouldnt punish myself for having it, and I shouldnt punish myself through my own expressions for having it. Let me share what I see, what I feel, what I hear and what I perceive through my artwork.

Little did I know, thats what people wanted.

I've made more than $300 these past few weeks on my own art. I've never had this happen before. I'm also working on things I love to do, for people I would love to do them for.
Massive amounts of thanks to everyone who contributed to my commission list, and massive amounts of thanks to the people who show appreciation for what I want to draw, and what I have fun drawing. Also massive amounts of thanks to the people I watch and comment on journals. It's really helped me open up about expressing myself in my art. Not only visual but verbal. I used to have a band, I used to be a singer. I produced three albums. I'm a writer. I paint with oil. I ink with a nib. There's something very satisfying with diversity.

Most of all...I learned I shouldnt be afraid of myself, or afraid of others.

9) santa claus for grandma's book(working on)
3)Luunai - probably dragon sketch (working on)
6)Devin - awesome beautiful piece
7) greatcontagion - two dragon sketches
8) alyx
10) torokard