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I hate myself a bit on the inside... by Sjru

That part of my personality, which I can't or I don't know how to love

It saddens me that, even if I want a special one, I can't do it on my own as I need the other to feel the same for me, and of course, practically noone wants to develop a relationship, and even those that want, give up really easy.
Yeah, fast fast fast, everything have to be fast fast fast. Naw that's not how I work, but apparently the entire world only want things to be fast.

And that's why apparently I'm not valuable. Because things have to be fast, and I can't be fast, oh no. I guess I'll be alone emotionally for a loooong time, since well, who wants to bother, really?

Having lots of stuff in common etc might not be enough if one doesn't even bother. You want something now? Well I don't.

And then nothing happens, because pretty sure they can get one that's looking for something instant, that might be bad. Who knoooows.

When was the last time that one was happy to see you?
And that you were happy to see them?
For me, that was in a looooong time.

sighs I hate that part of myself, being alone...

I hate myself a bit on the inside...

Sjru

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    dont hate your self for this you value something most dont

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      I don't know...

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    trust me a real relationship goes a long way

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      I guess you're an expert on that ^w^

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    haha i would not say that XD