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Bwuuuh Personal Journal Vent by Junga

So a couple of things I would like some advice/opinions on. I don't typically talk about personal stuff that's bothering me, but... Ugh.

(Sorry for the long block of text. There is a quick summary towards the bottom in bold if you don't want to read the whole thing.)

First thing: I had this gig last weekend at the local monthly Art Festival. A week before, I got a call from this guy saying "Hey, we really like the work we saw on Facebook and we'd like to see more. We want you to set up at [insert bar name here] next weekend. Oh we forgot to ask, how old are you?" I couldn't say no to this offer. How often do you have someone tell you that? So here I am, underage, sitting in a grungy old bar. I'm really awkward because I'm in a really uncomfortable foreign place. I have a table set up beside me with my art and business cards. A couple of older friends come in to show my support, and I drew this sketch of an old man and gave it to him. (He came back later to thank me and that was a good feeling.) Things were going alright. As the night went on (around 7-8pm), people were getting rude. One couple were eating on the table with my paintings and almost spilled beer on my stuff. Another couple came in and bashed everything I did (they didn't realized I was standing behind them). "What is this shit? This isn't art. This fucking sucks. Etc." Then the girl picks up a business card, "What, she calls herself a designer? This is shit! She shouldn't deserve to call herself that!" And proceeds to rip my card in half and throw it on the ground and storm off. I stayed for a few more minutes but I couldn't take much more. I thanked the manager, left, and bought myself a Big Mac. I am still very sad by it and I kinda have no confidence to keep working. I'm a champ when it comes to criticism. I actually like criticism, but I've never been openly insulted like that before.

TL;DR- Some couple openly insulted my work in front of me and I am sad. I don't know if I am overreacting or how to handle it.

Second thing: Unrelated to previous story, I've lost interest in becoming committed to long term drawings/paintings. I have recently done nothing much more than sketches. Is this some form of art block or what? What do?

Sorry about all of this. I just want to get it off my chest.

Thanks.

Bwuuuh Personal Journal Vent

Junga

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    Egh, jeeeeze, sorry to hear that such a thing happened to you, that sounds like it was a nasty bad experience, and to be honest, I think I would be pretty crushed myself if I had to go through such a thing.

    The only thing I can really advise is to try and put that behind you; I mean, I know that's a tall order, because how do you put something like THAT behind you? But think about it, the people who bash art like that are the one's who know the least about art, and no real and/or professional artist of any media would go to such lengths to beat down on art like that. So in all honesty, it's those punks that think they know EVERYTHING, which in reality, they know nothing about art. It's dangerous to take their words personally, because they don't know anything and their is nothing to gain from their "critisisms." It's one of those instances where you have to differentiate those who criticize, and those who critique. Those who criticize art like this instance of yours just go out of their way to insult, and have no real art knowledge; where as, those who critique have better knowledge of what they are speaking, and (usually) they aren't trying to hurt feelings, just being honest and insightful. So yeah, it's hard to say how you should exactly deal with such a problem, everyone has different ways of dealing with issues, but if you were to ask me, you should try your hardest to try and put those people behind you, they aren't worth the emotional investment.

    And no, your not overreacting; when people bash on personal work like that, art or not, it's very justified to feel offended and hurt. I mean, that is YOUR WORK that you care about that they are insulting, if you didn't care about your work, you wouldn't feel hurt.

    As for the sketch thing, it might be an art block? I'm in the same situation, I know I have projects that I need to work on, but I only have little motivation to work on those bigger projects, and I have been doing a lot of doodling myself. Could be an art block, could be a lack of motivation, could be laziness. Either way though, it's pretty normal, I mean, it's pretty freakin' hard to be a dedicated artists ALLLLL the time, your gonna have dull moments here and there. I say, let it flow and enjoy some of the down time and laziness, get it out so then you can get it out of your system. You can work it out and you'll feel motivated to do bigger projects when the time is right.

    Again, sorry to hear you had such a terrible time at the art fest. :[.

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      I appreciate your comments, thanks. It's not a big deal. I didn't have high expectations of going to a bar, but I didn't think it'd be like that. I mean, I know I'm not a professional artist yet because I'm still a student but dang. I even had a little "about the artist" in front of my pieces. The first thing it said was "[insertnamehere] is a graphic design student at [university]."

      Also art blocks suck. I don't feel particularly lazy because I do a crapton of other work. Maybe because it's the end of the semester and I'm kinda burnt out. I told my boyfriend the other day, "I just want to take a week and do nothing art-related. Just sit on my butt and play video games, go to the beach, and just do what I want." Maybe whenever school's over with, I'll do just that. Besides, I have another painting course over the summer.

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    Holy shit no, you're not over-reacting even a little bit. This is absolutely the appropriate reaction.

    These weren't fair criticisms, they were insults, very personal ones. It's hard to not think about these things for a long time, but I usually think like this: if these people are being this god damn mean-spirited to someone's art, they're shitty people whose opinions don't matter. I don't mean that in a "don't listen to negative opinions" way, because you are going to find better people who will much more graciously tell you your weak points, and actually encourage you to improve instead of LITERALLY RIPPING YOUR BUSINESS CARD IN HALF.

    Honestly, chances are that couple are two dickheads who go around in art-related gatherings looking for people to belittle because they think it's fun.

    It's difficult, but try to think more about the people who were cool towards you rather than people who were being actively malicious.

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      Thanks for the advice. I've always felt when people say mean things that people who know me think those things, but just tell me nice things to help me feel better. I have only recently gotten over that (though, it's still in the back of my mind), so I can only imagine what would've happened if the same thing happened a year ago. I'm just going to pretend they were really drunk. However, it may take me a few days to feel better and get completely over it.