So, let me start by saying that I will start streaming proper today within 45 to one hour from now. So be warned.

This now said, I want to use this post to say I have decided to try to "return to business" starting today. By this... I mean that I want to giving this art and commissions a real go as much as I can within my capabilities. This is why I will be starting to stream earlier than usual today even if I might not be able to end later due to various things in my house.

It also means I want to continue being productive with art in general, not just when I have commissions. After all, at the end of the day, if I want people to trust me with commissions I must also show I have skills and abilities to show up for it. And this also means, as I've begun(though more slowly than I would have liked) over the last two days, that I also wishes to give commissions a proper go off-stream for those commissions who cannot be there when I'm streaming.

This said, I also wish to eventually be able to build a proper list of the things I will or won't do when taking commissions. This might sound like limiting oneself, but I feel I really work my best and produces my best art when working with subjects and concepts I am comfortable with while subjects or themes which make me uncomfortable not only feel hard to produces... but also adds a certain layer of stress which I often feel either affect the resulting art or my ability to create as a result. Not only that, but there are also on the other end of the spectrum many genres or themes I would like to work with -more- than I currently do, so in a fashion while it might sound like limiting myself, it's actually also about trying to diversify what I produces.

I can't produces such a list right now, but possibly expect one in the future.

I'm also hunting for references of both people and real-life animals during my offstreams hours to try and practices myself at drawing from reference so that the knowledge of anatomy and features and traits can perhaps see improvement even when I'll find myself having to create without ready references. I tend to have a good visual memory for many things, but like everything it needs to be occasionally refreshed with fresh images that I can later draw upon when I'm creating. Plus, to practices doing more art in general cannot hurt. I've felt a lot of my art, even at sketch level, was rather stiff lately. So further practice might help wakening the creative muses again and loosen up my sketches... and incidentally also make it easier for me later to do digital paintings again outside of commissions.
To say I've had a hard time feeling able to produces art in a fashion that didn't feel forced over the last month would be an understatement. I'm also hoping to slowly find my way around external factors which produced stress for me will also help loosening up my ability to create again. Stress and anxiety is a though enemy that has plagued me for a long while, and it's one I still need if not to slay, because I'm not sure if I could ever be an anxieties-free person with what little I feel I know about myself... then at least to bring under control and come to terms with.

Anyway, I hope to see you folks soon in today's stream. Expect tomorrow's livestream to start around 12pm-12h30pm and to last until 5 or 6pm again as I plan to try doing today.