Hello everyone... it has been quite some time since I updated something or even made a journal and I'm really sorry for that and I apologize... but I think I should tell you what happened to me right now and that I had made some decisions.

The end of the last week was pure horror for me... on Friday I forgot my handbag in front of my classroom and after the one hour I had I went out to look for it but then another member of my class brought it to me and I took a look if everything was still there and sadly... my purse and my mobile were stolen...
I know it is mostly my fault for forgetting about such an important thing but I sadly have a very weak memory so... yeah...
but mostly to blame are people that just don't let things where they belong...
I lost over 200 Euros I wanted to put on my bank account after school and 100 of them were a gift from my grandmother... but worse then that.. my drivers license, medical insurance policy, identity card, bank card, EVERYTHING was stolen too and not returned or found...
I lost so much that day and I spent the half of the day driving around, locking my bank account, going to the police and search the whole school for clues where my purse and handy could be but I found absolutly nothing... on my way back home I cried hard... luckily I had my car keys in my jacket... if not I don't know what I would have done... the days after were not easy too... I tried to get over it, Sephircards father sent my a new mobile and my uncle offered me also two models which I'm all very thankful for... but I just... fear everything to be for the worst and... I really don't know if I can get over this so easily... the stress at school is now also much more intensive and I just... feel kinda empty... that hit me very close as you can imagine...
So... sorry if I am not in a good mood now but... it is just horrible...

Also I decided I will not draw commissions or requests... I thought about that one very much now and I don't think it suits me well to just follow other peoples orders when drawing... besides I don't really think I will ever be good enough for doing commission-worth work... but that's another matter for another time - I just have a hard time right now and I try to relax as much as possible... and... I would appreciate any help... really... anything... nice words or something... I just... sorry I just can't right now...