Um so wow I've been really avoiding talking about this both online and IRL but I am now back home from college. I've struggled the entire year, but when the new semester started my agoraphobia came back with a vengeance and confined me to my room in the apartment aaand I stopped all self care and eating and all that and I made the decision to come home. It really pains me to admit that even after three/three and a half years of intensive treatment I'm still not able to live well on my own and function like a typical person. I have a plan and will be starting classes as a commuter student at the university thats about 10 minutes from my house in the fall, but it's hard not to feel defeated. It sucks since being at home with my mom is not ideal either. depression and panic have gotten really bad as well and just GEE WIZ LIFE IS A STRUGGLE
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I'm going to try to find something to focus on like art or.. i don't even know. Motivation is hard
woop that's all for now. Hopefully by posting this out in the open it can help me get out of this slump I'm in. It's helped before in the past so WE'LL SEE.