Just kind of. Finally getting around to typing a journal about it. Been tweetings slightly about things on and off. Mainly doing this as I should have explained myself then, but twitter character limit can be a bitch. Three main things got me down.

Friend is moving away

I know it sounds childish, but when I found out Moonstar was moving out of state I was pretty sad. When you have a good friend that lives less then 5 minutes away from you say they are going to leave out of state, where it's either a long car ride or a plane ride, you get kinda bummed out. Not going to go too much into it as I know she could read this (I don't want to make you feel any more worse then I already did! v.v) but at least I know she's moving to be with Comet and to take care of some money issues. So that's not all that bad. But I'm going to miss you Moonstar, that's for damn sure D:

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Friend gets broken up with

Another very good friend of mine- her boyfriend (also my friend) breaks up with her. Now, you may be thinking this isn't so bad, let me explain. This was a serious relationship, they've been together for 5 years (only 1 year and a few months less then Arthur and my own's relationship). They live together in an apartment (and prior to that, together at his parent's house). He promised her marriage, a life together, future children even. And then, he broke up with her. For the past few months (maybe since February?) I've noticed changes in him and she sure as hell was seeing them too. Temper, insults, going out and being reluctant to say where, spending more time with his friends then her, not inviting her to come along with friends. It's honestly quite sad, I remember him being very nice, very fun to be with. A gentleman. Now, this.

My friend is pretty devastated- this was her future. Probably some people out there saying "well she should get over it- people break up"; alright. Think of someone you are very close with, someone you care about greatly and enjoy their presence. Significant other or even a friend. Now imagine one day they tell you "I don't want to see you anymore, that their feelings for you have changed. Yea, doesn't feel good right? My friend also has some shakey self esteem from a shitty past, so that doesn't help at all. He's letting her stay (he doesn't have a fucking choice, her name is on the papers) and even offered to pay for the rent. Gave her the bedroom too. At least he is civil. It's just..... I expected it from the way he was acting, but at the same time didn't expect it.

Besides feeling terrible for her (tried talking to him but he's not sharing much, trying to make her feel better, kinda hard for her to even try to feel better), a few days afterwards it sparked a lot of insecurity in me. It's that eerie feeling of "they broke up, I'm next!" feeling. Had it for a few days, finally mentioned something to Arthur in which he assured me we were ok and it wasn't some cosmic "you are next" thing.

UPDATE: Apparently things are getting a little bit more manageable with the two of them. Not sure what will happen though but he's treating her better at least which is good.

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Dog having health issues

This was basically the big one for my family and me. My dog Spirit started to get very sick. She's 10 years old and in very very good health. One night when Arthur was over she started to foam at the mouth and shake a bit. But then she stopped. My mom didn't know what it was but Arthur and I had an idea. My mom left a message with the vet to get her an appointment ASAP as soon as they open (they were closed cause it happened at night). Next morning, they scheduled her for the next day. Seemed fine. Came home from work and my mom said she had another episode and that it was bad. She couldn't explain it well so I didn't worry too much.

That night however, my mom saw her freaking out when she was laying down. When I heard her yell I ran out of my room to watch my dog stand up, convulse, and fall over. She shook as her body stiffened and foamed at the mouth. She was having a gran mal. It feels like it lasted forever.... honestly. You can't do much for a dog when they seizure. I've never seen a seizure before either. Hell, didn't know dogs could (I guess it makes sense they can but you don't think about stuff like that till it happens I guess). So at that moment, seeing her like that and how long it was, I thought my dog was going to die right there. FINALLY, she came out of it, she was disorientated terribly though. Again, not knowing anything about seizures, I thought she actually suffered brain damage after that from the way she was acting. She forgot a lot of basic things.... like we taught her not to go down the hallway, her way around the house, if she ate or not (kept looking for food SHE REMEMBERED WHERE THE FOOD IS), and even sadly- that she does her business outside. I think she even forgot who we were cause she was so excited to see my mom and me that she hopped around us (like she would with new people). She SLOWLY started to remember things and we stayed with her for a while as we tried looking up more information. This happened around 10 pm ish. Eventually, I went to bed (had work in the morning.

I remember it was either 1am or 2am, but I heard my mom crying again. I jumped out of bed and apparently she was having another grand mal. Only thing we did to help was putting an ice pack under her arm pits after she came out of it to lower her sudden high temperature. My mom then called the emergency number for pets for 24/7 care places. The FIRST place was very rude! "Well she didn't have two on the same day" THEY HAPPENED ABOUT 3-4 HOURS APART NIMROD. Second place was much nicer, but explained that hours apart is not back to back and that it was better to wait for her morning appointment. The lady stayed on the phone with my mom to comfort her and give her advice.

Spirit went to the vet, still dazed. They gave her medicine to stop the seizures and started her on some tests. Thankfully, on the medicine she only had a minor seizure that lasted only 30 seconds. Other then that, since she has been on it, no seizures and no disorientation. Tests showed high levels in her liver. At first, we thought that would be good cause she would have medicine to regulate that. Apparently, no, it would be bad. They took another test to check her liver and it came back fine. All her blood work came back fine. Which leaves only two possible things: epilepsy and brain tumor. The vet said because of her age if it was a tumor, she may not survive surgery to get it removed. There is also the possibility she just has epilepsy. She instead suggested keeping her on the medicine and monitoring her. And to let her live out her natural life. Just take good care of her, write down if and when she has odd behavior, and if she seems to be in pain (we know how Spirit reacts to pain thanks to years back with the toe incident >w<).

It's been a few weeks now with her on the medicine and she is doing great! At first she was groggy from the meds, but now she is back to her regular self. So for now, she is ok. which is really great cause honestly, I love this dog. She is a a part of the family and is like the little baby of the family. She has been the best dog we've ever had. She's a sweetheart- LOVES people. Is a good girl, does little to no wrong. A little derpy, but that's why we love her. Our little runt that we saved from the pet shop (bad pet shop, thankfully they got shut down). So yea, this was extremely disheartening and stressful when it happened.

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Since October rolled in though things have gotten a lot better, so that makes me happy. Sorry about the loooooooong post. Just thought I would get it out there and all. THIS TOOK ME LIKE A WEEK TO WRITE OH MAN. Mainly cause I just didn't have time to finish it in one sitting XD Plus I kept questioning if I should type this or not. When it was all happening it was due to being too emotional. Afterwards it was because things settled down so I was like "should I even type it?". I'm ok now, just, again, tweeted from time to time about stuff. This is the actual stuff.