It's okay. Do what you feel is best. Do what makes you happy. In the end, what truly matters is what you want. Just be safe and take care of yourself, okay? We'll still be here if/when you decide to return. I hope you can settle all of your problems to your satisfaction. Be proud of your art, yourself, and whatever you choose to do. May your life be filled with peace, joy, love, wonder, kindness, happiness, delight, mental & physical wellbeing, and great food. Sending you a hecktons worth of virtual hugs and good vibes.