I can understand that. I kinda feel the same way though different reason. I just don't know what to really chat about, which leads to an awkward silence, making me feel like "Why did I bother them in the first place" x-x;

Understandable. I don't often chat with many people. Especially ones I haven't yet actually chatted to. I get pretty nervous that I'll end up with a hyper obsessive person again. I think making conversation journals like this is a good way to try to start.