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Where ya been, Reb? - Jan 2020 by RebbyRebReb

Hey all! Happy 2020!

I hope your last year has been good, and you were able to rest during the end of the year and are ready to kick ass this year.

So, where have I been? Well... TLDR; Depression kicked my ass. I was busy having a big ol' pity party for myself. I spent the first half of 2019 looking for work and trying to pick myself up from an abyssmal 2018- working on artwork, taking my medicine, trying to get up in the morning and find light at the end of the tunnel. I went for 1 job interview last year, and then Final Fantasy XIV: Shadowbringers came out in July... and well.... I think I put another 1000 hours alone into FFXIV from July to November. I would just get up, go online to play XIV, then go to bed. It was nice and not nice; I have friends ingame that I can go talk to about problems and they would want me to get better, and I would then ignore my own needs and hurt myself by eating badly.

In November of 2019 I went back to Las Vegas for the first time in 5 years to spend Thanksgiving to New Years with my sister, and my parents. Mort came with me as well, and I saw what damage I did to myself- I wasn't able to walk up stairs without hurting myself, I would be out of breath for a simple walk, and pictures of me made me scared, not because I was massive and fat, but because I was afraid that that weight was going to kill me.

I decided my new years resolution for 2020 is not "lose weight", or "find a job", it is "Be my own best friend." It's important to me to finally be in my own corner and just keep practicing self care and self love. I've been walking twice every week ('bout to be three times a week), tracking my calories and drinking lots of water.
So where does that leave us for 2020?

I have two more commissions to begin before I open commissions again. I hope to have them open before May/June. We'll see! In the meantime, I'm working on getting myself help from the australian government to find a part time job as someone with anxiety/depression.

I'm hoping to get back to doing monthly updates, probably at the end of the month, so you are able to follow me on what I'm working on. I'm also going to post my journals on all my platforms, with Patreon being my home base for most things.

For Patreon, I would like to figure out, finally, what the hell I'm going to do with the platform. I need to figure it out to be honest, so that money has been spent well. I will still keep the "pay for each piece" standard I have out at the moment, because if I don't work, I don't get paid. It's something I'm going to keep working on for 2020

Streaming will continue to happen. Picarto will be our home base for NSFW and Twitch will be for our SFW. I hope to have a stream atleast once a week, along with the Wyvern's Mark stream with my sister, Hina. <---click through to follow here.

Thank you for spending time reading my large novel and supporting me in my endevours. Let us try and make 2020 better for ourselves!

Where ya been, Reb? - Jan 2020


30 January 2020 at 23:41:07 MST

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