Recently my sleeping schedule has become imbalanced, and I don't know why.
I'm in my room right now, and I just had one of those naps. I went to sleep at around 6:00 PM, and then woke sometime at around 9:00 PM. It is already 10:00 now, as I am typing this.
I don't know why my sleeping schedule keeps getting messed up. It could be stress, it could be other things. I don't know what's wrong with me, but I highly doubt it's anything serious. One thing is certain, I'm probably going to have a very difficult time trying to get sleep tonight.
If it is stress, then I need to calm myself down and get my thoughts under control. I wish I had somebody to talk to about it, but I don't. It's unfortunate, but it's how things are right now. It's been a really long time since I've had a close friend. Years, in fact.
I could talk to my parents about this, but for some reason I just don't want to. I always have the desire to communicate with someone more easily relatable rather than my parents.
I could try and figure out what's causing my stress. I seem to have a lot of conflicted emotions inside my mind. I'm always thinking about my future, among other things. I'm always under some cloud of anxiety every day of my life. My mind always focuses to other things whenever I'm doing something else.
Now I'll be honest, it's not the worst kind of mind to be in, though I can't say it's exactly pleasant either.
Anyway, if anyone took the time to read this, I apologize for the amount of "me, myself, and I" in this journal. I only felt like making a personal journal entry where I explain my mental thoughts and feelings. No big deal.
12 July 2019 at 06:39:16 MDT