I thought long and hard, and it looks like when my former friends saw my "temporary" depression get worse, they thought firmly it was weakness of character, cause no one has depression as a chronic condition according to them. That gave them the right to write me off one by one.

I'm still not getting better, in fact I'm in the middle of a mandatory switch of social workers because that's how the system works. Just when things look like they're progressing, it gets reset by a mandatory contract obligation... This is why I hate this province's mental health care.

Not to mention I lost my last USA based friend from one of my former fandoms, who's still active outside of my knowledge. He now hates me.

I was also told the solution to my problems is to use all my disability assistance to pay for Behavior Interventionists. I barely have enough for food.

I see nothing but blackness at the end of the tunnel.