Hey, I'm letting people know again that I'm okay. Many of you may know that Thomas my now ex-husband and I have separated and he is living his new life with his new partner. It's been a week and a bit since he left for her. So it's been mainly my greyhound Blue and I at home, with my sister who lives with us.

To be honest, it's been really, really rough. I've been going through an ocean of feelings. From absolute pain, to fiery anger, to sedate sadness, to a warm, calm contentness I've never felt before. I intend to at least keep things positive between Thomas and his current girlfriend, but I am still in many ways upset with the sudden change imposed onto my life.

However, I'm not letting it slow me down. I have finally reached out of my dark depression phase that had lingered with me for so many years. I've been determined trying new things, and giving them my all.

I even tried telemarketing to have some kind of job (I left that one in a matter of days, it was far too draining on me.) I've trialed for a doggy day care (hoping, hoping, hoping I get to work there!) I also volunteer at a community cafe and learning how to be a barista. I'm trying to do all the things!

At the moment, I'm learning to knit, learning to play the guitar, trying to figure out what gym program suits me and catching up with people I haven't in a while. I've been sorting through my old stuff. Changing my room. Just, making things more suitable for me. I've even been touching art, craft and baking again! All of my past favourite things as well as new things!

Above all, I'm managing my mental illnesses, and not letting them overwhelm me. They played their part in Thomas's decision to leave me for someone else. I'm not going to let them decide that it's me who should go too. Not again.

I want to be the best person I can be. I've just got to keep trying. Thank you for reading, and for all your support. I've been so blesses to be surrounded by such wonderful people in my life. Take care!

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