this is copypast from my FA journal page.

hello everyone. i say this with as much sincerity as possible: i'm still alive and well. i wasn't doing so well before, and around the time between the last journal post (3 weeks ago) and the end of the semester, i went through one of the hardest times of my life to date. looking back now makes it easier to admit: it was more difficult than anything i've ever dealt with.

for a single week, which now seems like such a short time, i was deeply depressed and very upset. no single thing triggered it, no sudden disaster or failed test; it was an accumulation of a multitude of things, combined with not taking care of myself, emotionally and physically. nothing seemed good, nothing seemed like it was okay, and i didn't feel like i would ever be okay ever again. yes the rationalist inside me would keep telling me "its just 5 more days, 3 more days, you can do it," but it got to a point one day where... i was very afraid that i wouldn't. i was very afraid at the things i was thinking, at how i viewed myself and the rest of the world. this is really difficult to admit here, since FA is one of the most influential social hubs for my friends, watchers and art communities... thankfully there are people in my life that helped me through this, that kept me going each day and talked me through the end of last semester. i'm not sure where i would be right now, if it wasn't for them.

as a person, i needed this. not to say that it was a great thing, but it has helped me grow and develop as a person, and i've come out more prepared and stronger on the other end. i've grown better as a friend and readier as a human being for what the future might hold. as an artist, this has been a huge setback. i've atrophied from where i was just a month ago, and i know i have commissioners waiting patiently for me to get back up and keep going. and i intend to do exactly that.

just letting you all know that i'm okay, and i'm moving onward and upwards. thank you.

so Weasyl, i don't care to immerse myself in emotional politics very much, but as an outlet for my expression i'm leaving this here so people know what has and what is going on with me.