A little bit late like the dew, but really I guess this is a PSA before the nother year jump we all take staying up late on this day (or any ahaha).

3d work and animation has been much more harder for me. Its harder due to my health sitting in a chair all day looking a pc. Im sensitive to migraines, insomnia, and depression. In all being around tech and not active is the most depressive thing. I spent a long time learning about blender, but sadly of all the hundreds I spent on learning it and assets to use: its a program for people to make low quality goods or their own projects or assets.

Something I never have been able to do. I've always been making highly detailed models, figures, sculpts, concepts, designs. And each time I was shown bleached and scaled down simple characters from my teachers using blender it began to imprint the idea I needed to destroy the good work I did, bleach it more and more to make something work. When really destroying my model more and more made everything worse.

Iv'e escaped into better working conditions both in the hobbies I do and in life. Im learning Houdini now, slowly but I'm doing things right and carringly then trying to rush out and show everyone I made something. Been a painful year because in family art and work I've become so much better through the beehive of everything.

I've always wanted to find a teacher to help guide me through being myself but really....thats me. I know one of these years ill snag and paste a tiny fragment of the animation I'm working on on here or another website. But I cant guarantee it will be fast or be taken well. I've noticed a lot of the fandom has been taken over to where people want goods fast, and 3d/animation work on the bigger sites has become fetish asset flipped models. Nothing really anthro or caring, mostly its been a lot of human artwork sadly.

I hope just my one dream will turn against that.