greetings all little creations of the earth and stars!

how are you? i hope you've been well. weather is showing its symptoms from global warming more and more, with erratic things that can be hard to adapt to. also erratic things in the world of politik, and social culture. it's hard to be flexible. i hope you're all holding up.

it's been a bit rainy in the PNW lately and i'm definitely feeling good about it. get moist, everyone! the storm that S.E.Asia is throwing our way hopefully refills some aquifers and nourishes the plains, and snows deeply on the mountains so we have river and melt water this spring! i'm so thankful for rain.

my arm and wrist are still resting. nobody told me until i watched others go through this pain that carpal tunnel syndrome is a syndrome of full arm tension. my upper girdle right side is the tightest on my body, and my pectoral muscles (specifically minor), levator scapule, rhomboid major and minor, and entire clavicular portion of my pecs in my armpit are soooooo tight, that often it does not matter how much i use my hand, if i still have the thing that connects my hand to my body be so tight and abused. posture saves carpal tunnel. my current goal is developing the back muscles that all of us desk generation and computer generation have atrophied. simply sitting upright for an hour without back rest of ones own strength becomes painful. clearly, exercise in support is needed. i have a wonderful neuromuscular massage therapist who always does great work. it is up to me to do the rest. if anyone in Olympia needs someone, message me and i'll refer you.

along with body cleaning and rearrangement, my room and workspace is getting slowly more organized as well. settling in to a space takes focus and apparently 2 years, aha. then again, i'm still young and learning how to create my own space in the world; of course i would take some time with my own space just in my bedroom and house. i'm still frustrated about my arm, but letting it rest and relearning to do regular tasks healthily is necessary before i do more intense work on it. gosh i still have a reference sheet in progress that i keep wanting to redo, and boy is that frustrating. a commitment from last year for free, it's not on a time schedule but the more it ticks by the worse i feel. i guess tomorrow is another full heal day so i can get bapck to work!

speaking of: job offers have been sparse but responsive. a manager recognized me from my last application drop off, another interviewed me but didn't call back when they said they would (later i found out it's NOT a good place to work), i passed a round of tests for another opportunity, and another place called me back and asked for references. it's going alright, but i need to keep popping my head in places. i keep forgetting to 'go in again,' or i rationalize it away with a 'i'm not dressed to impress enough' thought. which really, Olympia is not a town to be overly concerned with that, you just need to be fresh washed and not ragged.

what is hella ragged however, is the 'current state of affairs' for many people. things seem to be deteriorating in larger institutional functions, yet i feel like it is just the face layer sloughing off to reveal the scaffold structure underneath. i am of course talking about the US federal government institutions, built on fundamentally flawed systems and full of features that reinforce behaviors, ideas, and beliefs which form a huge discrepancy between the ought and the is. but we're not the only ones. many countries based on western philosophy are crumbling. it's a lot to get into in one journal, but it's not impossible to figure out. yes it's daunting. rightly so. millions of lives coexisting is undoubtedly complicated by its nature. what do do about that complexity is where the crucial questions and arrangements happen. and we can handle it! if everyone were aimed at that goal: the goal of appropriately addressing the complexity of human life on earth.

now that promises (not just made by mistah 45, but by every politician) and mechanisms and arrangements have been laid mostly bare (with the age of information allowing mass public access), we can look past the face of any authority, past the cult of personality, and see the structure for what it is: something designed by human beings over time. a design can be changed, undone, redesigned, remodeled, refurbished, modernized, by the same hands that built it. human minds. and we are smarter and more informed than ever before.

we humans must take care of each other. this doesn't mean putting others before yourself. it means acknowledging the base facts: support yourself, and then you are able to support others. but when you invest in others with your surplus, we will all be supported. because the fact is: not everyone can invest in others. life is asymmetrical. but those who have the ability must. we cannot live alone. ivory towers (exploitative by namesake) are unhealthy. isolation is unhealthy. "i've got mine" mentality is unhealthy. it's time to get healthy as a species.

woof! let's get at it!