So I am officially 16 now. My birthday is always on the 15 of October. I honestly have mixed feelings about this, and I know that I should be proud about it, but the idea that I'm getting older and that I have a certain number of years before my childhood officially ends is kind of unnerving to me.
I am getting older, and that means that people will have higher expectations from me, and soon I'm going to have to worry about college and all that adult life. I suppose the reason for all this useless angst is because I have always been afraid of change. Ever since I was younger, I always hated the idea that things had to be different, even for me. I am worried about how I am going to change as I get older. And I'm worried about what life will throw at me once I enter the world of the adult.
I guess I just need to be reminded that its okay to change and that I can move forward if I want to. I just need a bit of time to accept all that is happening, because in the next two years, I will legally be an "adult" at age 18. And that's kind of weird for me. I just need to find a way to clear all that stress away. I should be happy about this, right?
15 October 2017 at 23:32:04 MDT